Hi, my handsome shifter. I am writing this on the back of a menu, with a crayon - how creative huh? Thought that, maybe, just maybe if I threw it out the window, it might find you, and let you know that I'm okay...... I'm okay, but I'm not. I can't believe that right now, you're somewhere, somewhere out there and not here with me.... I don't know where you are, I don't know if you're alone, I don't know if you're.... please be okay. Please... please...Â
I'm here with River, though we're not exactly looking out for each other, more like on the brink of fighting, but I'll look after her, just like she will look after me, we always do.. God, I hope you have someone whose looking after you. My hearts pounding I'm that afraid. Afraid of, losing you, of something happening to all of us.. of --- maybe the other day was our last chance at ever seeing each other and I never got that hug and I never got to feel you holding onto me like you're never going to let go... I never got to tell you that I love you. So much. I always have and I always will. Always. You are my water, my ocean, my lake - my heart, my soul my... god you're perfect and I'm so in love with you that I feel like... I feel like I want to go outside and find you.. just; I can't sit here not knowing where you are, Dixon. ...... afd and I know you love me to.. and writing that just made me smile, because I'm so lucky to have someone like you, someone so brave, so noble, so smart and funny, and sexy, and truly one of a kind. Someone with such a big heart, who loves me..
Okay, I've gotta go - going to go talk to Bobby, see if there's anything I can do to help. Be safe, my wee otter. Find someone to protect you and stick with them... I love you, I've always loved you, I'll always love you.
