Feb 8, 2013
Confession 1
I came close to almost liking myself on February 5th. I had a rope around my neck and I was ready to leave… Memories with everyone stopped me.
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Confession 1
I came close to almost liking myself on February 5th. I had a rope around my neck and I was ready to leave… Memories with everyone stopped me.
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Please Help Vlad
To everyone who follows Vladimir Rose on either of these accounts: sinister--uso, a-clatter-of-blue
Vlad is having a very serious time right now, and needs all of the support he can get. Many times he's told us about how he self-harms, how his home and school situation is terrible, and recently, he's just recovered from an illness that almost took his life. But now, he seems to be talking like he'll commit suicide.
As Vlad's friend, I refuse to let this happen. I love Vlad, so much, he's one of the greatest friends I've ever had and my personal Bunny-senpai. He makes me laugh when my day has been shit, and I hate to see him like this. I don't want him to go away. Today he posted a very frightening goodbye message, and I think he just might commit suicide.
Please, if you care about Vlad, or if you even care about human life at all, please go send him a message saying anything kind, encouraging, or comforting. He needs us all right now.
To the Academi group, I know we've been getting busy and distracted all through out the group, and I'm sure you all see it to. But Vlad needs us again, and if we lose him, we might not recover from this recent distance. He needs us.
Okay guys. I have good news and bad news. Lets start with the bad news. Last night I actually stopped breathing in my sleep. Luckily one of the nurses was in the room and saved me in time. The good news is that they found out that I'm actually going to live longer. They said that while I was asleep my body was fighting the illness and it managed to do just that. That,eans I'm going to live much longer. So I was correct. I prove those doctors wrong. c: .. But they said I still have a long I time until I can recover fully.
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God.. Why.. The nurse gave me some sleeping pills and I only have like 5 minutes until I go knockout. FFFF. I almost finished all the starters to and I'm yawning like crazy. YOU KNOW WHAT. I'M GOING TO LIVE. I'M NOT GOING TO LET MYSELF DIE. I'LL LIVE. I KNOW I WILL. Everyone gave so much love and support that I'm going to fight back the illness. I'll prove the doctors wrong that I'm going to live. Wait and see. :DD
I was looking through my followers and realized.. SHIT. I owe hello of a lot of starters. LOOK AT THIS. IT'S MADNESS.
Who knew being sick you could get a lot of followers like this..
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Anyone want to RP. I want to get as much RP in as I can~
Hello. My name s Vladamir Rose. I live in Texas and I’m Asian. My religion is Cambodian, but I look more like a American then a Asian. I’m 17 years old and I have had a lot of tragedy in my life. First, I was always bullied and I am still currently today. Second, my family doesn’t really like me, but I learned to just ignore the hatred. Third and last of all, I’m very ill in a hospital bed with a laptop in my lap as I talk to everyone one who I care and love to death… Now I can go on give a description about my self. Like I said up there in the little intro.  My name is Vladamir Rose, and I’m a 17 year old who is very ill. I have no pets, but I use to have two dogs. Sadly they died of old age. Their name was Chewy and Tiger. Sadly I only have a picture of Tiger, but Chewy looks exactly the same as Tiger… Only that the brown spots are black and he’s much more smaller. I live in a small house with a huge family. My family is low on money and can’t really afford a lot of things. The house we live in is yello and has a bunny statue in the front eating a strawberry. Two rocking chairs and one bench. My room is ALWAYS clean. I have O.C.D issues with neatness. When ever you come into my room it’s always clean and neat… Also organized. My room is next the backyard. I literally mean it. There’s two doors. One door leading to the backyard and one to the living room. It’s a small room, but I like it. It’s rather cozy. (Lol.. They look like they’re smiling. )  ————————————————————————-  Alright, on to the the next thing. I’m a weird kid. Weird? Yes, weird. I always mutter to myself and people think I’m talking to ghosts. I see ghosts sometimes in my house which scared the living daylights out of me… I know they can’t hurt me because they always hurt my family instead of me. I know they’re on my side and not theirs( Score one for Vlad ). I actually like the company of ghosts. I talk to them and they respond back with a sound or knocking a object a specific object I ask them to knock over. I feel them around me most of the time.. It’s like they’re my guardian angel. How ironic.  Further more, I want to say my life sucks. I don’t get a lot to eat and I pretty much starve some nights. I manage to sneak a bit of things here and there with out getting noticed by anyone. I’m really a sweet person who doesn’t deserve any of this, but faith and god put me into this life. Life can be really unfair to me.. Example. I only got a total of 5 presents for Christmas while my siblings got like 15. UNFAIR. At least I got something…  I received so much love when I joined Academi and Tumblr. I met so many wonderful people and I want to get to know everyone even more. When I was little I had a childish wish. I guess I can tell the story.. I want it to come true…  ( I’m improvising myself as a kid. xd.. I have no kid pictures of me. ) I was only a small child and I sat by my grandfather on his porch. They lived out in the country and we were both looking up at the sky. I said something that he thought was actually decent. “Grandpa… The stars up in the sky… Since there’s a zillion of them… If I die of something… I want people to know that I will be dieing soon. I don’t want to let the family know and our Aunties and Uncles. I want everyone in the world to know.” I remember that exact line because I wrote it down somewhere. It’s really a coincidence right now, now that I remember it.  My idea is that I want to get this post to be re-blogged by a bunch of people. Each re-blog means one star. Simple. I hate to ask for people to do this, but I want to do this for me and everyone who had someone special died. Even if that special is a pet or a object. That special thing is means everything to you. It’s unique in it’s own way and different from everyone.
To one of the people I have considered close to me and I definitely can't fit into a short title with all the words I would have to be able to use- Vlad,
Honestly---Like I've told you before, I'm not the best person with words. I can't tell you what's right or whats wrong, and good lord I sure as hell am not bright enough to get what I want across right to you. So bear with me. The time we have spent RPing is one that I will treasure in my memories. I told you once that when I create characters, they are fragments of my soul. Each interaction with you, was one that I felt myself going through. Each tear that fell or each smile that broke upon my face was real.
I don't give a damn to people who tell me that people you meet in real life are the only real friends you can have or anything of the sort. Vlad- I know that you've been going through such hard times- things that someone as young as you should never have to even have had at all. Nobody deserves this, especially such a sweetheart like you. Life is crazy and works is so many ways that we all want to break this cycle and just live the way we wish. I know I'm harsh in saying that it's never that simple and it's never going to be that easy-- but it's the sad reality that we all must accept. Still though, I admire you. Look at yourself- with all this, you still try and smile each and every day. You put up a brave front just so you can keep going each day. I have no clue how you do it and wish I had met you earlier to help you through all of your problems.
The time we have spent is so short but I've come to consider you as one of the people I would take a plane ticket for and fly halfway across the world to. No matter how small of a problem was, I would have tried to be there for you. If I could, I would have been a shield. I'm sorry sorry for a lot of things and not being able to help you. I wanted to be able to meet you in person and see you smile- a genuine one. You are a wonderful person who deserves so much more than this life, and I'm sorry that this news has befallen you. You said you wanted to learn each person just a little better right?
Well my name is Vanessa which actual nickname is Vin. I've been RPing since October 2012- and my birthday is April 7th sometime near yours, and I'm an asian who wears wonky glasses, and---a person who considers you a dear friend and thankful that you became a part of my life. I can't say much more than what everyone else has said- but thank you. Thank you for coming into my life, thank you for talking to me about your problems and thank you for being born. I will never forget you and will always the treasure the time we've spoken. You have an absolute beautiful way with words and it sways my heart each time.
You will not die.
And you will not fade.
You will always remain in my memories- so thank you once more. If happiness is able to reach you at all, I hope it shines down upon you like the sun. Because you are absolutely stunning and a star so bright in the sky- you will never fade after eons and eons of being there.
- From Crux or Vin or Just whatever you call me.