closed rp thread with @dont-call-me-cadet
By the time Cindy gets home, the evening has already settled over the city.
Her bag feels heavier than it had when she left that morning, but there is a quiet relief beneath the tiredness that keeps her moving. She has been at the shop for a little over a week now, and today she received her first pay. It is in her bag with her phone and her notebook, and she keeps thinking about it on the way home because she earned it.
The thought stays with her as she climbs the stairs to her studio, one hand sliding along the railing while she reaches for her keys with the other. Then she reaches her door and stops.
The lock is scratched around the metal. The marks are fresh, ugly in a way she knows would have caught her attention that morning, and the door isn’t fully closed. It sits open by the smallest amount, just enough for the hallway light to show through the gap.
Cindy tells herself she might have left in a hurry. She tells herself the door in this building has always been stubborn and maybe it didn’t catch properly when she shut it. Even as she thinks it, her hand tightens around her keys.
She thinks about calling out, but nothing comes out. Instead, she stands there and listens.
Then Cindy opens the door and walks inside.
Her studio is small enough that she sees too much at once. The bedding on the futon has been pulled loose, her boxes has been emptied onto the floor, and the few drawers she owns have been left open. Some of her books are scattered near the wall where she usually keeps them stacked. The place where her laptop should be is empty. So is the spot on the counter where the crockpot had been.
She doesn’t understand it properly until she moves toward the jewelry box. By then her hands are shaking. She pulls it out from where she keeps it hidden and opens it too quickly, still hoping that whoever came in only took the obvious things.
But the money inside is gone.
For a few seconds, Cindy can only stare at the empty space. Then everything comes back too quickly. The last of what her mother had left for her future, taken.
Then she suddenly remembers something that gets her moving.
Cindy turns from the jewelry box and searches through the mess on the floor, pushing aside notebooks and paperbacks until she finds what she's looking for, a black book beneath two notebooks near the futon. She pulls it to her chest with both hands, and the relief comes fast, but it doesn’t make anything better.
Cindy takes the black book and leaves the studio without looking back.
She makes it down the stairs and out of the building before her body seems to decide it has gone far enough. Then she sits on the front steps with her bag over her shoulder, the book pressed against her chest, and tries to breathe.
Don’t cry. Cindy. Don’t cry.
She wipes at her face before the tears can fall properly, but that only makes her more aware of them.
Don’t blood cry! You weren’t even hurt! Stop being so dramatic!
Her breath catches and she presses the heel of her hand against her mouth as if she can force it back down.
The harder she tries to make herself stop, the worse it gets, until her face crumples and the first sob slips out before she can swallow it.
Another sob follows, then another, until she can’t keep them quiet anymore and she’s sitting there on the front steps openly sobbing where anyone could see.