#singlehumor

There is just something about Christmas time that can make you feel so alone. I don't really buy into the lovey dovey stuff about Christmas, I'm pretty sure I don't need a significant other to blow copious amounts of money on to feel complete. (If I see one more of those "Every Kiss Begins With Kay" commercials...) You can have very fulfilling relationships that make you happy, not needing a romantic one. If that weren't true then I'd be reeeaaal bummed- going on 4 years of being single in every possible meaning, shape, and/or form of the word. But, for some reason I can't quite figure out, the last 2 Christmas seasons have felt...weighty, in a lonely kind of way. Maybe it's because I'm almost 26 and my eggs are begging to be fertilized, but who really knows. Maybe it's a combination of that and being home where I tend to feel out of sorts in general. Home and unfertilized eggs...yea that's enough to make anyone a little crazy. Especially if that anyone is a hormonal woman that can't figure out how she got to be the age that she is.

But I digress. 

Singleness. How long can one be single before it gets too hard? I guess with God's grace it will never be too hard, but a difficult test nonetheless. Most of the time I never think about not having "that" person. In fact, I make it a point to focus on the pros- one being I have the rest of my life to be married. Just a few days ago I found a school project from way back when where I had to plan my wedding, complete with a budget and the whole shebang. The first thing I noticed was my hideous taste, and secondly that my wedding was set for 2015. Did I know how to add back then? That's 28! I always was bad at math. I also recall saying many times that I wanted to be at least 25 before I was married. I guess God was listening. Bleh.