#singdate

This is the usual script.....I worked this morning, started to feel weak 2 hours after breakfast...the usual. I wasn't feeling hungry at all but I thought I would check my sugars as i knew they were on the way down...They were 4.1mmol at 2 hours after porridge so i knew that in another half hour they would be low 3s so I had a banana. Started feeling more tired then, walking up the steps and carrying equipment was tough as usual, I'm so used to it these days that I just chug through it as I know that in a few hours I can collapse on a sofa. Which is where I am right now....

Anyway after the second hour of work today I went to meet some friends and have some soup...they suggested going to dunham massey  (a country park) straight after I finished my last hour of work at 1. 

I agreed and immediately I thought oh my god how am I gonna get out of this. I wanted to go but I was and am exhausted, it was too late though, if I cancelled again my friends are gonna start thinking I'm just really unreliable (which is factor in people that I really hate). I like people to stick to their word. I can't say I'm tired that's the worst excuse in the world....but the truth is I am tired, but on another level to what they assume is tired. I mean I'm out of breath, forcing myself to talk and I need to lie down.

LUCKILY my friend had a cold so cancelled on the trip and for once I was relieved it wasn't me. So I got home 30 minutes ago grabbed a packet of crisps as maybe they would help....(they didn't) and crashed on the sofa....I know I've got to take my dog out for a walk but I can't bring myself to do it just yet, I need to refuel my batteries.