#sick posting

We are on cowboy bebop now. Final thoughts on Lain are that it's a pretty cool sci-fi series. I'm probably being unfair to it because it's been so hyped up so I was a bit underwhelmed. But overall it didn't blow my mind. Guess you had to be there. In 1998.

Okay fever brain... Fever brain is cooking something. I was thinking more about Lain and how it's less like, ground breaking stuff and more a who's who of 80s and 90s scifi tropes and ideas that is pretty late in the game, all things considered, but it is possible that there is another element which makes it not land very hard for me. And I'm just going to call it Japanese fear. I'm sick I don't know leave me alone. I wonder if in a more individualist culture the fear of depersonalization doesn't land the same, or requires different buttons to be pushed. In a more rigid, conservative social structure where social roles and behaviors are more clearly defined, one (in theory) has a more concrete sense of who they are and where they fit into society. Thus the fear of losing that may be more pronounced. Any threat to existing social order or ideas of what a person is or can be might be sharper than in a culture where you're expected to define yourself on your own terms (boot straps, western expansion, blah blah).

i think i just ate chapstick on accidnet