Hey! Iām a huuuge RepCom fan and in the middle of re-reading the books (for the thousandth time), and also not the hugest Kal fan - Iām curious about one of your HC posts where you mention that Ordo becomes estranged from Kal and effectively divorced from Besany, how do you see this happening and why? Itās been haunting me for days!
In reference to this headcanon post. This is a really long one. The short of it is:
Kal, it happens over Kalās decision to destroy the cure. It estranges all of the Nulls, including ultimately Ordo, because it puts on very clear display just how harmful Kalās self-centeredness and disregard for the choices of others is. It forces Ordo to take another look at his entire relationship with Kal, and he finds it wanting. He doesnāt come back.
Besany, itās a long process, one that happens as she and Ordo struggle with the very way theyāve approached the relationship. It gets burdened with misplaced idealism, the idea that the only normal life Ordo will have is connected to this relationship, the controlling environment in which they formed this relationship which has negatively affected an otherwise surprisingly healthy one, and generally various needs to step away from the relationship and be alone for a while. Eventually, after theyāve squared everything with themselves, they do get the opportunity to try againāand they do with success.
Kal is an easier one. I see youāre also not a Kal fan, so I wonāt rehash the entire thing about how Kal isnāt as good as he is framed to be. But for any third parties, it is my view that Kal fails as a guardian and, while he is well-meaning, he is controlling, manipulative, disregarding of his childrenās needs, and emotionally abusive. Iāve written about it extensively here, but I can stand to do it a little moreāanyone wanting to know more, my ask is open.
Though I basically disregard a lot of what Legacy of the Force did with Clan Skirata and dismiss entirely out of hand everything Traviss planned for Imperial Commando 2, I do retain one thing: Kal seeks to destroy the aging cure.
The exact details on his motivations are still a little fuzzy, but Iām certain he does so because he believes it is the best way to protect the family. However, it is a decisions that best serves hisĀ interests, not that of anybody else in the family; ultimately, it is a self-serving and self-centered decision. Broadly, there is staunch disagreement on this, most vocally the Nulls. With one exception, Ordo. Though Ordo very much agrees the cure should not be destroyed, he finds himself being asked to choose between Kal and the other Nulls. Despite it all, and despite how far heās come, Ordo still views losing Kalās approval as an existential threat. He adopts a neutral stance because he is afraid and he is trying to have it both ways. Among the Nulls, at least, there is understanding for why Ordo is scared to vocally oppose Kal.
To get to the point, despite the overwhelming disagreement, Kal ends up destroying the cure anyway. Or, he thinks he does. Mereel, being clever and having Aādenās support, secretly saved some of itājust in case.
It isnāt enough, however, to save the family. Mereel, disgusted, is immediately estranged from Kal, and the others drift off as well. Ordo, ends up being the last of the six to remain. Seeing the others feel pushed away from Kal wears his own relationship to Kal down. Blame @tapcaftogoā especially for this last part, but Mereel apparently dies. Though it isnāt entirely accurate, Ordo jumps to the conclusion:Ā āIf Kal hadnāt driven him out, Mereel would still be alive.ā
(Just to throw it in here to reassure you, heās not actually dead. Heās just believed dead.)
Sure, inaccurate, but itās the start of a very long journey down realizing that Kal has hurt them all immensely anyway. Coupled with Ordoās own guilt that he let fear of losing Kalās approval over supporting the five siblings he loves more than anything else in the galaxy, it fractures whatever is left of Ordoās relationship with Kal.
Unable to cope with the immense amount of stress, he suffers a debilitating nervous breakdown, gets pulled out of Kyrimorut by Besany, and doesnāt look back. The subsequent process of dealing with grief, recovering from his breakdown, gaining the distance to finally grasp the true nature of his relationship with Kal, working through it all solidifies the estrangement.
Ordo is forced to face the extreme end of how Kalās disregard for their decisions and how his self-centeredness hurts them and, coupled with the physical and emotional distance his nervous breakdown demands, he is given the chance to look back at it all and see it for what it is.
Besany is a harder one to explain, but itās very much based on headcanon. Iāve written two posts on it: some rough sketching, on motivations for why it developed. Specifically, Ordo and Besany are still married, they never formally divorce, but they are separated and are open to seeing other people. Though it wasnāt exactly as intended at the time, what ends up happening is that Ordo and Besany go on (a very long) breakāthey separate, but ultimately they get back together eight or nine years later.
Ordo is so very young. He doesnāt have any life experience nor does he have a completely settled sense of identity. The way Kal raised him to think of romantic relationships isnāt completely healthy either: to have a normal life, Ordo mustĀ have a marriage. Besany as a spouse becomes an integral, inseparable part of Ordo having a normal life. Itās a framework that is susceptible to pedestals and possessiveness and stifling idealism.Ā
And I think thatās what happens.Ā The relationship gets stiflingābecause they get trapped in pitfalls that they didnāt adequately work out in the early stages. As they change, they get anxious about what the other thinks of them and both start focusing on what they believe the other expects from a good spouse. They start turning inward, into themselves, into their own anxietiesāas is their tendency to do as intensely self-reliant personsāinstead of turning outward toward each other. They project, they assume, they disconnect. As they both change, the disconnect grows greater until it starts to fester into resentment.
To add onto it, much of their early relationship is informed by the fact that they are both very lonely people who are desperate for the validation and emotional support offered by each other. They love each other, deeply and sincerely, but there is a potential for a lingering shadow on their relationship that this was something built because they had no other choice.
I basically conceive of it as Ordo coming back to this relationship once he has a firmer sense of self, stronger ability to navigate a close relationship, and a more developed understanding of his own personal needs and of how to tend to someone elseās needs. Besany, for her own part, doesnāt have the same identity and boundary issues to work outābut her life has had a series of major upheavals, and sheās been swept into this family and her choices limited to what this single family, what Kal specifically, has wanted to do and wanted her to do. She needs the ability to step out of this circle just to know that she can. This was a family structure that, when Kal was in it, was immensely controlling and was almost violently reluctant to allow people to leave it. Even though Ordo would never retaliate against her should she decide to leave him, she needs that peace of mind to know that she can safely leave him. And feeding into that, Ordo needs to be alone. He needs to know that her leaving him isnāt the end of the world. He needs to learn that he can and is able to stand on his ownādespite his fears about being left, despite all heās been told about how his life cannot be normal without her.
After everything about the situation they were in has done to them and how it has negatively influenced a relationship between them that has so much good to offer, they both need the certainty that being alone can offer them. They both step away from the relationship to give each other and themselves the breathing room to figure things out.
Itās like⦠weirdly complicated in my head, and I donāt think Iām explaining it right, but thatās how it is. They need breathing room, especially Ordo. They need time to come to terms with the new contexts of their lives and figure themselves out aloneāso that they donāt tie everything into this relationship and ask of this relationship the impossible.
How exactly it happens, there isnāt a specific incident really for it. Itās just a slow degrading over time, them growing distant from each other, at times skating so close to resentment. Itās just ongoing strain in their relationship and their inability to accommodate the kind of person their beloved is becoming strains them more. They do both still love each other, itās just that theyāve begun to struggle to manage the lingering issues that have plagued them and theyāve ignored since the beginning. Ordo, especially, grows afraid of being resented. In an effort to save themselves, to save each other, they decide to cut each other loose before they both get dragged into the undertow and drown.
I donāt really have an inciting incident right now for why they chose to part ways, but it was a long-time coming.
Itās the best decision for them both. They survive. They grow. They settle into themselves. They never get divorced because they donāt want to formally admit they gave up and failed. They both still hold a flame, though itās one they both feel silly acknowledging directly to even themselves. They, ultimately, get the chance to try againāand since theyāve worked out a lot of issues with themselves and their worldviews, itās a more successful relationship this time.
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āOne of the communications officers stationed at headquarters, Ciryl Vai. A sweet-faced Mirialan with a soothing drawl tailored for the comms. The kind of voice one wanted to fall asleep too, and I did many times. He often joked he was meant to be a broadcast jockey. Insisted he wouldāve made in a different era, even been a star. I indulged him. Said he was right. Said he could still make it once we settled the galaxy to rights. We were at war. What else was I supposed to say? You find the good things where you can, and you make them if you have to.
āHe kissed me in an empty backroom at headquarters because thereās nothing more romantic than dusty crates and stolen inventory. It all happened quickly after thatā or, it felt quick next to how slow things with Besany went. But it was fast, and it was brief.
āOften, I hesitate to say he was my boyfriend. Looking back, it was almost more several weeks of a fling than a proper commitment. We almost did. We started looking at the long-term. He was transferring to a unit in the field who needed help setting up a clandestine communications broadcast in the Mid Rim. My team and I were going on longer and longer jaunts away from home base. We didnāt know how, if at all, we were going to navigate this.
āWe never faced that question head on.
āHe was born and raised on Mirial. Unhappy with the deeply stratified social classes there, built on the bones of its most treasured and honored traditions, he left home and never thought once of going back. He abandoned it all, the culture, the traditions. I couldnātā I still donāt understand how he could manage it. Just as well: he couldnāt understand how much the Mandalorian traditions meant to me or why I navigated everything I understood about myself by my peopleās customs. He couldnāt understand why I chose to ātrapā myself in them.
āWe argued about all that instead. Not a shouting match, no. Just a long conversation refused to end, rankled in each of us, and then grew more frustrating each time one of us revived it again.
āI left base with my team the next morning, and I thought about it on the jump through hyperspace. I couldnāt give an indeterminate length of my life to a man who didnāt understand why I could not do as he does and reshape my identity independent of the traditions I hold dear. I wrote him a message, and I told him I couldnāt commit to him. I thought it wiser to end things there. I didnāt hear back.
āBy the time I returned to headquarters, he already left for the Mid Rim. I knew where he was, who he was with, but I never tried to contact him. It didnāt really matter to me anymore. Iād already moved on, cold as that sounds.
āWe were at war. What else was I supposed to do? You protect yourself from the unnecessary wounds, especially the emotional, never let yourself get bogged down, and you keep going straight through. You make yourself cold and distant if you have to.ā
What does Arca Barracks look like, most likely? Is it a part of a larger military base, seperate from the streets of Coruscant? I have a feeling I've probably been imagining it fairly wrong this whole time.
The short answer is that the Arca Barracks is a wing of the larger Special Operations Brigade Headquarters (SO HQ) and is presumably part of multiple barracks blocks dedicated to the troopers serving in the brigade. It appears to be inaccessible to public, and I agree with you as imagining it separate from the public streets of Coruscant. SO HQ is located three kilometers (1.86 miles) away from GAR HQ, but I imagine that the SO HQ complex is a smaller complex located within a massive and sprawling military complex that comprises the GAR HQ. SO HQ maintains many of its own facilities, including a landing strip and hangars.
The longer answer involves working through the usage of the phrase āArca Barracksā to refer to SO HQ, the grounds and facilities at the SO HQ, and attempts at figuring out the spatial relationship between all of these.
Location of Arca Barracks and SO HQ
Arca Company Barracks, often just referred to as Arca Barracks, is a barracks block for the Special Operations Brigade. Itās presumably one of multiple barracks blocks, one for each company in the brigade; this one is for, as the name suggests, Arca Company. Arca Barracks are described as being a wing of the Special Operations Brigade Headquarters, and presumably other barracks blocks are considered different wings of the SO HQ complex. Presumably, they together make up the sometimes referenced accommodation block of the SO HQ complex.
SO HQ is located three kilometers (1.86 miles) away from the GAR HQ, which Iām assuming is the same as Coruscant Command HQ, and the SO HQ is distinct from Fleet Ops HQ. Iām not sure what the spatial relationship between Fleet Ops HQ and GAR HQ is. Itās likely that the SO HQ is a smaller complex part of the GAR HQ military complex, which I assume is massive and sprawling like everything else on Coruscant. The Arca Barracks, however, is completely separate from the barracks set aside for troopers not part of the brigade. The Arca Barracks are described as being right off or reasonably near a square that is open to the public. However, nobody is guarding the Arca Barracks until after the Battle of Coruscant; Ordoās ID is checked after the Battle of Coruscant, and he notes this as odd. The Arca Barracks and the SO HQ complex appear to be inaccessible to the public at all times. I imagine that, like the main portion of GAR HQ complex, they are separate from the streets and other public areas of Coruscant.
Interpretation of phrasing
Many characters seem to use the phrase āArca Barracksā to refer to what is known as the brigadeās HQ Main Admin Building. Zeyās office is sometimes described as part of SO HQ proper, in the Main Admin Building, and sometimes itās described as part of Arca Barracks (henceforth simply āthe barracksā unless otherwise stated). Corridors that seem to be part of the Main Admin Building are described to be located in the barracks. Generally, I interpret that this usage of the phrasing in these contexts doesnāt refer to the barracks block itself but rather itās a kind of synecdoche to refer to the SO complex as a whole.
Grounds and facilities
The barracks is described as having its own parade ground, training wing, gymnasium presumably in the training wing, landing strip, hangars, and armory; however, through the interpretation I outline in the previous section, I tend to believe these arenāt specific to the barracks but that these are actually part of the entire SO HQ complex grounds. Similarly, Ordo describes that there is often a row of ādispatch speeder bikesā by the main entrance of the barracks, but I often wonder if they arenāt actually by the HQ main entrance. The barracks themselves are mentioned to have a recreation room or area, and I tend to assume barracks blocks for other companies have their own. The Main Admin Building also contains numerous briefing rooms.
The barracks are accessible from a ground floor main entrance, which presumably is located on the parade ground; this main entrance opens into a long corridor. The barracks are also accessible via a turbolift, and Zeyās office is described as being a turbolift ride down from Ordoās quarters. Thereās presumably side entrances to the barracks accessible from the parade ground, hence the phrasing āmain entranceā. Sev considers it a shortcut to cut across the parade ground to get to Deltaās quarters from Zeyās office.
The parade ground is one of the most significant features of the SO HQ complex. Itās made of ferrocrete, and itās described as āa platform edged with a low retaining wall and a border of manicured bushes". It can be seen from many rooms in the wings of the complex, including Deltaās quarters and the barracks recreation room. Many buildings and wings of the complex are accessible from the parade ground, including the main and side entrances to the armory and the main entrance to the hangars. Quick pickups via speeder are often made on the parade ground. I generally imagine that the parade ground is the centerpiece of the SO HQ complex and that all other buildings, wings, and areas are arranged around it, much like how many college campuses are arranged around a quad or other structures or complexes are arranged around a courtyard.
Population and activity
As stated before, the Arca Barracks are for Arca Company. Those who have their quarters in Arca Barracks include Omega squad, Delta squad, Ordo and presumably the other Nulls, Maze, and Kal; Etain is later stated to be staying at these barracks rather than the Jedi Temple.
Generally, the barracks, the parade ground, the Main Admin Building, and basically any part of the SO HQ complex is empty. The parade ground is often completely empty āexcept for the occasional impromptu game of bolo-ballā. Darman describes the barracks: āArca Barracks was eerily empty much of the time, with most of the commando squads deployed and only a handful there between missions to debrief, recuperate a little, and pick up any necessary retraining and new kit.ā After the Battle of Coruscant, Ordo notes the corridors of the barracks being empty means ālittle had changed for the Republic commandosā.
Other notes
Regarding the siege at the SO Barracks shortly after the Battle of Geonosis, it is unclear if Arca Barracks is specifically the one the Nulls held. Theyāre said to have āshut down the whole barracksā and Camas refuses to āobliterate an whole barracks blockā because of them, and every mention of whatever barracks block theyāre holding and how many is unspecified. But it is very likely that it is Arca Barracks.
Ordo has a desk and presumably an office for that desk to stand in. However, itās described as being at Fleet Ops HQ, not at SO HQ. Again, because Iām unsure where or what Fleet Ops is relative to both SO HQ and GAR HQ, I have no idea how far Ordo has to travel to get to his desk from the barracks. It seems to me that Ordo splits his time between Fleet Ops and SO HQ.
No civilians are ever described as working at SO HQ, but there are civilians working at Coruscant Command HQ. (See: the logistics center.) Thereās probably civilians working at Fleet Ops as well, seeing as Ordo wearing his helmet is a dead giveaway that heās at his office and Ordo flat refuses to remove his helmet for the comfort of civilians.
// I really havenāt talked about why I ended up deciding Ordo takes up painting, but like, in many ways, itās similar to why Iāve come to believe he starts raising plants. (Hereās a post about the plants.)
And, itās about grounding, and growth, and acceptance. Itās about having something that isnāt death and ruin and war. Itās about having something to put his energy into, something other than feeding into his constant anxiety. About coming to accept mistakes and comes to terms with imperfectionāimperfect but still good. About developing the ability to nurture and to create that he feels heās so sorely missing.
From a Doylist perspective too, I also wanted to try to express softer parts of Ordo without undermining all his sharp edges. He sometimes lacks a poetic sensibility, but he seems sensitive to the experience of things and the sensual qualities of things around him.Ā And, admittedly, it also started a bit as a joke, because itās just a surprising interest for Ordo to have. And itās just something thatās never associated with his rigid, high-strung, demanding archetype.
But, it does suit Ordo in its way. An eye for detail. Analytical. Understanding of how smaller, sometimes even seemingly unimportant, elements make up a whole. And, well, thereās just something touching about it.
I sometimes joke about Ordo being a perfectionist, yes, but in all seriousness, he developed this intense perfectionism as a direct result of being sentenced to death as a child for failing to meet Kaminoan standards, assessed largely on a scale he wasnāt wholly aware of.
It developed in response to what is arguably the greatest trauma of his life.
Because he once failed criteria he didnāt have full knowledge of, he continues to constantly perform in pursuit of an unseen model of perfection that heās convinced heās being measured to, living in constant terror that he will very literally die if he fails short to even the smallest degree.
But, he is keenly aware that he isnāt meeting this standard because he hyper-focuses on and catalogues every single slip-up. On top of this, in that trauma, the Kaminoans literally told him the mistake comes out of his very genetic mix, and with that comes the implication that he is inherently incapable of meeting that standard deserving of life. As a result, heās living in the constant anxiety of waiting for others around him to notice and to punish him for itālike knowing the guillotine will drop but having no idea when.
Iām sure if Ordo could stop getting stuck on trying to be perfect, he would. Heād love to just not worry about it. Itās causing him so much stress and fear. But, he canāt just do that.
Itās been burned into his subconscious: he needs to be perfect or he needs to die.
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What's Ordo's opinion of Bardan Jusik and Etain Tur-Makin?
Iām going to write the short version of this, because I can write an extremely long post on his opinions on Jusik and Etain (Tur-Mukan).
Ordo, as I see it, tends to try to like Jusik because he feels like he should. Kal is fond of Jusik, and so Ordo feels like he owes it to Kal to try to be fond of Jusik as well. Generally, I feel like there isnāt overly much affection between the two. They are on good terms, but are not particularly close. Ordo, in Triple ZeroĀ at least, feels as though he is older than Jusik, even if the pair are the same physical age at that current moment; and this suggests to me that. at this moment, Ordo feels that Jusik is much more naive than he is. Jusikās over-enthusiasm to be a member of the group annoys Ordo at times, even while Ordo worries that the group is taking advantage of Jusikās need to be part of a family. Largely, Ordo doesnāt seem to have an overly strong opinion of Jusik, more interested in the unique situation that Jusik is in and more curious about Jusikās particular life experience.
With Etain, Ordoās relationship with her shifts over the course of the novels. It starts off rocky, because she uses a check command at which he reflexively stops doing everythingāwhich he feels endangered his life. He is very angry about this in the moment, though later he accepts her apology and does not harbor a grudge against her for it; he still does not trust her because of this, and he struggles to be fond of her over this incident.
In time, he tries to make the attempt to like her for Darmanās sake. After a very open and sincere conversation with her on their way to Dorumaa, Ordo comes to recognize that sheās disenfranchised, in a different way, and finds empathy for her; he also finds common ground in their commitment to their families and dislike to be forced on backlines while their loved ones are in danger. As Etain says shortly after, Ordo finds a lot of patience for her in very little time on the basis of this conversation. Ordo becomes very kind to her and very fond of herāthough the novels generally drops any development in their relationship. Still, itās implied they become very close, and Ordo is the first to break down in tears for a few moments when her body is brought to Kyrimorut after her death; Fi isnātĀ āas surprised as he thought he would beā when he sees Ordo is the first to break.
A little more on point, Ordo initially thinks Etain to be someone who is desperate to belong to a family, and he worries that he and Kal are taking advantage of her desperation for such. He pities her for how she never has known such closenessāan opinion he has of all Jedi, actually. Similar to Jusik, he thinks her somewhat naive, though he deeply appreciates her commitment to pragmatic action over theoretical ideals. (Itās worth noting he respects this exact same quality in Jedi Master Zey, who trained both Jusik and Etain.) He comes to respect her opinion, at one time asking her assessment of Jusik and his decision to leave the Order. Later in their relationship, he appears to think sheās grown much since his initial assessments of her and considers her a capable leader who is, at the very least, trying to the best she can with the worst of circumstances.
It was a delicate point, the one secret that Kal had kept from his Null boys: that his biological sons had declared him darābuirāno longer a father, parental divorce Mando-styleāwhen he vanished from the galaxy with the rest of the Mandalorian training sergeants. The army-in-waiting on Kamino was so secret that they could tell nobody where theyād gone.
Yes, Skirataās sons still denounced him for vanishing, even though they would have been grown men themselves by that time. Two sons and a daughter: Tor, Ijaat, and Ruusaan.
// From Ordoās narration in True Colors. Ordo overhears this secret when he walks into Etain and Kal arguing at the end of Triple Zero. Specifically, he hears:Ā āYour own sons disowned you for putting your clone soldiers before them.ā Shortly after, he confirms:Ā āIs it true what Etain said? Did your sons disown you because you stayed on Kamino with us?āĀ āItās true, Ordāika.ā
While Kal tells Etain that he had two sons and a daughter, Tor, Ijaat, and Ruusaan, these details donāt come up in what we see Ordo hearing and knowing. That Ordo knows how many biological sons Kal has, that he also has a biological daughter, and what their names are says that Ordo and Kal talked about this at least once again afterward.