#sicktrick

I am sick, probably got the flu from my teacher who was sick earlier in the week cause my immune system is shit. Anyway, I learned a Hack.

Its been a few months, im not on my phone, I just finished a moive at work, and i cant help but think of you. I can still see your green eys, your smile, the feeling of how you would bite my forarm so lightly when we cuddled... your laugh. I miss the fuck out of you, and with me leaving in two months, i find my slef thinking of you. not sure how active you are on this, or even if you still look at my page. but i want you to know, i still see you when i close my eyes. I still think of you when i see my future, when i think of having a family i think of you next to me with a fuck ton of dogs, and little ones running around. ive been telling people, im heartbroken, that over the summer there was a girl that had alot going on and didnt need me in the middle of that. that it was just so much easier if gave her space. i like to tell me self every day that im coming down from that high.... but i lie, deep down im still up there. im still in love you with you. as i type this my heart is racing, my eyes are watery, and im wishing that i could fastfoward 3 years to be with you. i wish you could text me to come over, i wish i could hold your hand, i wish i could feel how great it felt knowing how safe you felt around me. you did a number on me, beause i dont think you can ever unlove a person. you see their name anywhere, and my heart flutters. you have no idea how many times i think about summer of 2018, how i fell in love with you, and how happy i was to be aorund you.

im rambling now, i hope this finds you well, in some crazy way, im still madly in love with you. maybe in some twisted way you still feel the same way.