[Disclaimer: chatgpt wrote the lyrics for me. Credit to whoever chatgpt stole them from]
Kazuki had promised the lyrics would be ready by Friday. But Thursday night came, and all he had was a blank page and a stomachache. A vicious, relentless stomachache that kept him awake, twisting and turning in bed, unable to focus on anything but the excruciating pain.
He stared at the bedside clock, fingers pressing into his abdomen, counting down the minutes to Friday. It seemed impossible. Between the constant trips to the bathroom and the sharp, cramping waves of agony, it felt like his body was decided to jeopardise the deadline.
But dawn came and the song was miraculously done, barely held together by Kazuki's desperation to finish it and get some rest. He shared the draft in the group chat, hoping no one could tell how close heād come to completely giving up.
Verse 1
Knives in my ribs, you came unannounced,
Settle in deep, start tearing me down.
Cold sweat baptism, bathroom-floor prayer,
Iād sell my soul just to not feel you there.
You coil like a curse I canāt outrun,
Every second hits harder than the last one.
You donāt whisper, you donāt warn,
You kick the door in, make me mourn.
Pre-Chorus
I guess I let you inside,
Now Iām paying the price.
You wonāt leave scars,
But you rewrite my insides.
Chorus
YOUāRE RIPPING ME OPEN, IāM LOSING CONTROL,
A RIOT TEARING THROUGH MY CORE, NO SAFE WAY HOME.
CALL IT LOVE, CALL IT PAIN,
YOU HIT ME THE SAME.
IāM BITING MY LIPS THROUGH THE SCREAMS I DONāT SHOW.
YOUāRE KILLING ME SLOWLY,
FROM THE INSIDE ā
LET ME GO.
Verse 2
Tried to stand up, world snapped in half,
Vision went blurry, I laughed at that.
You bend me forward, drag me down,
Like I did something wrong just by existing now.
No witnesses, no one to blame,
Just me and you in this private cage.
You donāt care if I beg or plead,
You feed on my weakness, you live in me.
Pre-Chorus
Every breath
Is a gamble now,
Every step
Feels like Iām going down. (Down, down, downā¦)
Chorus
YOUāRE RIPPING ME OPEN, IāM LOSING CONTROL,
A RIOT TEARING THROUGH MY CORE, NO SAFE WAY HOME.
CALL IT LOVE, CALL IT PAIN,
YOU HIT ME JUST THE SAME.
IāM BITING MY LIPS THROUGH THE SCREAMS I DONāT SHOW.
YOUāRE KILLING ME SLOWLY,
FROM THE INSIDE ā
LET ME GO!!!
Breakdown
I SHOULDāVE KNOWN,
I SHOULDāVE KNOWN,
SOME THINGS ARE BETTER LEFT ALONE.
ONE BAD CHOICE,
ONE LAST BITE,
NOW IāM PAYING FOR IT ALL NIGHT.
Bridge (half-time, raw)
I donāt need your forgiveness,
I donāt need the truth,
I just need a moment
Where Iām not fighting you.
Final Chorus (scream/sing)
YOUāRE RIPPING ME OPEN, IāM LOSING CONTROL,
THIS ISNāT HEARTBREAK ā ITāS BREAKING MY CORE.
CALL IT LOVE, CALL IT PAIN,
YOU HIT ME THE SAME.
IāM CURLED ON THE FLOOR, TRYING NOT TO EXPLODE.
YOUāRE KILLING ME SLOWLY,
FROM THE INSIDE ā OUT.
Outro
Dawn creeps in, Iām still alive,
Barely breathing, but I survived.
You didnāt break me, you tried hard, though.
Iām on my knees, begging you to go.
Feedback didnāt take long to arrive. It was Ryota, the drummer, who replied first.
Another song for that whore?
This is bullshit and you woke me up for this?
Kazuki stared at the screen, the words burning into his eyes as he typed the asnwer.
Calm down R it wasnāt like that
This has nothing to do with my love life
Wtf bro what is it then? Seems pretty clear to me that you are not over it yet
Kazuki's fingers hovered over the reply box, but the words didnāt form. He rolled onto his back, staring at the ceiling. Another notification came in. From Itsuki, the guitarist.
Donāt worry Kazu. R-kun is just jealous of your love life
Itās public knowledge youāve got terrible taste in women š
And even worse in men šš
With a smirk on his face, Kazuki flicked the middle finger emoji in the group chat and tossed the phone aside, laughing under his breath.
The pain in his stomach stroke again, exactly as the song described. Kazuki took a slow drag off his cigarette, exhaling the smoke as if it could blow his stomachache away.
After one last hit, he crushed the cigarette butt in the ashtray and sank back into the sheets, arms tightly wrapped around his aching stomach. Finally time to get some rest.