#shortnarrative

its time to make a choice on this melancholy evening

I live in a world where the people are cruel ,nothing more then dark magic from my stand point.This world is ugly yet wonderious.Fresh green trees with corpses upon the branches and a glorious sky blinded by a vultures hunger for all things dead in the world.wars of religion and plagues across the land.such a cruel world but you know one of the reasons people usually just lock themselves in thier own world,they just got tired of thier own existence.  Thats my thoughts on it but for me it was trying to prove my existence,not to my parents but to the people that came along while i faced even myself

I ran the ball back and fourth today sweat dripped upon the ground as i started to struggle with just handling the ball up the court ....the light was shining bright and my concentration was shot as i started to shoot the ball i could just feel everything in me just go among glossy wood floors beneath me what would happen next its not like you could come catch me or take my hand like you did the first time and don't me get me started on those dis functional teammates of mine for whom i couldn't even consider close to relevance in my life but yet for some reason they were still there.I needed to learn something about the nature of humans and even myself after this shot all would be revealed to my eyes

It’s cold outside and yet these people walk with nothing on to cover them, I guess they are more genuine then I am, I see no shadows in their footsteps, every step leads them to something more. Am I alive or am I alive but dead? I guess I answered my own question since I've noticed all these things then I must be dead. Should I call for help? No I need to do this for myself and face this darkness with all my strength! But then again what if I don’t have enough strength? No, No I can do this! I just need to find myself, plus Luna is out of town. I will take no more shelter in my doubts it’s time to face the world!

The hands of time never moves stuck in the same place ! same race! same reality! trying to save face! Exponentially disregarded as a re-run  guilt and shame in the darkness of the very corner we live on when its all said and done  we will no longer see the sun We can see the swords pierce right through us  The purple flames drip into that puddle of dreams Falling back into a dark sleep....  A never changing world We hear their voice "Why am i here!?" "whats going on! ?" It feels like a never changing world a world of questions and no answers  We take every step onto something new only to get the same script again Pain, Loneliness, sorrow  and don't forget the road only gets more narrow you see nothing  you know nothing but lord there has to be something!!! We cry out as the shadows celebrate The corpses rise to the sky  The souls wander about helplessly and still we continue in this Never changing World.

Days go by and I wonder does the sun shine upon my harvest, not a season goes by when I wish my fruit were as ripe as others. But then I remember what you said to me that day when the rain covered  me …….you said ‘Let me be your  guide and your light ‘I really didn’t know what to say you looked so beautiful standing there, kind of stunning my sad emotions with your words. It felt as if the vortex had suddenly stopped…This is a memory I won’t ever forget….

Clouds cover the sky and rain just pours and as usual I’m stuck in this cottage, yes? I just call it a cottage, but there is something I forgot to mention yesterday in my entry. I remembered that despite my disappointment,I ran into someone, her name was Fate. I caught the bus home and this girl who Could only be described as a Rose in the middle of a swirling vortex because guess what? I was the vortex. I didn’t know what to do with myself but she shared with me hope and motivation and told me I wasn’t going to be alone anymore. She didn’t speak a word but it’s like she spoke to me through her heart that may be lame but it was worth the shot anyway because I have no other way to explain it. We got off at the same stop and I was sweating because I knew something happened because she continued look at me with a stare of determination. I kept telling myself this is very awkward, just the sheer amount of thoughts going through my head may have just killed a person. She finally said something and well what she said was unexpected “do you think flowers could grow anywhere?, Personally would like to see flowers just grow upon a blazing fire and see it spread it seed across the land” I know what you’re thinking but then she said something else that made me think she wasn't so crazy and that we did have a heart to heart on the bus literally. “Summer is your name right? I want you to know despite everything you’re special and you have a lot to offer this world and if you want me to hold your hand while you walk on the fire I will, by the way my name is Fate” It was a tearful moment I could hear the water splash on the ground as the tears continued to fall. That was embarrassing, what happened? I just didn't understand and I still don’t understand. That wasn't what I expected nor do I actually think I can tell someone and they believe me without sending through so much trouble.I walked away with her contact information if I was to ever need her at least that’s what she told me to call her for.I don’t know this girl from Adam to Eve and yet I’m trusting her ,maybe because I want to figure out who she is and how she can do what  she does.

Something happened today, I lost hold of my purpose. I felt it as my fellow class mates came and told of their lives and I sat there not with a grim look but a look of confusion because what I thought was special seemed so small to their deeds in the world. I went to battlefield with only the one apple I grew, while the others had dozens fruit to shared. There was Love, business,television shows and modeling and all I had was years’ worth of school and a lousy job to show for it, I must sound pathetic right about now, all I know is that I hope tomorrow I feel a little bit more motivated.