#signlessknight

[11:27] DR: 1 H4T3 YOU SO MUCH

[11:27] VU: I'm sorry you feel that way.

[11:27] DR: YOU'R3 T4K1NG H1M FROM M3

[11:27] VU: I am not.

[11:27] DR: YOU 4R3 4ND 1 H4T3 YOU [11:28] DR: H3'S M1N3 [11:28] DR: H3 W4S M1N3 F1RST

[11:28] VU: He is yours. He was yours first and still is.

[11:28] DR: H3'S L34V1NG M3 [11:28] DR: 4ND 1T'S NOT F41R

[11:29] VU: You're right. That isn't fair. [11:29] VU: And I'm sorry.

[11:29] DR: 1'V3 TR13D SO H4RD [11:29] DR: TO B3 4 GOOD MO1R41L [11:29] DR: 1 LOV3D H1M SO M UCH [11:29] DR: W1TH 3V3RYTH1NG [11:29] DR: 4ND H3 [11:29] DR: 1 [11:30] DR: 1'M ST1LL LOS1NG H1M [11:30] DR: WHY [11:30] DR: WHYWHYWHY

[11:30] VU: Sometimes things just don't turn out the way they should.

[11:31] DR: 4LL OF TH1S 1S 34SY FOR YOU 1SN'T [11:31] DR: 1T [11:31] DR: YOU G3T TO K33P H1M [11:31] DR: YOU B4ST4RD [11:31] DR: YOU 4ND TH4T SH1TTY 4LT K1D

[11:32] VU: I don't know if I get to keep existing, much less keep Dave. [11:32] VU: But I am sorry.

[11:32] DR: OH BOO HOO [11:32] DR: YOU'R3 H4V1NG 4N 1D3NT1TY CR1S1S [11:32] DR: WH4T3V3R [11:32] DR: 1 DON'T 3V3N [11:32] DR: UND3RST4ND 4NY OF TH1S [11:32] DR: 1 H4T3 TH1S

[11:33] VU: I know. I'm sorry. That wasn't the best thing for me to say. [11:33] VU: If I could do more for you, Terezi, I would.

[11:33] DR: WHY COULDN'T H3 JUST G1V3 UP [11:33] DR: WHY COULDN'T H3 JUST 4CC3PT D1RK 1S GON3 [11:33] DR: WHY D1D H3 H4V3 TO GO LOOK1NG [11:34] DR: 1 H4T3 TH1S 1 H4T3 3V3RYTH1NG [11:34] DR: 1 JUST W4NT H1M TO ST4Y W1TH M3 [11:34] DR: 1 DON'T W4NT TO B3 LON3LY

[11:34] VU: I know. [11:34] VU: It's hard.

[11:36] DR: 1 [11:36] DR: H3'S M1N3 [11:37] DR: M1N3

[11:37] VU: Yes. [11:37] VU: But he has to do things for himself sometimes.

[11:37] DR: 1T'S NOT F41R [11:38] DR: 1 W4NT H1M TO B3 H4PPY [11:38] DR: BUT [11:38] DR: 1 W4NT H1M TO B3 H4PPY W1TH M3 [11:38] DR: WHY [11:38] DR: WHY COULDN'T 1 M4K3 H1M H4PPY 3NOUGH

[11:38] VU: It isn't your fault, Terezi. [11:38] VU: I am sure you did everything you could for him. [11:38] VU: But there are some things you simply can't control.

[11:40] DR: 1 H4T3 YOU SO MUCH [11:40] DR: YOU'R3 JUST [11:40] DR: 1 H4T3 YO [11:40] DR: U

[11:40] VU: I know. [11:41] VU: You're allowed to hate me. [11:42] VU: That's okay. [11:42] VU: I'm sorry I can't do more for you.

[12:52] DR: NGH [12:52] DR: 1'M NOT SORRY [12:53] DR: 1 WON'T 3V3R 4POLOG1Z3

[12:53] VU: That's okay.

[12:54] DR: WH4T WOULD YOU DO [12:54] DR: >:?

[12:55] VU: Regarding what?

[12:55] DR: 1F YOU W3R3 4BOUT TO LOS3 H1M [12:56] DR: 1 DON'T KNOW WH4T TO DO 1 JUST DON'T W4NT TO LOS3 MY MO1R41L

[12:56] VU: I think you may have to accept that you are about to. The best you can do is attempt to keep contact.

[12:57] DR: 4G41N, 4LL OF TH1S 1S T3RR1BLY 34SY FOR YOU TO S4Y [12:57] DR: YOU G3T TO S33 H1M 4ND FUCK H1M 4ND H4V3 H1M N34R YOU [12:58] DR: H3 DO3SN'T H4V3 TO RUN 4W4Y FROM YOU

[12:58] VU: I realize our situations right now are not even, and I'm sorry about that. [12:59] VU: I'm sorry there is so little I can do about it.

[12:59] DR: ... [12:59] DR: H3 [12:59] DR: DO3SN'T H4V3 [01:00] DR: TO RUN FROM YOU [01:00] DR: ... [01:00] DR: WH4T 1S YOUR N4M3 4G41N

[01:00] VU: Kankri.

[01:01] DR: K4NKR1 I'M GO1NG TO 4SK YOU 4 S3R1OUS QU3ST1ON [01:01] DR: DO YOU TH1NK YOU C4N 4NSW3R M3?

[01:01] VU: I will try to answer to the best of my ability if it will help you, Terezi.

[01:02] DR: WHO W4S YOUR B3ST FR13ND B3FOR3?

[01:03] VU: Mituna Captor.

[01:04] DR: 1F... [01:04] DR: ... [01:05] DR: WH4T WOULD YOU DO TO S33 H1M 4G41N? 1 KNOW YOU C4N'T 4ND M4YB3 TH4T'S NOT F41R OF M3 TO 4SK, BUT WH4T WOULD YOU DO?

[01:06] VU: Anything and everything that would not cause harm to anyone else.

[01:07] DR: MM [01:07] DR: 1 THOUGHT SO

[01:22] VU: May I ask why you asked?

[01:23] DR: B3C4US3 [01:24] DR: 1'M M4K1NG 4 CHO1C3 [01:24] DR: FL1PP1NG MY CO1N

[01:24] VU: All right.

[01:25] DR: >:] YOU KNOW [01:25] DR: 1 H4V3 ON3 MOR3 QU3ST1ON

[01:25] VU: Go ahead.

[01:25] DR: DO YOU BRU1S3 34S1LY?

[01:26] VU: ... Ah? [01:26] VU: Not particularly, no...?

[01:26] DR: GOOD

[01:27] VU: Why?

[01:27] DR: B3C4US3 [01:28] DR: 4S D4VE'S MO1R41L, 1 SHOULD B3 V3RY C4R3FUL NOT TO D4M4G3 H1S PL4YTH1NGS [01:28] DR: 4ND WH3N 1 M33T YOU TH3 F1RST TH1NG 1'M GO1NG TO DO 1S PUNCH YOU 1N TH3 F4C3

[01:28] VU: All right. I'm all right with that. [01:29] VU: (:B If you are coming here, I think I will look forward to seeing you.

[01:29] DR: GOOD. [01:29] DR: B3C4US3 [01:30] DR: W3'R3 TH3 TYP3 TO DO 4NYTH1NG FOR TH3S3 4SSHOL3S, R1GHT?

[01:30] VU: Right. [01:30] VU: (:B

[01:30] DR: >:] [01:30] DR: OK4Y [01:30] DR: M4YB3 1 DON'T H4T3 YOU [01:30] DR: *SO* MUCH

[01:30] VU: (:B [01:30] VU: Glad to hear it.

[01:31] DR: DON'T B3 SO SMUG [01:31] DR: >:[ [01:31] DR: 4ND DON'T T3LL D4V3 [01:31] DR: H3'LL N3V3R 4PPROV3 OF M3 GO1NG TOO

[01:32] VU: If he explicitly asks me, I will not lie to him. [01:32] VU: But I will try to keep it secret for you.

[01:38] DR: 1F H3 F1NDS OUT, 1'M PUNCH1NG YOU 3XTR4 >:[

[01:40] VU: Understood. (:B

[01:42] DR: ... [01:42] DR: ... [01:42] DR: ... [01:42] DR: ... [01:42] DR: ... [01:42] DR: TH4NKS [01:42] DR: BY3

[01:42] VU: Bye. (:B

[06:53] VU: That's good. [06:53] VU: Tiring, I imagine, yes, but good.

[06:53] RR: i feel a little empty to be honest [06:53] RR: but its like [06:53] RR: a good empty [06:53] RR: ugh that doesnt make sense

[06:53] VU: It makes a bit of sense.

[06:53] RR: it hurts [06:53] RR: the sudden absence [06:53] RR: but at the same time [06:54] RR: ... [06:54] RR: it feels like a new start [06:54] RR: or something

[06:54] VU: That's good. [06:54] VU: Not the hurting, but. The potential.

[06:54] RR: potential [06:54] RR: its a weird word

[06:55] VU: I suppose.

[06:55] RR: so im guessing tz told you what i was up to

[06:55] VU: Yes.

[06:55] RR: yeah [06:55] RR: yeah [06:56] RR: i went over to his place [06:56] RR: im kind of glad his mate wasnt there i probably would have gotten decked

[06:57] VU: Yes, that would've been a little unpleasant.

[06:57] RR: kankri is sweet as ever [06:57] RR: fucking nerd

[06:57] VU: Rude.

[06:57] RR: hehe [06:57] RR: i told him [06:57] RR: i told him everything [06:58] RR: haha [06:58] RR: it felt really good to get everything out in the open

[06:58] VU: That's good.

[06:58] RR: i thanked him [06:58] RR: for letting me love him [06:59] RR: im not stupid enough to think he didnt know [06:59] RR: and i was right he knew [06:59] RR: ... [06:59] RR: we kissed

[07:00] VU: That's nice.

[07:01] RR: you know its funny [07:01] RR: ive imagined kissing him [07:01] RR: for years [07:01] RR: and it felt so great [07:01] RR: he let me kiss him because you know [07:01] RR: closure [07:01] RR: saying goodbye to these feelings ive had for [07:01] RR: my whole life practically [07:02] RR: but [07:03] RR: when i kissed him it [07:04] RR: felt okay [07:04] RR: to let go [07:04] RR: i didnt feel an urge to do it again i didnt feel my heart jump out of my chest [07:05] RR: it felt like goodbye [07:05] RR: and it was okay

[07:05] VU: That's really good, Dave. [07:05] VU: I'm happy for you.

[07:06] RR: i thought of you [07:06] RR: while i was there i mean

[07:06] VU: Did you?

[07:07] RR: yeah [07:08] RR: you really [07:08] RR: helped [07:08] RR: i dont know

[07:08] VU: Thank you. [07:08] VU: I'm glad I could.

[07:10] RR: its finally over [07:11] RR: i mean [07:11] RR: you know

[07:11] VU: I know.

[07:11] RR: moving forward [07:11] RR: right

[07:11] VU: Right.

[07:11] RR: its hard

[07:11] VU: Yes. It is. [07:12] VU: I'm sure you can manage it, though.

[07:12] RR: mm [07:12] RR: we can do it together hehe

[07:13] VU: Hah. [07:13] VU: Yes, I suppose.

[07:14] RR: thank you for helping me vu [07:14] RR: i mean like [07:14] RR: i dont know [07:14] RR: i dont think i would have tried to move on if it werent for you [07:14] RR: ive never had a reason to before

[07:14] VU: You're welcome, Dave. [07:15] VU: I'm really glad you think that highly of me. [07:15] VU: I don't think I did much.

[07:16] RR: sometimes it doesnt take a lot [07:16] RR: you just kind of [07:16] RR: showed me how ridiculous i was being honestly [07:17] RR: its not the loving him that was wrong [07:17] RR: but it was [07:17] RR: me not letting myself move past it [07:17] RR: i kept convincing myself that he was my one and only [07:18] RR: that id never love anyone else [07:18] RR: but life isnt that black and white [07:18] RR: and ive got to [07:18] RR: i dont know [07:18] RR: let myself have a little color [07:18] RR: eventually [07:18] RR: not right now [07:19] RR: right now i only want black [07:19] RR: as in the inside of my eyelids

[07:19] VU: Hah. [07:19] VU: Do you not dream in colour?

[07:19] RR: i only dream of you vu B;)

[07:20] VU: ;lk;;' [07:20] VU: My popcorn bowl fell on my keyboard. [07:20] VU: It is empty. [07:20] VU: You should send me some more.

[07:20] RR: wow i got you addicted [07:20] RR: sure hold on [07:21] RR: let me roll my sleepy butt off of tz [07:21] RR: i squished her and shes an unhappy dragon

[07:21] VU: Hah.

[07:22] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] sendificates one [bag of popcorn] --

[07:22] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] immediately eats one [bag of popcorn] --

[07:22] VU: Thanks. Much appreciated.

[07:22] RR: all that popcorn is going to go straight to that plush little rump of yours

[07:23] VU: I doubt it. [07:23] VU: I may not be as active in recent times as I am used to, but I do keep myself in shape.

[07:23] RR: i bet [07:24] RR: hey vu this might [07:24] RR: be a really random request [07:24] RR: but do you wanna sleep with me tonight

[07:24] VU: I [07:24] VU: What?

[07:25] RR: well tz has work in the morning so i dont wanna keep her up and stuff [07:25] RR: and well im assuming lil me wont miss you for one night [07:25] RR: maybe find an empty room [07:25] RR: we can turn the viewport on and [07:26] RR: sleep together i dont know im being silly

[07:26] VU: Ah. [07:26] VU: Well. [07:26] VU: Let me just check that I have this right [07:27] VU: You want to fall asleep with me over video chat?

[07:27] RR: yeah

[07:27] VU: I'm all right with that.

[07:27] RR: cool B) [07:28] RR: im too sleepy to ask what you may have thought i meant

[07:28] VU: Don't worry about it.

[07:28] RR: mkay

[07:28] VU: Let me check that Little You is going to be okay, and I will move to the next room over.

[07:28] RR: okay

[07:30] VU: All right. Let me figure out how to turn this on.

[07:30] RR: let me turn mine on too

[07:35] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] Dave positions his husktop snugly on the table next to his bed and flicks the viewport on and leans back. He's a far cry from little Dave, his skin not as pale, shoulders a lot broader, muscles more defined. His hair is tousled and thick, golden blonde and wavy like straw. -- [07:36] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] he rubs his eyes slightly and shifts his shades off his face, leaving his red eyes blinking lazily in the glow from the husktop screen --

[07:37] VU: Wow [07:37] VU: Ah [07:37] VU: This is complicated. [07:37] VU: The viewport directions. [07:38] VU: You might have to give me a minute, I'm sorry.

[07:39] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] Alpha smiles lazily and shrugs, stretching back against his sheets, his chest expanding slightly as he takes a deep breath --

[07:39] RR: no problem vu

[07:39] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] fuuuuuuck -- [07:41] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] breathes for a moment. --

[07:41] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] groans slightly and shifts a bit before settling on his side and smiling at his camera. His voice is low and has an air of teasing when he speaks. Hard to tell if actually teasing or if thats just his normal tone --

[07:41] RR: figure it out yet

[07:41] VU: no [07:42] VU: In fact I think I'm further away from my goal than I was when I started.

[07:42] RR: mm [07:42] RR: am i doing a one man show tonight then

[07:43] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] a little teasing smirk tugs at his lips --

[07:43] VU: Dave, please.

[07:43] RR: im being good [07:43] RR: look vu you get that figured out i have to finish stripping down

[07:43] VU: You sleep naked?

[07:44] RR: no but to put pjs on you first have to be naked [07:44] RR: nerd

[07:44] VU: It seems to me like it would have been wise to complete that step before turning on your viewport.

[07:44] RR: im not going to do it in front of the camera vu release your garters

[07:45] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] grunts slightly and sits up, the muscles in his torso contracting slightly as he pushes himself off the bed and out of view of the camera --

[07:46] VU: ... I think I figured it out.

[07:46] RR: keep it off until i get back vu [07:46] RR: i wanna see you appear onto my screen like magic

[07:47] VU: Here I thought I was the one still being amazed and bewildered by technology.

[07:48] RR: im always amazed and bewildered by beautiful people

[07:48] VU: If you endeavour to make me blush, I will leave my camera off.

[07:48] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] Dave flops back onto the bed, face-first, wearing only a pair of red boxers --

[07:49] RR: dont do that ill be sad

[07:49] VU: Don't hurt yourself falling about, either. That would also cause me to deny your camera privileges.

[07:49] RR: darn [07:49] RR: im not hurt though so its cool

[07:50] VU: Good. [07:50] VU: I'm turning the viewport on. [07:50] VU: Probably.

[07:50] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] rolls onto his side and watches expectantly --

[07:52] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] turns the camera on a bit tentatively, keeping an eye on Dave watching his screen and feeling strangely self-conscious, lips twisted as he leans back. His laptop, and thus his camera, shifts a little bit as he rolls his weight on the other side of the mattress. -- [07:55] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] Already bare from the waist up, it's obvious enough that he's an adult troll -- muscular, with features well-defined, and hair sun-starched and frankly a bit of a mess at that moment, black locks around dark, almost charcoal grey skin -- scarred a much lighter grey in various places and various ways. -- [07:55] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] settles down on his stomach, his arms under his pillow and his head rested atop it, red eyes fixed on the screen. --

[07:56] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] feels his breath catch as his eyes very openly take in the lovely sight before him --

[07:56] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] directs his gaze away from Dave's stare as if there is something suddenly very fascinating on the ceiling. --

[07:57] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] quietly memorizes each feature, every curve and every angle --

[07:57] RR: nice to finally see you [07:57] RR: kind of

[07:59] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] When he speaks, his voice is low, and a little deadpan -- but his accent, if it could be called that much, rolls every 'o' and every 'b' off his tongue very clearly. --

[07:59] VU: Yes. I'm a sight for sore eyes, I'm sure.

[08:00] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] laughs a little and lays back, one arm tucked under his pillow, cheek resting gently against the softness --

[08:00] RR: youre incredible

[08:01] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] feels his dark cheeks warm, and hopes it is not visible yet, as he glances back down to Dave. --

[08:01] VU: That's forward of you.

[08:03] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] shrugs a bit, smiling --

[08:03] RR: i call it like i see it

[08:04] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] lets his gaze drift again, this time toward the wall, because oh man, that drywall. --

[08:04] VU: I suppose I should return the compliment, then.

[08:04] RR: nah man [08:04] RR: not if you dont feel it

[08:05] VU: I do try not to say things I don't mean. [08:05] VU: I think calling you 'incredible' is within my bounds.

[08:06] RR: heh

[08:06] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] tilts his head to the side a bit, cheeks coloring slightly --

[08:07] VU: ...

[08:07] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] rests his head a bit heavier on the pillow, and closes his eyes. --

[08:08] VU: I left my popcorn in the other room.

[08:09] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] laughs --

[08:09] RR: is that like a nervous habit now

[08:09] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] twitches his eyebrows subconsciously --

[08:09] VU: Perhaps.

[08:10] RR: heh [08:10] RR: youre cute vu [08:10] RR: like even over there being all [08:10] RR: youre just so cute

[08:11] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] feels his cheeks growing a little warmer, and tries to find a way to place his hand over his face that does not look like he is being awfully awkward. -- [08:11] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] fails in this endeavour. --

[08:11] VU: That is frankly ridiculous.

[08:11] RR: hey hey vu [08:12] RR: look

[08:12] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] lifts his hands and makes a heart with them, grinning --

[08:12] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] opens an eye and peers out through his fingers -- [08:13] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] is certain his blush is visible now. --

[08:13] VU: ...

[08:13] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] rolls back and balances himself on his shoulder a bit as he pulls his other arm free, and mimics Alpha's gesture. --

[08:14] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] laughs, cheeks coloring again, and flops back against his pillow --

[08:14] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] buries his hands under his pillow again, and rests his head on it, trying to find a part of the fabric that is cool. --

[08:15] VU: If you are allowed to compliment me with reckless abandon, I think it should work the other way around. [08:15] VU: Therefore... [08:15] VU: Your blush is undeniably charming, my friend.

[08:15] RR: wow

[08:16] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] reaches up with one hand to cover his face, grinning --

[08:16] RR: you stop

[08:17] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] smiles a little, lopsidedly... all right, it's a smirk. --

[08:17] VU: Sooner I stop, sooner you stop blushing. [08:17] VU: I think I will keep at it.

[08:17] RR: no vu no stop

[08:17] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] grinning wider, turning his face slightly so he can't see it fully --

[08:18] VU: I refuse to stop. [08:18] VU: You could say I'm addicted.

[08:18] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] huffs a laugh and slides his hand down his face a little wearily --

[08:18] RR: id almost say you were hitting on me [08:19] RR: almost

[08:20] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] swallows a little, the look in his eyes shifting, just for a moment -- but he lets his smirk fade, casually as can be, into a smile, and shrugs. --

[08:21] VU: No homo.

[08:22] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] Alpha watches him quietly, feeling a strange sense of disappointment that he doesn't really understand, but smiles anyway --

[08:22] RR: yeah [08:22] RR: no homo

[08:25] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] pauses for a moment, and lets the silence hang, as he rolls his face calmly into his pillow, leaving his mouth free to breathe, but burying his eyes and all else, save his jaw. --

[08:25] VU: When do you usually wake up, Dave?

[08:25] RR: dunno [08:25] RR: whenever i do [08:25] RR: tz bops around in the morning and sometimes thatll shake me awake [08:26] RR: why

[08:27] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] smiles a bit, shaking his head and mouthing the word 'bops' to himself with amusement. Unfortunately, it's obvious how quickly he sobers, swallowing it down. --

[08:27] VU: Ah, curiosity, mostly. [08:27] VU: I might... talk, in my sleep.

[08:28] RR: eh [08:28] RR: im a deep sleeper [08:28] RR: i doubt youd wake me

[08:28] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] nods a little. --

[08:28] VU: That's good.

[08:29] RR: hey vu

[08:29] VU: Mm?

[08:29] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] smiles at him --

[08:29] RR: i love you

[08:31] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] is suddenly incredibly glad that his face is already hidden. Even if his breath hitches silently, lips falling a little agape, that's easy to recover from, and quickly. --

[08:31] VU: Yes. You too, Dave.

[08:32] -- rhythmicRapport [RR] hums happily and nuzzles into his pillow --

[08:32] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] nonchalantly brushes a few locks of hair over his ears. Just in case they decided to turn red. --

[08:33] RR: im sleep

[08:33] VU: ...

[08:34] -- veinsUnhidden [VU] lifts his head enough to peer at the computer screen, expression soft. --

[08:34] VU: Good night.

[08:34] RR: ni-ni

[05:09] VU: Hello, Ms. Pyrope.

[05:09] DR: YOU 1NFUR14T3 M3 [05:09] DR: BUT YOU C4N C4LL M3 T3R3Z1 [05:10] DR: B3C4US3 1T'S 4 W4RM FUZZY 1NFUR14T1NG

[05:10] VU: ... Thank you, I think.

[05:10] DR: Y3S [05:10] DR: YOUR W3LCOM3 [05:10] DR: >;] [05:10] DR: TH4T W4S NOT SUPPOS3D TO B3 4 W1NKY F4C3 [05:11] DR: GOD BL4ST TH1S HUSKTOP

[05:11] VU: You are still using Dave's husktop?

[05:11] DR: NO BUT 1 JUST H4D TO R3PL4C3 M1N3 [05:11] DR: B3C4US3 D4V3 BROK3 M1N3 [05:11] DR: 4SSHOL3 [05:11] DR: 1'M NOT US3D TO TH3 K3YBO4RD Y3T

[05:12] VU: Yes. That does seem a little inconsiderate. [05:12] VU: It's difficult to get used to a keyboard in general.

[05:12] DR: 1 DON'T R34D SP4N1SH W3LL

[05:12] VU: I'm sorry?

[05:13] DR: D4V3 BOUGHT TH3 COMPUT3R FROM 4S14 WH3R3 TH3 SP4N14RDS L1V3

[05:13] VU: Well. [05:13] VU: That sounds unfortunate for you.

[05:13] DR: Y3S [05:14] DR: NOW TH4T W3 4R3 T4LK1NG 1N PR1V4T3 [05:14] DR: CONT1NU3

[05:14] VU: Ah. [05:14] VU: You may have to give me a moment, I don't quite recall where we were.

[05:15] DR: 1'M GO1NG TO K1CK D4V3 1N TH3 BULG3 1F YOU K33P ST4LL1NG

[05:15] VU: Humans don't have those.

[05:15] DR: HUM4N BULG3

[05:15] VU: Close enough, I suppose.

[05:16] DR: 1 DON'T US3 TH3 P WORD [05:16] DR: OR TH3 D WORD [05:16] DR: D4V3 L4UGHS 4T M3 WH3N 1 DO

[05:16] VU: It's just a part of the human anatomy. [05:17] VU: There's nothing inherently dirty about it.

[05:18] DR: YOUR STR1D3R 1S OBV1OUSLY V3RY W3LL B3HAV3D

[05:18] VU: I wouldn't say that.

[05:20] DR: H3H. [05:20] DR: 4NYW4Y. [05:20] DR: 1'M W41T1NG.

[05:21] VU: How well do you keep secrets, Terezi?

[05:21] DR: >:? [05:21] DR: 1 SUPPOS3 1 COULD B3 P3RSU4D3D TO K33P 4 S3CR3T 1F 1T B3N3F1TT3D M3

[05:22] VU: I'm afraid I don't have much to offer you.

[05:22] DR: YOU H4V3 4 LOT TO OFF3R M3 DON'T WORRY 4BOUT TH4T [05:23] DR: BUT FOR NOW [05:23] DR: TRUST TH4T 1 M4Y OR M4Y NOT K33P YOUR L1TTL3 S3CR3T [05:23] DR: D3P3NDS ON HOW 1'M F33L1NG [05:23] DR: >:]

[05:23] VU: That doesn't instill me with a lot of confidence, I am afraid.

[05:24] DR: YOU C4N 31TH3R T3LL M3 [05:24] DR: OR 1 WON'T H1D3 TH3 POST 1 M4D3 4BOUT YOUR F33L1NGS FOR D4V3 [05:24] DR: CHO1C3S CHO1C3S

[05:25] VU: I don't believe I ever confessed any feelings for Dave. What you have is your assumptions.

[05:25] DR: WH4T 1 H4V3 1S 4 V3RY D3F3NS1V3 V4V4V4VU [05:26] DR: LOOK 1'LL K33P YOUR S3CR3T 1F YOU G1V3 M3 4 GOOD R34SON TO K33P 1T [05:26] DR: NOW T3LL M3 B3FOR3 1 G3T 4NGRY >:[

[05:27] VU: Let's both just calm down. I believe we have started on the wrong front here. [05:27] VU: How about I start with a question? [05:28] VU: Why did you ask me how I slept?

[05:28] DR: B3C4US3 1'M 4 S33R OF M1ND

[05:28] VU: That is an unsettling answer.

[05:29] DR: 1 C4N R34D TH3 SH1FTS 1N P3OPL3'S 3MOT1ONS THROUGH TH13R WORDS [05:29] DR: 1T H3LPS M3 D1SC3RN WH4T CHO1C3S TH3Y M4Y OR M4Y NOT M4K3 [05:30] DR: YOU H4D 4 STR4NG3 R34CT1ON 1N 4 F3W PL4C3S [05:30] DR: SO 1 TOOK 4 GU3SS [05:30] DR: >:] [05:30] DR: H1T 4 J4CKPOT [05:31] DR: SO 1F YOU'R3 WOND3R1NG 1F 1 KN3W 4BOUT YOUR W3T DR34M B3FOR3 1 4SK3D HOW YOU SL3PT [05:31] DR: TH3 4NSW3R 1S NO [05:31] DR: >:]

[05:31] VU: ... [05:31] VU: Well. [05:31] VU: I feel a bit violated by that.

[05:32] DR: H3Y [05:32] DR: 1'M TH3 ON3 WHO H4D TO S33 TH4T

[05:32] VU: I regret bringing up this line of conversation.

[05:32] DR: WR1GGL3 WR1GGL3

[05:33] VU: Stop.

[05:33] DR: 1'M DON3

[05:33] VU: Good.

[05:33] DR: W3LL 1S TH4T 4LL YOU W4NT3D TO KNOW

[05:33] VU: ... For now, at the very least, yes.

[05:34] DR: OK4Y GL4D 1 COULD 1NFORM YOU [05:34] DR: BUT S3R1OUSLY.

[05:44] VU: In all honesty, I'm not sure what you expect me to say, Terezi.

[05:44] DR: YOU LOV3 H1M. [05:44] DR: 4T TH3 V3RY L34ST, YOU'R3 F4LL1NG FOR H1M.

[05:44] VU: No.

[05:45] DR: NO?

[05:45] VU: No.

[05:46] DR: K4NKR1, W3 DON'T H4V3 W3T DR34MS 4BOUT P3OPL3 W3 DON'T W4NT TO G3T TO KNOW 4 L1TTL3 C4RN4LLY

[05:46] VU: Dreams are rarely sensical.

[05:47] DR: HOW YOU F3LT W4S S3NS1C4L

[05:47] VU: No.

[05:47] DR: TH4T T3LLS M3 NOTH1NG

[05:47] VU: Good.

[05:47] DR: 1 M34N 4LL 1'M G3TT1NG 1S YOUR D3N14L [05:48] DR: NOT TH3 R34SON B3H1ND 1T

[05:49] VU: It wouldn't be right for me to love him, Terezi.

[05:51] DR: WHY

[05:52] VU: A variety of reasons. [05:52] VU: He trusts me, for one. [05:53] VU: Not that falling in love is a breach of trust, but thinking about him like I did this morning is.

[05:53] DR: WH4T TH1NK1NG 4BOUT H1M D1DDL1NG YOU L1K3 H1S OWN P3RSON4L TURNT4BL3

[05:53] VU: Terezi, please.

[05:54] DR: SORRY 1'M JUST CONFUS3D [05:54] DR: 1 WOULD F1ND 1T FL4TTER1NG 1F SOM3ON3 H4D 4 W3T DR34M 4BOUT M3 [05:54] DR: 1NCR3D1BLY STR4NG3 [05:54] DR: BUT FL4TT3R1NG

[05:55] VU: I don't see it that way.

[05:55] DR: HOW DO YOU S33 1T

[05:56] VU: It's perverse. We are friends, and I respect him too much to willingly entertain thoughts like that.

[05:56] DR: OH MY GOD [05:56] DR: WH4T DO3S W4NT1NG TO FUCK H1M [05:56] DR: H4V3 TO DO W1TH R3SP3CT [05:57] DR: W4NT1NG 4ND DO1NG 4R3 TWO D1FF3R3NT TH1NGS K4NKR1 [05:57] DR: 1T WOULD B3 D1SR3SP3CTFUL 1F YOU S4Y [05:57] DR: H4D TH3 DR34M [05:57] DR: TOLD H1M 4BOUT 1T [05:57] DR: 4ND US3D 1T TO GU1LT H1M 1NTO 4 QU1CK FUCK [05:57] DR: BUT H4V3 YOU DON3 TH4T

[05:58] VU: No, and I would never, but that is not the point.

[05:58] DR: TH3 PO1NT 1S [05:58] DR: YOU'R3 SC4R3D [05:58] DR: SC4R3D TO F33L TH1NGS FOR H1M [05:58] DR: FOR 4NYON3 [05:59] DR: B3C4US3 OF WH4T YOU LOST

[05:59] VU: ... I will admit that I may be scared, yes. [06:00] VU: But whether I am scared or not is just a small part. [06:00] VU: In the end it is not right, regardless of fear or anything else.

[06:01] DR: SCR33333333333333333333333 [06:01] DR: YOU [06:01] DR: 4R3 [06:01] DR: 1NFUR14T1NG [06:01] DR: NOT R1GHT NOT R1GHT NOT R1GHT [06:01] DR: 3XPL41N TH1S ST4T3M3NT TO M3 [06:01] DR: B3C4US3 [06:02] DR: 1T 1S B3G1NN1NG TO SOUND TO M3 L1K3 YOU TH1NK MY MO1R41L 1S NOT GOOD 3NOUGH FOR YOU

[06:02] VU: Of course he is good enough for me! [06:03] VU: He would be a fantastic partner; I'm sure of that. There is absolutely no doubt in mind that what he could give me would be wonderful. [06:03] VU: But it is not about how good he is, or if either of us would be good enough for each other.

[06:04] DR: S1GH [06:04] DR: TH3N WH4T 1S 1T

[06:04] VU: I have lost someone very dear to me, and it is not right of me to impassion myself so soon after her passing. It is not right to her, and it is not right to Dave. [06:04] VU: I acknowledge what you said about this matter, but I do not agree with you on it. [06:05] VU: I had dedicated myself to her, the entirety of my being, everything I felt, it was for her. I had interests beyond her, yes, but she was always with me in them. We were together. Lovers. Beyond quadrants. [06:06] VU: I am not prepared to move on from that, just as I should not be. [06:06] VU: I have no way of knowing if my feelings for Dave are true, or if I am simply lonely. It is disrespectful to both of them for me to throw myself from one love to another, with such blatant disregard. [06:07] VU: I am in too much pain to think clearly, and I won't cause either of them harm because of my own confused soul.

[06:07] DR: TH4T 4T L34ST M4K3S S3NS3 [06:08] DR: LOOK, 1 F33L B4D FOR YOU [06:08] DR: 1 DO [06:08] DR: YOU 4ND 1 M4Y NOT 3V3R G3T 4LONG PROP3RLY BUT KNOW TH4T 1 DO [06:08] DR: UND3RST4ND [06:08] DR: TO 4 PO1NT [06:09] DR: WH4T YOU'R3 GO1NG THROUGH [06:09] DR: 1N 4N 4LMOST P41NFUL W4Y TO B3 HON3ST [06:09] DR: BUT TH1S 1SN'T 4BOUT M3 [06:09] DR: 1T'S 4BOUT M3 NOT W4NT1NG D4V3 TO B3 UNH4PPY [06:10] DR: 1T'S 4BOUT M3 NOT L1K1NG TO S33 1RR1T4T1NG V4NT4S BOYS UNH4PPY [06:10] DR: 1 4CKNOWL3DG3 TH3 F4CT YOU N33D T1M3 [06:11] DR: 4ND TO B3 HON3ST [06:11] DR: 1 TH1NK D4V3 N33DS T1M3 TOO B3C4US3 H1S LOV3 FOR K4NKR1 W4S [06:11] DR: P4SS1ON4T3 4ND FULL TO S4Y TH3 L34ST [06:11] DR: BUT [06:12] DR: DON'T L3T YOURS3LF COMPL3T3LY OV3RLOOK SOM3TH1NG [06:12] DR: B3C4US3 OF B4D, B4D T1M1NG [06:12] DR: TH4T 1SN'T F41R TO 4NY OF YOU

[06:13] VU: I'm not overlooking Dave. [06:13] VU: I value his friendship more than I could possibly say. [06:13] VU: But I can't let myself love him. [06:14] VU: I'm already ashamed for what I feel.

[06:14] DR: TH3R3'S NOTH1NG SH4M3FUL 4BOUT LOV3!!

[06:15] VU: There is when I shouldn't be feeling it! [06:15] VU: He is not mine! [06:15] VU: I don't want him to be mine! [06:15] VU: It isn't right. [06:15] VU: I am sorry it keeps coming back to that, but it isn't.

[06:16] DR: 4ND WH4T 1F H3 W4NT3D YOU? [06:16] DR: WOULD 1T ST1LL NOT B3 R1GHT?!

[06:16] VU: I don't know. [06:17] VU: But it doesn't matter, because he doesn't want me.

[06:17] DR: WHY 4R3 YOU SO C3RT41N WH3N YOU S4Y TH4T

[06:18] VU: You said it yourself. He doesn't say anything he doesn't mean. [06:18] VU: He's told me again [06:18] VU: and again [06:18] VU: That he does not want me. Will never want me.

[06:18] DR: W3LL DUH [06:19] DR: 1F 1 W3R3 H1M 1'D S4Y TH3 S4M3 TH1NG >:[

[06:19] VU: Ouch.

[06:19] DR: OH MY GOD DON'T YOU G3T 1T [06:20] DR: UGH [06:20] DR: L3T M3 SP3LL 1T OUT FOR YOU [06:20] DR: 4 G 4 1 N [06:21] DR: he has faith in me tz [06:21] DR: i wouldnt do that to him [06:21] DR: hed hate me [06:22] DR: i need him i dont know why but i do i just do i cant lose him [06:22] DR: DO YOU G3T 1T NOW

[06:22] VU: ... [06:22] VU: Would it be too terribly stupid for me to continue insisting that could be platonic?

[06:23] DR: YOU'R3 T3RR1BLY STUP1D >:[

[06:23] VU: Thanks. [06:23] VU: ... [06:24] VU: I don't want to do this to him. [06:24] VU: Or to myself.

[06:24] DR: DO WH4T

[06:25] VU: I can't give him what he needs. [06:26] VU: I can't try to do this to our relationship and end up losing him. [06:26] VU: I can't ruin what we have already.

[06:26] DR: TH3N DON'T >:[ [06:27] DR: R3L4T1ONSH1PS 4R3 4 TWO W4Y STR33T 4ND YOU'R3 NOT GO1NG 1NTO 1T 4LON3 [06:27] DR: STOP COUNT1NG D4V3 OUT OF TH3 3QU4T1ON

[06:27] VU: I'm not. [06:28] VU: I'm fully aware of his part in it. [06:29] VU: I'm also aware that I'm not ready for a new relationship. [06:29] VU: I'll hurt him.

[06:30] DR: LOOK, 1'M NOT T3LL1NG YOU TO JUMP 1N TH3 S4CK W1TH H1M [06:30] DR: 1'M JUST T3LL1NG YOU [06:30] DR: STOP [06:30] DR: S T O P [06:30] DR: C4LM THY T1TS

[06:30] VU: Male trolls don't have those.

[06:30] DR: F4LL1NG 1N LOV3 [06:31] DR: 1S SC4RY [06:31] DR: YOU'R3 NOT TH3 ONLY ON3 WHO 1S SC4R3D [06:31] DR: STOP M4K1NG 1T WORS3 BY M4K1NG H1M TH1NK TH4T 1F H3 F4LLS FOR YOU [06:31] DR: H3 LOS3S YOU [06:31] DR: 1 HON3STLY DON'T KNOW 1F D4VE 1S R3D FOR YOU [06:32] DR: 1 DON'T TH1NK D4V3 KNOWS [06:32] DR: 1 DON'T KNOW 1F YOU'R3 R3D FOR H1M [06:32] DR: YOU'V3 1ND1C4T3D TH4T YOU M4Y NOT KNOW [06:33] DR: BUT 1F YOU'RE BOTH TOO T3RR1F13D OF LOS1NG 34CH OTH3R TH3 MOM3NT TH1NGS G3T 4 L1TTL3 FLUSH [06:33] DR: TH3N YOU'LL N3V3R F1GUR3 TH4T OUT [06:33] DR: NOW W1LL YOU >:[

[06:33] VU: ... [06:33] VU: Your advice is good, Terezi. [06:34] VU: I just... [06:34] VU: I wish it hadn't come to be such a mess.

[06:34] DR: >:[ >:[ >:[ >:[ >:[ [06:34] DR: YOU W1SH 1T H4DN'T [06:34] DR: 1 H4V3 TO L1V3 W1TH H1M

[06:35] VU: Hah. [06:35] VU: Well. [06:35] VU: Does it help if I say technically I do, too?

[06:35] DR: 4R3 YOU HOLD1NG H1S H41R WH1L3 H3 VOM1TS UP 4LCOHOL 4ND R3GR3T 3V3RY MORN1NG

[06:36] VU: No, but I am dealing with his alternate who is pregnant.

[06:36] DR: 3W

[06:36] VU: There is still some vomit involved. [06:36] VU: So, yes, ew.

[06:36] DR: PR3GN4NT WOM3N SC4R3 M3 [06:36] DR: 1 D1DN'T KNOW M3N COULD G3T PR3GN4NT [06:37] DR: 1'M GO1NG TO PUT 4 CH4ST1TY B3LT ON TH4T BOY

[06:37] VU: This Dave is temporarily a woman. [06:37] VU: It is complicated.

[06:37] DR: OH

[06:37] VU: I assure you that human men cannot be pregnant.

[06:37] DR: HOW B1G 4R3 H1S BOOBS [06:37] DR: 1 N33D TO KNOW >:[

[06:37] VU: ... [06:38] VU: I don't really pay attention.

[06:38] DR: TH3 L1ES 4R3 SO TH1CK [06:38] DR: 1 SN33Z3D

[06:38] VU: Bless you.

[06:39] DR: 1 JUST W4NT TO KNOW 1F H3 1S B1GG3R TH4N M3

[06:40] VU: I have no frame of reference within which to compare the two of you. [06:40] VU: I'm afraid I don't really [06:40] VU: Well. [06:40] VU: Actually. [06:41] VU: ... Possibly a B38?

[06:41] DR: SCR3333333333333 [06:42] DR: 1 W1N >:] [06:42] DR: 1 4M TH3 B3TT3R WOM4N

[06:42] VU: Congratulations.

[06:42] DR: STOP LOOK1NG 4T H1S BOOBS H3 1S TOO YOUNG FOR YOU

[06:43] VU: I am not. [06:43] VU: Also, yes, I know this. [06:44] VU: Is Dave home?

[06:45] DR: H3 [06:45] DR: ... [06:45] DR: Y3S

[06:45] VU: Is he all right?

[06:45] DR: H3 [06:46] DR: 1S WORRY1NG M3 BUT 1 TH1NK H3'S 4LR1GHT

[06:46] VU: May I speak with him a little?

[06:46] DR: UHM [06:46] DR: UHMM

[06:46] VU: Nevermind, I had best not.

[06:46] DR: NO, 1T'S OK4Y [06:46] DR: 1 W1LL 4SK [06:47] DR: 1 4M G3TT1NG FR34K3D OUT [06:47] DR: 1'V3 N3V3R B33N 4BL3 TO R34D D4V3'S 3MOT1ONS W3LL 4ND H3 1S CONFUS1NG M3 TOD4Y

[06:48] VU: ):B

[06:48] DR: H3 S41D SUR3 YOU C4N T4LK [06:48] DR: BUT JUST FOR 4 B1T [06:49] DR: H3'S T1R3D

[06:49] VU: All right.

[06:49] DR: GOODBY3

[06:49] VU: Thank you for the talk today, Terezi.

[06:49] DR: Y3S YOUR3 W3LCOM3

[06:49] VU: Goodbye.