I

am

not

okay.

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my god.

Saeyong...what am I supposed to do with all my feelings for you?

does anyone know when that’ll go away? xD;;; 

If anyone starts chatting with me and then I stop replying, this means you’ve stressed me out to the point where I no longer want to continue our conversation. Please don’t keep going.

edit : okay not always, sometimes I just forget to reply, but please look over your own posts to see if i’m answering in 1 word replies, that means i’m getting tired.

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 This is one of those moments that makes me really regret chatting with people online.

They’re constantly unhappy that other artists are better than them, but doesn’t want to put in the work and effort to study art. And then they complain to me, a stranger online, and dismisses my advises. I don’t want to show their art but I literally drew better when I was 10. EDIT: it’s okay as long as you PRACTICE or just be happy with the fact that your art is not good (WHICH IS OKAY too, some people just do it cause it’s just fun). I’m also NOT making fun. I’m making a point of reference of what point in the road of art they’re on. Everyone has to start somewhere, as long as they’re willing to work for it they shouldn’t worry where. There are plenty of artists who are much better than I am. I don't see that as anything shameful or be unhappy about, I just need to work harder.

That’s not to say that’s particularly a bad thing, but it’s only not bad if you’ve got the the will to study and get better; or if you just don’t care that you don’t draw well. You can’t want to draw really good, be jealous of good artists, comment stuff like “ :( ” on my art posts and “it’s too complicated” on my art-help posts, and then not put in the work, it doesn’t work like that. And that “artistic eye” thing is just cringeworthy I’m dying from awkwardness. I’m sorry but… :( ARGGGHHH. Don’t try and tell me that “normal” people don’t have “the eyes” or whatever, doing art isn’t something someone’s born with, it involves so much practice. And actual artists need to do the OPPOSITE of seeing everything in minute detail, because that’s what normal people do - focus too much on the details. Artists need to train themselves to step back and look at the artwork as a whole. This is why a lot of people starting out have so much anatomy problems they don’t realize they have until they step back.

Do some people just think I sacrificed my soul to the devil to get my draftsmanship skills or something???? Literally I still need more practice myself and I’ve been at it seriously for like 10 years. sorry, just needed to rant ughhh. 

THEN, I found out open heart surgery can cost around $190,000 to $300,000 in the US (wtf??), and I just had 3 done in the last 3 months so I would’ve been $600,000 - $900,000 in the red, I’m so fucking glad I’m in Canada you don’t even know. 

And I’ll never complain about taxes again. at least, for a few decades, lol. 

And seriously, I’m so tired of people saying one medium’s better than the other ugh. both have their merits, just leave artists to work with whatever they like :/. Draftsmanship is a required skill in either case, unless you’re working abstract or something. Good digital artists will have no problem transitioning to traditional, as long as given enough time to get used to the medium, and vice versa. I seriously can’t believe people are not over this already, it’s been 10 years I've been online for art and I still hear people complain about each other’s mediums. Good lord.