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ten truths // accepting (3/10)

"A chance to fix something I fucked up..." She repeats quietly. "I've fucked up a lot. 's hard to say what I'd want to fix, if I can only pick one thing."

There's a long pause.

"...I'd write Ami back," Sharlene finally admits. "She left before poryphones were common, so... She wrote mama and I letters from Lilycove. I was so mad at her for leavin' that I... Never responded to them. Barely read a lot of 'em, too. Mama hit me for that, once, cuz it made Ami real sad, but I didn't care if it hurt her." Another pause, followed by a heavy sigh.

family talk // accepting

"Ami is..." They pause, a hand reaching up to rub the back of their neck. "I owe her a lot. She's done so much for me, besides just letting me move in with her—which, I gotta say, I am eternally grateful for, because I really... Really do not know what I would'a done if she didn't let me live with her. I didn't have many options, an' I think she knew that, so I...

"See, it's so fuckin' complicated!" A pause, and a sigh. "It's so complicated... Like, see, it's... Like I said, I owe her a lot! She was like a third parent to me when I was little, she was there for me when mom and dad were too busy for me, and I know she loves me, and... I love her too, obviously, but...

"There's a part of me that hates her. There's a part of me that hasn't forgiven her. It's... Unfair. My feelings, I mean. Ami was only eighteen when she left home, and I know, trust me, I know she wouldn't have been able to properly support an eight year old, that's why she didn't take me with her when she left. I know this. I understand this... And yet...

"There's a part of me that hates her, because she left me alone with mama for eight years. She could'a come and gotten me at any point, and she didn't. I had to go to her, get on my hands and knees, beg her to let me stay with her. I owe her my life, and our relationship right now is good, I guess, but it... Hurts, still.