#singingbun

heya! what do you mean by “focus” – just buying dates and stuff? because there are no personal preferences affecting the main story at the moment. even if you buy specific dates or side stories or bonus items for just a specific character, it has no effect on the main story. those are all separate. if you focus on just one character, it just affects your experience and understanding of the game lore haha. some unlockable side stories for the other suitors contain useful information about the whole story. ✿

tldr version: the plot never changes even if you just buy victor dates or just gavin dates. ♪

by chapter 19 tho, they’ll introduce a mini “solo” path for the suitors in the main story. don’t be misled tho, it HARDLY counts as a solo route. it doesn’t affect the main story either. you just go on that path for a bit then you’ll resume the main chapter. it’ll just be a side path concentrated on your chosen suitor (unlocked with items of course). (^ ^*)♡

heya~ oh okay! that’s what you meant by focus haha. umm, you’d need a certain intimacy level to unlock certain stuff for the suitors like dates or footage stages– but you can easily get to that level through the normal texts and moments you randomly unlock. the only reason you’d want to raise all of their intimacy is to get the custom frame for each suitor at intimacy level 21. otherwise, there really isn’t anything important that happens from raising intimacy levels. it won’t really affect the story if one guy’s intimacy is higher than the rest. (°◡°)

heya! this is just my personal preference but i really think doing nobunaga’s route at least once (his dramatic route) is a must. the warlords talk about him + what he wants to do, but in most routes nobunaga never really shows what he’s actually thinking. doing his route helps you understand him and see through his usual arrogant troll persona. it’s a good route! ☆

It's been years, hasn't it? Since I last posted here or have done anything of any sort. To think that the highlight of my 20s was my time spent on this platform, writing and participating fandoms I was interested in, making the long anime/manga lists of titles I both watched and heard 2nd-hand. Thinking back, I felt like I was trying to chase after the long repression of my teenage years, where I was often on edge who made it a priority to please people and my family. And in many ways than one, I made so many bad takes. Said so many misinformed perspectives on topics towards specific fandom dramas and the like. At the same time, my time here on this blog was also insightful and in many ways felt like my 19-20-ish self was far smarter than the current 30-yr old me.

I didn't leave soon with most of the Tumblr exodus, I stayed. But what led me to stop logging in was neither the internet's social discourse or whatever panic was going around. It was my depression that was clawing its way out of me. The negativity on both my timeline and all round on so many online spaces made me close the book to everything. I ended up retreating to FFXIV for a total of 4 years that had helped me stave away from the fears and depression that was eating me away.

But that wasn't enough. I was still avoiding it. Still avoiding the things that had bogged me down and rendered me useless. I wasted so much of my youth in fear and endless retreat until there was no sanctuary left for me to hide. Time is a bitch. Depression is a bigger bitch. I do not lament because I'm 30 years old. I lamented over the time I wasted away when I could have spent it on making a better foundation for myself instead of nursing the wounds of my depression. The fact that it's only this year that I've decided to start again and refocus on my life is still an embarrassing thing to admit.

Having said all of this, its crazy to me that years and years after all of what was said and done, I found myself coming back to this place. My very first social media experience and found myself a stranger of this old blog. I do not write this post to ask for sympathy. Nor do I write this for any other cause. I just. Missed this. All of this. Long paragraphs. Writing every word without the need to count. Writing down my thoughts without the fear of saying the wrong word that would make people misunderstand. This sort of space that allows me to explain myself in full context if I am misunderstood.

What my life has taught me in the scope of all my 30 years in retrospect is that minds like me can only ever gain wisdom through a volley of mistakes.

I wish it weren't so. I wish I didn't say the words I said that might've hurt someone. I wish I didn't do the things I did (or did not do) to have changed my situation. I wish that I could implant my 30 year old me into my 19-20 yr old self not to make such mistakes. But as I said. Time and Depression are a bitch. And I, the fool, made these decisions.

So what do I do now with this blog? I don't know. I really don't know. I'm not even sure what to expect what sort of environment 2025 Tumblr looks like. I'm even more unsure how 2026 Tumblr will look like even more so.

I have no idea what I ought to do with the blog, nor do I know if I would often frequent it and such. I'm not sure what to expect going forward. But for now, I just wanted to drop by and tell you all where I have been. I'm not sure how many will see this, but its good to see you.