#shouldertocry

Ethan: Ethan had found himself locked away again, that’s all he really did these days. Not like he really had any reason to, all of his so called friends seemed to have forgotten he was alive and not to mentioned Izzy deciding to keep away from him. He shut his eyes to try and forget about all that, but he just couldn’t shake the thought away. Finally he got out of bed and walked over to the bathroom, to splash cold water on his face to see if that would help. As he walked in and saw his reflection, he noticed the bruises on his neck. “Wonder if he’s busy..” Ethan thought as he walked out of the bathroom and out of his room. There wasba chance that Scott would be busy, but there was no harm in checking. He walked down the hall, and when he finally made it to Scott’s room he knocked on the door. “Hey Scott, you in?”

Scott: Scott was laying in his bed, headphones covering his ears as he was listening to his music. Ever since Danny broke up with him, he’d been hiding in his room, not ready to deal with anyone just yet. He didn’t know why it was hitting him so hard, but it was. So now he was just blasting music to distract himself for a while. He thought he heard a knock at his door, and pulled the headphones off, listening for another sound. “Go away! I’m sleeping!” That’s when he heard Ethan’s voice, and he made himself get up and walk over to the door. He opened it slightly and peeked out at him, trying to force a smile. “Hey, Ethan.. Did you need something?”

Ethan: Ethan’s eyes widened in shock are Scott’s yelling, he didn’t think it was like him to yell. But all Ethan did was shrug it off, he was about to walk away when suddenly the door opened, “Hey.. yeah wanted to see if we could hang out,” he said with a smile, “can I come in?” Ethan then put his hand on the door, trying to open of up more so he could walk inside.

Scott: Scott lowered his eyes and nodded as he stepped aside to let Ethan into the room. "Um.. yeah, sure. Make yourself at home, I guess.“ He wasn’t exactly in a mood to see anyone, but Ethan usually made him happy, so maybe this would help. He closed the door behind him and went back over to sit on his bed, leaning against the wall. "Uh.. what’d you want to do?”

Ethan: Ethan walked inside, and stood by the door awkwardly. He wasn’t sure but something felt off, he then began to fidget with the sleeve of his jumper unsure of what to say - “uhh we could actually watch a film this time, or maybe play a video game.” Ethan walked over to sit beside Scott, and be frowned when he looked at him, “hey, dunno about you.. but I’m getting a weird vibe, are you okay?” He asked, trying not to sound as crazy as he felt.

Scott: Scott listened to Ethan’s suggestions and shrugged. “Whatever you wanna do. My laptop is over there,” he pointed over to his desk as he spoke. When Ethan sat down beside him, he pulled his knees up, wrapping his arms aroundThem and resting his chin on top. “Sorry.. it’s just been a.. weird couple of days.” He turned his head to look up at him, putting on another smile. “I’ll be fine. What movie do you wanna watch?”

Ethan: Ethan shook his head as he brought one of his hands to run through the other boys hair, “What’s wrong?” He asked, a worried tone to him as he looked at Scott, not daring to shift his gaze. “You can talk to me Scott, that’s what I’m here for.” He then backed away a bit and opened up his arms, “c'mere…” he said as he waited for the boy to come into his arms.

Scott: “I’m fine..” Scott said, not very convincingly. He was going to insist further, but Ethan could already tell he wasn’t okay. He frowned when Ethan pulled away, afraid that he was leaving him, but glanced over at his opened arms when he spoke. He felt the stinging in his eyes again and without hesitation, moved closer to him and slipped his own arms around him tightly. He buried his face against the boy’s shoulder, trying not to break down in front of him. “Danny broke up with me..” he shook his head as he said it. “I’m being stupid, I know. I’m sorry.”

Ethan: Ethan held onto Scott, rubbing his back as he listened to him talk. Another frown took over his face at the end of his statement, “No not at all,” Ethan pulled away then only slightly, just enough to be able to look at him. “Why did he break up with you?”

Scott: Scott was worried that Ethan would leave him then, though he wouldn’t blame him if he did. When he pulled back to look at him, Scott just stared downward, not wanting to look him in the eye yet. He shrugged slightly and bit his lip before he replied. “He didn’t give a reason. He just said he wanted to try dating girls or something, and that it was nice, but we were over.” His mind went back to it, and he frowned even further. “I guess I deserved it. I’m a bad boyfriend anyway.” He pulled away from him and layed back on the bed, pulling the covers up over his head.

Ethan: When Scott pulled away Ethan let him, not really knowing what to do or say. After a bit of a silence he leaned on Scott, and tugged at the duvet - “don’t try and say you deserve this, you don’t.. okay?” He said as he finally pulled the duvet off, and placed a kiss on Scott’s cheek. The upset look on his face was painful for Ethan to look at, and he could just feel himself getting upset. His hand gripped the duvet as he rose from the bed, pacing about. “Do you know where he is, Danny, do you know where he is?” Ethan asked, his voice sounding harsh.

Scott: Scott was a little surprised when Ethan pulled the blanket off of him, and he just looked up at him, not sure how to respond. “I did.. I’m a jerk.” He smiled slightly when he kissed his cheek, closing his eyes for a moment. He sat up a bit when Ethan got off the bed and started moving around. He frowned again at his words, unsure of what was happening. “Why? I don’t want you to go see him..”

Ethan: Ethan wasn’t exactly sure what he would do once he got a hold of Danny, all he did know was that it was making him all the more upset the longer he was in the room. “Why not?” He asked Scott, looking down at him with a bitter sound in his voice, and an angry expression on his face. “I need to talk to him..” Ethan then took a seat beside Scott, though he refused to look at him, instead he kept his gaze forward. “No one should hurt you.. no one, I wont let him do this to you, the least he can do is give you an explanation!” His breathing was heavy then, his mind buzzing, and his heart pounding.

Scott: Scott was a little scared at this point. While he knew Ethan would never hurt him, he also knew that he had violent tendencies at times, and he wasn’t prepared to deal with that. He was mad at Danny, but he didn’t want to see any real harm come to him. He didn’t speak as Ethan sat down beside him, he just watched him. After a moment, he leaned closer and wrapped his arms around his neck, hugging him tightly. “Ethan.. please stay.” He pulled back slightly to look at him, then kissed him softly. “Just.. stay. Please.”

Ethan: Ethan jumped a bit when he felt Scott wrap his arms around him, “it’s not fair,” he said as he shook his head. Then Scott kissed him, and those buzzing thoughts went away as Ethan leaned into him slightly before he pulled away. The older boy sat there for a moment, still unsure of what he was going to do.. but after a moment he nodded, “Fine, I’ll stay.”

Scott: Scott reached a hand up to brush against Ethan’s cheek, before leaning in to rest his forehead against the other’s, smiling slightly. “You’re amazing.. ya know that?” He kissed him again, then pulled away to look at him. “Thank you..” he bit his lip for a moment, then looked away. “Did you want to watch a movie?”

Ethan: “Yeah, I know,” he said with a light laugh - Scott then kissed him again, and Ethan could feel his heart skip. He wasn’t sure how he’d managed to calm him down so easily, but he did, and in that moment all the anger Ethan was feeling vanished. Ethan moved to lay down beside Scott, resting his head on the boys chest as his arms wrapped around him. “We could just talk.. if you’d like. How’re you feeling?” He asked as he listened to his heart beat.

Scott: Scott could feel himself shaking a bit, and he didn’t know why. It was sort of a mix of nerves and fear, but he wasn’t sure. He was glad when Ethan decided to lay down beside him, and he slipped his own arms around him slowly, closing his eyes. He was trying to relax his nerves and calm his breathing a bit, finding it a little difficult. He ran his hand lightly along his back and nodded. “Talking’s good.. I’m.. a little better. Thank you for that.” He opened his eyes and looked down at him. “Are you okay? How have you been?”

Ethan: Ethan shook his head as he leaned up, hovering over Scott. "No, forget about me I don’t matter. I want to know how you’re really feeling.. don’t just say you’re ‘okay’ because I know that’s not true,“

Scott: Scott frowned as he looked up at Ethan. He was trying not to think right now, but he wasn’t making it difficult. "Ethan..” he started, but didn’t know what to say. “I’m not okay, no.. but I will be, I guess. I dunno. How should I feel right now? I feel like whatever I say is going to make me sound more pathetic.”

Ethan: “You won’t sound pathetic.. you’d sound like someone who’s hurting and there’s nothing wrong with that,” he laid back down, though this time beside him keeping a slight distance from the other as he turned to look at him. “Are you in love with him?” Ethan asked, as he turned his attention toward the opposite direction.

Scott: Scott was caught off guard by Ethan’s question. He wasn’t sure how to answer. He knew he loved Danny, or at least thought he did, but was he actually in love? He turned to look at the other boy and frowned. “I don’t know. How can you tell? Have you ever been in love?”

Ethan: Ethan shrugged his shoulders, letting his fingers drum against his tummy. “Yeah.. still am.” He turned to face him then, his mouth twisted into a side smirk. “I dunno how ya know.. you just kinda do. One day you just wake up and realise that you never want to be away from this person, it’s weird.”

Scott: Scott bit his lip and turned to face upward, shaking his head. “I don’t think I am. I wouldn’t like other people if I was, right?” He paused a moment then looked back at him. "It’s that guy from the kitchen, isn’t it? What’s the deal with him?“

Ethan: Ethan furrowed his brow at those words, sitting up and bringing his knees up to his chest. "No.. I guess not..” he said as he leaned against the headboard, “Yeah him. I dunno.. I’m an idiot, that’s really it. I love him though, I think he loves me.” He shrugged his shoulders again, unsure of what else to say.

Scott: Scott smiled slightly as he watched Ethan sit up. “You guys are cute together.. I can tell you guys love each other.” He stared at him for a few moments before rolling onto his stomach, propping himself up on his elbows. “You don’t have to talk about it.. but if you want to, I’ll listen.”

Ethan: “How can you tell that?” He said tilting his head, Ethan brought his arms to wrap around himself as he watched Scott roll about. “I don’t wanna talk about it, I wouldn’t really know what to say. What about you?” He said as he poked his arm with his foot, “how are you feeling right now?”

Scott: “Just the way you guys act together. I can tell.” Scott nodded and layed his head down, not sure what else to say. When Ethan nudged him, he laughed and looked back up at him. “Stop asking me how I feel and distract me.”

Ethan: Ethan lowered his gaze then, a smile on his face - “I can’t think of one way to distract you.. though I doubt you’d be up for that.” He said as he bit his lip, finally laying himself down and bring his fingers to graze down Scott’s arm.

Scott: Scott blushed and kept his eyes on the bed, smiling to himself. When Ethan brushed against his arm, his heart skipped, and he glanced up at him. “Oh yeah? And what’s that?” He had a fairly good idea, but he wanted to be sure.

Ethan: Ethan scooted closer to Scott, bringing his hand to his chin and running his thumb across his lips. He then leaned in and pressed his lips against his cheek, then his jaw, before finally pressing a kiss to Scott’s lips.

Scott: Scott sat there, and his heart sped up at Ethan’s touch. His eyes slipped shut as he felt his lips against his skin, bringing a hand up to tangle in his hair. He returned the kiss, pulling him closer and leaning into him a bit more. “That’s a pretty good distraction,” he said with a giggle, before kissing him again.

Ethan: Ethan brought his arms to wrap around Scott then, pulling him so that he was now on top of him as he laid back. He continued to kiss him, though it wasn’t anything rough like before. Ethan’s hands began to trail down Scott’s back, stopping at his waist as he began to grind under him, going rather slow but pressing him down harder.

Scott: Scott let out a small gasp as Ethan pulled him over on top of him, and he moved a leg to either side of the boy, straddling his waist. The hand in his hair moved down to rest at the side of his neck as he deepened the kiss. He let out a soft moan when he felt him grinding against him, moving his own hips slowly in rhythm with his. He slid his hands down Ethan’s chest, before stopping at the hem of his shirt, pushing it up slightly.

Ethan: Ethan broke the kiss, and he took a hold of the bottom of his shirt and brought it over his head before tossing it to the ground and then doing the same with Scott’s. He looked him over before pressing his lips against Scott’s again, his hands sliding down to the younger boys trousers and unbuttoning his trousers slipping his hand in and rubbing him through his pants.

Scott: Scott looked Ethan over as he helped rid himself of his shirt, resting his hands against his chest gently. They were taking things slower than they had been, and Scott appreciated this. He wasn’t in any hurry. When he felt Ethan’s hand make its way into his jeans and start rubbing against him, he let out a low moan against his lips. He pulled back slightly to look at him, biting his lip. “Are you sure about this?”

Ethan: Ethan nodded his head, “yes I’m sure,” he then pressed his lips against Scott’s again, breaking the kiss but keeping his face close, “are you?” His hand making its way up his arm, to his face and cupping his cheek. Ethan knew that the other was going through a rough time, so he smiled at him, tilting his head a bit, “we don’t have to do anything you don’t want to..”

Scott: Scott nodded slowly, moving his own hand up to Ethan’s. “I want this.. I want you.” He leaned down to press his lips against the other’s for a moment, the trailed them along his jaw to his neck. He placed soft kisses along his neck where he’d left marks before.

Ethan: Ethan shut his eyes, and tilted his head back as he felt his lips against his neck. The gentle kisses sending a shiver to run down his spine, he brought his hands back to Scott’s trousers and began pulling them down slowly, followed by Scott’s boxers. He then turned them over so that he was on top now, and he pressed another gentle kiss to Scott’s lips, trailing his lips down to his neck, and then down his chest.

Scott: Scott gasped quietly when they were flipped over again, then raised his hips as his jeans were taken off along with his boxers. He moved a hand up to the back of Ethan’s neck, leaning up into the kiss. He layed back again as Ethan made his way down his body, letting out a low groan. He then trailed his hands down the older boy’s chest, stopping at his waist where he slowly undid his jeans and pushed them down a bit.

Ethan: Ethan brought his hand to Scott’s member, and began to tug slowly- picking up the pace as he began to kiss upward from his chest to his neck. He then bit down gently, and began to suck on his skin, pulling away and then pressing his forehead against Scott’s, “I want you so bad..” he said in a low voice as he gave him a kiss, biting his lower lip when he broke the kiss.

Scott: Scott let out a louder moan at the touch, raising his hips slightly. He brought his hand up to cup Ethan’s cheek as they kissed again, smiling a bit as they pulled away. When they pulled away, he nodded slowly, looking up at him. “Have me, then..” he whispered, leaning up to meet his lips again, his hands moving down to his lower back to press into him a bit more.

Ethan: Ethan brought his hands down to his trousers, pulling them down and then doing the same with his boxers. He then took a hold of Scott’s hand, entwining their fingers as he began to push into him slowly, once he was fully in he gave the other boy some time to adjust himself before he began to thrust into him. A soft moan escaping him as he did so.

Scott: Scott tensed up a bit as Ethan pushed into him, but then relaxed after a few moments. The pain subsided, instead turning to pleasure as he moved his own hips slowly against him. He reached a hand up to pull Ethan down into a kiss, then trailed small kisses along to his neck. He bit down gently as he reached his collarbone, sucking and then kissing it softly before moving back up.

Ethan: Ethan continued to move in gentle ways, his thrusts weren’t rough and he didn’t feel the need to be. Ethan let out a soft and pleasurable moan when Scott began nipping at his skin. He brought one of his hands to Scott’s neck as he looked down at him before pressing his lips onto the others. He soon after felt that pressure, and that’s when he brought his free hand down to Scott’s length and began tugging again.

Scott: Scott felt that flip in his stomach again as his gaze met with Ethan’s, and he didn’t understand what it was about this boy that did that to him. He smiled into the kiss, moaning softly as he felt Ethan’s hand on him again. He tilted his head back against the pillow, closing his eyes as he bit his lip. “Oh my god..” After a few more moments, he released with a loud groan. He leaned up to press a light kiss to the other boy’s lips as continued moving his own hips to help him finish.

Ethan: After a few more thrusts, Ethan also felt himself finish. He pulled out of Scott then, though he stayed atop of Scott for a bit. He brought his hands up to his hair, moving bits of his hair away from his face, smiling down at him before pressing a kiss to his lips, the smile still on his face.

Scott: Scott smiled up at Ethan, somewhat glad that he was staying so close after that. He moved a hand up to brush against his cheek slightly, before resting at the side of his neck and letting out a content sigh. He tilted his head and bit his lip, running his thumb lightly back and forth against his neck. “Thank you.. for being so amazing, I guess.”

Ethan: Ethan shook his head, the smile on his face growing bigger as he continued to look down at Scott. “Shh..” he said, as he finally got off of him and instead moved to lay beside him, wrapping his arms around the other boys form, pulling him close and then placing soft kisses along his shoulder. “You talk too much sometimes..”

Scott: Scott laughed and reached down to pull the covers up over the two of them, then turned onto his side to face Ethan. “Fine, I’m sorry.. I’ll shut up.” He took hold of one of his hands and started playing with his fingers lightly, keeping his eyes lowered as he tried to stop smiling like an idiot. “I feel a lot better now, though.”

Ethan: Ethan watched as Scott played with his fingers, wiggling them around every once in a while. “I’m glad..” he said with a happy sigh escaping him, he placed his head to lay on Scott’s arm and continued to watch their hands. "You make me happy.“

Scott: Scott giggled when Ethan started wiggling his fingers, and he leaned his head against his, watching his own movements. He blushed a bit when he heard Ethan speak and nodded his head. "I’m glad.. I like you being happy.” He turned to look at him, and placed a soft kiss against his forehead. “And you make me really happy, too.”

Ethan: “Good,” he said as he brought his gaze up to meet Scott’s, smiling when he felt the kiss on against his forehead. That’s when he tightened the hold he hand on him, never wanting to let him go. “I like you Scott, you’re a great friend and I’m glad I found you,” he said snuggling up to him, “I’ll shut up now, because I’m talking too much.”

Scott: Scott felt Ethan’s grip tighten, which caused him to smile even bigger. “I like you, too. I feel really.. safe, with you.” He brushed his nose against the boy’s cheek, then stopped playing with his hand, entwining their fingers again. “It’s alright, I like listening to you talk. Especially with the cute accent. I’m a sucker for British accents.” He grinned and kissed the tip of his nose. “Okay, now I’ll shut up.”

Ethan: The two laid there is a comforting silence, Ethan began to drum his fingers along Scott’s arm, “I’m glad I can make you feel happy, and safe.. that’s all I’d want you to feel from me, and loved, I suppose.” He added as he pressed another kiss to his shoulder, loosening his grip a bit.

Scott: “I do.. and I hope you do, too.” Scott stayed quiet for a while after that, not really knowing how else to respond. He focused his attention on the feeling of Ethan’s hand on his arm, and then his lips against his shoulder. Every simple touch causing those butterflies in his stomach to return. Part of him wanted to turn over and sleep, but a bigger part of him just wanted to watch Ethan. He moved to lay his head against his shoulder, leaning up slightly to kiss his neck, before closing his eyes and letting out a sigh. His fingers began tracing small shapes against his chest, as he felt himself starting to doze off. “Please still be here when I wake up..”

Ethan: “I will be,” Ethan said as he got more comfortable under the duvet, resting his head against the pillow and looking as Scott’s eyes began to close. He then brought his hand up to Scott’s face, and pressed a gentle kiss onto his lips. “I love you,” he said as he began to close his own eyes.

Scott: Scott opened his eyes and looked up at Ethan, not knowing how to respond at first. He wasn’t completely sure how he was supposed to take it, but he was almost certain it wasn’t the way he was thinking. He brought a hand up to brush some of his hair aside, a smile forming on his lips again. “I know.. and I love you.” He bit his lip slightly and moved his hand back down to settle on the boy’s chest. “But I don’t mind hearing it.” He kissed his cheek briefly and closed his eyes again.

Ethan: Ethan smiled, though he kept his eyes shut. He wasn’t sure why, or how he grew to love this boy so much - nor did he care. “I love you, I love you, I love you,” he said with a sigh as he began to drift off into a peaceful slumber for the first time in what seemed ages.