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“ Even though there's no fixed timeframe that we have to make a comeback by, we are doing our research well. Hitting the milestone of 5 years also means that this album is going to be very important. We're thinking of what we can show everyone after this fifth year.” -- Jung Jinyoung, Ize Magazine © .

They like to say that the fifth year is an important year for idol groups to see whether they’ll survive or not in the industry -- or, at least, that’s how the media likes to emphasize it -- they write articles discussing about certain groups who’ve reached the five years milestone or seven years milestone, predicting whether they can continue in the long run or quietly disappear when the public no longer paying attention to them. 

It’s one of the things that the media likes to exaggerate (everything is exaggerated and being over-sensationalized in the eyes of media, so what’s new about it?)--as if they’re trying to prove how short idol’s career is in general with terms such as: ‘the seven years jinx ‘, ‘ five years jinx’ ; and so on (not their fault, though. isn’t this why everyone tries their best to maximize through their own capabilities within such short amount of time?)--and, contrary to the popular beliefs about his optimistic image, Jinyoung actually keeps a handful of worries insides him (he just don’t like to talk about it, that is all) -- after all, he’s the the leader, meaning that he’s in charge of holding the key role in decision making and leading the group. And boy, it would’ve been a lie if he says that he don’t feel the pressure weighting his shoulder with such role he’s been carrying for over than five years now.

( “Taking care of a hyung who is not very much apart in age because he is 'the leader' and maintaining the team so smoothly by tuning together everyone's ideas,” he said on the the interview for WHO AM I album, once upon a time in the year 2014, but truth be told is that not everything runs smoothly like how he stated in his words -- it’s just in how they solves those problems that coming their way and enjoy the ups and downs coming their way. Because nothing worthwhile ever comes easy, they like to say. )

He tries not to think about it sometimes, lots of times -- likes to distracts himself with millions of other things and side-projects that can get his mind off this because the whole thing about ‘hitting the milestone’ keeps on giving him headaches no matter how hard he tried to be positive about it. It’s like that one analogy where you just keep on taking all these side-quests because you cannot afford to accomplice the main quest yet.

Jinyoung, on the other hand, feels bad because he promised the fans that one of his wish in 2016 was to release more songs and music -- but it’s now the second half of the year and he can’t confidently say that the album is anywhere near finished, yet here is what he’s doing now: accepting the role which was offered to him to become a second lead on drama, making him feel like how his ‘carpe diem’ mindset overwhelming his responsibility as a leader because he just accepted another side quest instead of finishing the main quest. 

( “Do you think I’m being greedy -- you know, for accepting the role?" 

He asks once to the manager, to Dongwoo, to Naeun -- because they’re the only person he can only asks about things like these; people whom he show his vulnerable sides to. Each of them gave him different answers and until today Jinyoung still wonder if he is greedy).

Almost everyday he wake up with all kind of ‘what ifs’ and ‘whether’ occupying his mind: whether they’ll survive this fifth year curse, whether the upcoming album will come out great, whether the drama he’s working on right now will become a hit in South Korea -- but he never tried to let it phase him. It’s an inevitable thing to have these thoughts, but Jinyoung, keeping his image as the one in charge of bringing up all the positviity in the group, don’t really like to share it with others (“because what’s the point of sharing something that brings no positive impact to the group?” he thought about it once before as he was so close in speaking out about this to his fellow bandmate, CNU). 

And there he is, sitting by the stool in the studio with his eyes glued to the screen. Again mingling with the mixing engine at the wee hours of nights, shutting down his phone in the process just so he can concentrate better on his job. 

There are a lot of thoughts running in his mind right now as he tried to work on a piece while also memorizing the script in the other hand for tomorrow’s filming (because what is sleep again?), but Jinyoung tried not to let it phase him (like any other gazillion problems that’s actually coming onto him ever so subtly). 

❝ It is…but I’m also surprised, considering how popular you are. ❞ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇʟᴅᴇʀ sᴘᴇᴀᴋs ɪɴ ʀᴇɢᴀʀᴅs ᴛᴏ the advertisements adorning windows in shops throughout the district, ironic in their efforts to elude fans; wandering the streets of Insadong became irregular as his career progressed, usually spent on weekends with his sister as opposed to friends—the change in scenery, albeit peculiar, allowed Shinwoo an opportunity to look at the neighborhood from a different perspective. ❝ I would hate to jinx anything, yet I can’t help but wonder if it’s because of the age disparity. ❞ The latter half of the sentence corresponds with the time; an early afternoon on a weekday, when most succumbed to their responsibilities and had few leisurely opportunities to indulge in Korean craftsmanship.

@shvndw​​ [ it’s 2 a.m. and the eldest hyungs of the group have troubles sleeping at the night before their concert in osaka and somehow find themselves sitting by the couch of the hotel room while listening to the sound of rain. ]

“We should be sleeping, you know…” 

Dongwoo’s voice was solemn and weak, as well as his gaze that’s droopy–and he realizes that this is probably their 3rd time reminding each other to sleep instead of staying up because they have a concert in the next day, but the two eldest member doesn’t bother to move from their spot and continue sitting side by side while the leader is gazing at the rain that hasn’t ended since afternoon, only smiling at the statement as a respond and rests his head on Dongwoo’s shoulder and sighs in content, as if finding his solace (because this is why and how they bond–because at times like this where he should acted out as a leader and spread his positivity and brings out his motivational mannerism to others–he can lean on someone, and Dongwoo allow him to do so with ease and he’s never been more grateful than that). 

“Maybe in ten minutes.”

Jinyoung closes his eyes and finally speak, listening to the sound of rain and somehow find himself enchanted by it before eyelids are opens to stare at Dongwoo while returning to his original sitting position. As a leader, he should be 

“We have rehearsal tomorrow, right–? Is it around the afternoon? Maybe I can sleep until it’s 11 or 12… you should tell Hwanbeu-hyung so that he won’t wake me up in the morning.” 

He tries to talk about something, anything, that could break the deafening silence between the precipitation or the sound of Sunwoo’s snoring which emit a laughter from the latter (“He always wake you up last, anyway. You don’t have to worry”). And Shinwoo is right (always, or well, most of the time); because even the staffs knew about Jinyoung’s personal conflict with being early worms. 

Shinwoo doesn’t speak and neither does Jinyoung. They’ve been accustomed to this kind of moment–dwelling into the silence without anyone bothering to try breaking the silence because this, too, is comfortable for Jinyoung.

“Woo–”

“Mmm?”

“That day, yesterday, when you wish that our group will last forever in the ‘V App’ broadcast–that was a genuine wish, right?”

Dongwoo was taken aback by the question, looks at Jinyoung with wide eyes as the leader turns to only look at him with nose scrunched. “I’m being serious here. What are your thoughts about that–our group… lasting forever?”

The latter doesn’t respond in heartbeat but rather took his time in answering, and as in he’s in deep thought (too), Dongwoo finally replies with a light nod and curt smile. 

“I… can only hope so.” 

Hope. Something that they’ve hold onto for the longest time–and Jinyoung remember how he always hope and wishes for the best for his group and his member. Jinyoung nod, as if agreeing – expressing that he share the same vision, his expression turns brighter despite the tiredness that’s painted on his visage. 

“I wish we’d last long–I really do hope so. I never envisioned this before–it was never on my list to become a part of a boygroup… but you know what they say, good things always came unplanned. We never know, Dongwoo. In ten years later we’ll be in our thirty and is still a part of B1A4–we can be come like Shinhwa-sunbaenim, you know? Always supporting each other and stuffs… ten years later and some of us are probably already married and carrying baby but we’ll still go around making music while greet them with: ‘1, 2. Let’s Fly, B1A4!’ – How cool is that?”

By the muffled laughter from Shinwoo’s part, he knew that the latter listened to his words and the next thing he knew is that Jinyoung is being cradled in a bear’s embrace. 

“Jinyoung, you and your imagination… that’s quite a big one. But that’s you–you always have your head in the clouds when it should be here.”

Dongwoo’s words are vague and somewhat left Jinyoung wondering, but the leader doesn’t bother to ask him about its meaning and laugh along – because probably it’s the only appropriate thing to do in this setting. A wide smile painted his visage and he breaks the hug, ruffling Dongwoo’s hair (because he know that he hated it when people messes up his hair or touch him) and proceed to stand up while tugging into Dongwoo’s shirt.

“Anyway–you should go to sleep, Dongwoo. it’s a leader’s order. So you can’t object that.” 

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Perhaps watching TV together hadn’t been the best of thedecisions, but it was the sort of thing they usually did once they got to meetup – random, unplanned shows they’d just see running while flipping channels,and music exchanges when there was nothing of interest, while the TV ran asbackground noise. He was often curious, and Tzuyu could talk about the musicshe liked for hours upon hours without break – it was a wonder of sorts that hehadn’t already gotten bored of all of it. It was all easy and carefree, keepingher mind off the scandal roaring around her still, and therefore, moreappreciated than ever.

He was about to excuse himself when the newsinterrupted the random series, a grim-faced anchor announcing, for theumpteenth time that week, that an idol’s career was in the balance now that she’dbeen reported to be a Taiwanese independence supporter, and Tzuyu blanched:they didn’t need to say a name for anyone to know who that was, by now. It was clear enough that he wasn’t out of theloop either, because the male’s hand froze mid-air above her shoulder, expressionanxious: and it was just enough to make tears gather in her eyes, though sherefused to let them spill. She hated that look, the way in which everyoneseemed to be unaware of how to treat her now, as though she was a bomb about toexplode.

“Does he even know what he’s talking about?” The maleasked, making Tzuyu’s eyebrows arch as she brought her hands up to furiouslywipe at her eyes. “Yes and no…” She mutters, finally, bottom lip jutting outinto a little pout as she glanced up at him again – words gathered in her mind,threatening to spill past her lips. But it was all irreverent and possiblyimage ruining and she just didn’t know whether he’d be prepared to hear any ofit. “Let’s just say I’m very… opinionated on the topic. In a bad way. You don’twant to—“

“You can vent if want to, Tzuyu. I won’t tell.”

She wants to protest, she really does, but it’s toomuch, too frustrating, too overwhelming for just one little girl, and she endsup spilling.

“Huang An is nothing if not a self-entitled twat who has nothing better to do thancreate drama and kiss the mainland where the sun don’t shine in the hope ofreviving his already mummified career! He’s accusing me of having said things Inever did, and telling people that my waving my country’s flag is a way ofsupporting their independence, when I didn’t set foot back there more thantwice since I started training, and that 走狗 didthe exact same thing some years back? But I’m the goddamn rebel, and he’s the goodguy. Oh—in case you didn’t know, he too isTaiwanese.”

23 DEEP ASS QUESTIONS, ONE AT A TIME. // STATUS: NOT ACCEPTING.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?

I don’t take the time to save the dog. It’s how nature works, some survive, some don’t. If the dog can’t save itself, I’m not the one who is doing it. Plus, I would be on a suit, in a hurry and risking my job.

12. Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?

No. If I am the one who deserves the job, then I should have it, not him. Just like him and probably every single person in South Korea, I have a family to support, and also myself. If I am more qualified for the job, then I stay, he leaves. Unfortunately, that’s how things work.

18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?

Send me “HC + a word” & I’ll write a headcanon about it.

FOX

Before debuting, Jinyoung never thought that he resembled fox nor did he associate himself with the said animal. However, the public begs to differ. They seems to favor Jinyoung for his fox-like eyes and chic appearance – thus make up the reason why he is often associated with the canine (if you look up for his name, the word ‘fox’ will come out in the related search). 

WORKING

It is an undeniable fact that Jung Jinyoung is a workaholic – sometimes he forgot how to loosen up. The bold is hard to unscrew once he’s concentrated and focused into something. A dedicated person he is, Jinyoung won’t stop or give up until things are deemed to be ideal in his opinion. Contrary to his infamous ‘grandpa’ image, the male can turns into another person inside the studio–never hesitates to act strict towards his member and scolds them when they’re slacking off.  

He considers a busy schedule as a blessing – Jinyoung doesn’t really think himself as quite an ambitious man, but he won’t let chances nor opportunity to slip. Whether it is in the acting field or music, he tries his best to excels in both; an all-rounder he is.

Regarding to the songs that he’s making, he never forget to discuss it with his bandmate before going onto further process of producing/composing. Being the leader of the group, he enjoy having these kinds of discussion to enhance their teamwork and performance. 

ROMANCE

Jinyoung is a romanticist at its best. He likes to dream of the most dream-like, fairy-tale love that he know wouldn’t happen in reality. Even before debuting, he have experienced several stories of failed relationships and of being heartbroken. It is through his romantic and sensitive side of him, along with the experience–the love and pain–that he is able to craft songs and using them as a reference for musical inspiration to improve. 

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Goodbyes have never been something people looked forward to, and Arin was definitely no different. She didn’t hate saying goodbyes, but rather hated the fact that it would be quite some time before she saw someone again, no matter how long or short that would be. And today was one of those days that she dreaded–a day she would have to say goodbye again.

B1A4 sunbaenims were always going off to tours and adventures with each other, and by now Arin should be used to saying goodbye to them–but she wasn’t. She missed each and every one of them, genuinely. Even though their absences were temporary and not for incredibly long periods of time, the WM Entertainment building felt empty without the older boys.

Everyone stood in line while waiting for the driver to take the boys to the airport, each of them saying their proper goodbyes and ‘good luck’s. Arin swiftly approached Shinwoo and threw her arms around his torso, hugging him tightly as she pressed her cheek against his jacket. “Take care, okay oppa?” she began, looking up at him as a small smile formed upon her lips. “Be careful and don’t get hurt or into trouble. And watch the others, too! Have fun and I’ll see you soon again, okay?” She then nodded her head once and pressed her cheek against his jacket again, trying to hide her faltering smile. “And come back soon!” She then quickly took the other’s hand and wrapped her pinky around his, flashing an exaggerated wide grin that crinkled her eyes into crescents.