#shouldbeasleep

Just because you can’t see them does not mean it doesn’t not exist

Just because you don’t understand does not mean they do not exist

Imagine the roles were reversed

Imagine being stripped away from everything you know.

Growing up in a world that hates you for being you.

Growing up knowing you’ll never be as good.

No matter how hard you try you are still less than me

Imagine being called Everything but your name

Imagine watching your ancestors being rape and being told to get over it

There is no standing down.

There is only standing up

Standing for your future

Standing to overcome

We do not want to conquer

 Do any of you have that one dream, that one we all wish was real, that keeps coming back? I’ve had the same dream for way too long and it’s starting to bother me. It’s nothing bad though, just one of those dreams that I know won’t be true anytime soon.

 These dreams that I get they really get my hopes up y’know? 

 Waking up, seeing the one that you love looking right back at you with a smile. That smile that warms your heart, the one you try to see as much as you can. Just waking up to that makes me smile. Just being close to them is enough to make you smile, enough to make all your problems go away.

This is gonna be a ride and I’m gonna hate it because I have to do this shit on my phone. Yay.

Day 294: 20 July 2017

I don’t know what I did. I didn’t write.

Day 295: 21 July 2017

I’ve been shitty at taking care of myself and my shit and this shouldn’t be a surprise. THERE WAS A CAT THO AND THAT WAS AMAZING.

Day 296: 22 July 2017

Nothing

Day 297: 23 July 2017

Not a thing. I mightve done something for school, but I didn’t write.

Day 298: 24 July 2017

I don’t think I write anything until yesterday and by yesterday I mean the 25 but it’s technically the 27 and I haven’t slept yet.

Day 299: 25 July 2017

I wrote for Starling but nothing else and I have to completely rewrite my outline because I forgot it in Cali. Great.

Day 300: 26 July 2017

I was awoken this afternoon by the beautiful sound of my phone ringing and a potential job opportunity has been placed at my feet. I am happy but it’s going to take me an hour to walk there. 😬😬😬 I wrote for Chosen, deleted it because I didn’t like it, did some online orientation stuff but couldn’t finish it because there’s an assignment that has to be graded 😑😑 found names for Chosen characters, listened to some Percy Jackson. I cooked and ate and actually took a shower. It was kind of productive but blegh it wasn’t enough to satisfy me.

My old favourite stomping ground for those 'late night, can't sleep, direction less and lost' nights.