#shilepls

OKAY NO because now that I know everything?? I am actually shaking. 😭😭😭 CHAPTER 9 of Bodhi Tribulations didn’t just break me — it obliterated my mortal coil and fed my remains to a glowing lotus of trauma.

So picture this: Shao Wan, THE Demon Ancestor, walks into this eerie cave trying to solve a cosmic mystery 🕯️ — why her past self, Shi Le, cursed poor Huan Zhuang. She’s there to investigate, not emotionally implode. But Tang Qi said “what if trauma speedrun?”

She’s going through relics, deciphering spells, minding her demonic business — when she finds an ice coffin. Inside? Suihan. The man her past self loved, mourned, literally broke heaven’s rules for. So naturally, our queen opens it like, “Let’s finally get some closure.” And then—

💥 BAM 💥 MO YUAN’S FACE.

I SCREAMED. She SCREAMED. The universe SCREAMED. Because excuse me?? The god she’s been trying to keep at emotional arm’s length just happens to look exactly like her ancient mortal lover?? Tang Qi, what was the reason??

And then Mo Yuan, in that perfectly calm, soul-shattering tone, just goes: “Suihan was me.”

Sir. SIR. 😭

So yeah. Turns out Mo Yuan literally descended into the mortal realm during Shao Wan’s first life and lived an entire lifetime with her under the name Suihan. Married her. Loved her. Gave her peace. But here’s the heartbreak: because he gave her such a perfect, safe, love-filled life, she couldn't go through any hardship.

You’d think that’s beautiful, right? But the gods were like “uh oh, emotional attachment alert 🚨” — so Xiluo the Buddha (aka Mo Yuan’s divine bestie and ultimate party pooper) literally sealed Mo Yuan in a meditation cave so he wouldn’t keep sneaking back down to her mortal lives like some celestial simp and stop Shao wan from going through hardships and gaining heavenly creds.

And Shao Wan? As Shi Le, she spent ten lifetimes searching for him — because she loved him that much. She gave up her heavenly merits in every single life just to keep her memories and keep looking for him. Like this woman literally said, “I’d rather lose eternity than forget you.” 😭💔

Then in her tenth life, Mo Yuan senses she’s in danger — a demon’s about to attack — but he can’t leave his seal, so he sends his shadow to protect her. The shadow dies, and Shi Le thinks it was Suihan who died. The man she loved. She mourned him so hard she cursed Huan Zhuang out of grief. And now, centuries later, she’s standing over that coffin realizing it was never Suihan who died — it was just a fragment. A shadow. The real Mo Yuan has been alive and suffering this whole time.

AND SHE JUST STANDS THERE. SHAKING. WHILE MO YUAN LOOKS AT HER LIKE, “I’ve waited through ten lifetimes for you to remember.” 😭😭😭

Then comes the time-reversal array — and oh my GOD this part wrecked me.

Mo Yuan, in his quiet devastating way, tells her there’s a forbidden method that can bring back everything she’s forgotten. It’s the Golden Lotus Time Array, created by her old friend Zuti, the star deity who apparently woke up one day and chose pain and chaos. It doesn’t just restore memories — it throws you back in time. You don’t watch your past, you live it again — every touch, every heartbreak, every loss.

And guess what? Her past self, Shi Le, the queen of dramatic foresight, had already set it up in that cave. She literally built her own destiny trap. So when Shao Wan stopped the soul-nourishing ritual to save Suihan’s shadow, the entire array activated exactly as planned.

The air cracks. Her Shenting Blood starts glowing gold. The walls bloom into golden lotus petals — each petal etched with memories from her mortal lives. The cave begins to reverse itself — time folding inward, gravity unraveling, petals spinning like a vortex of pain and light. 🌸⏳

And Mo Yuan? Does he run? No. He steps closer. He embraces her. Because of course he does. 😭 He whispers that maybe this is what Shi Le wanted — for them to remember together.

And Shao Wan — the woman who fought gods, who burned kingdoms, who swore she’d never kneel again — just lets it happen. She closes her eyes and lets the lotus swallow them both.

💫 The light consumes everything. 💫 The air rewinds. 💫 The cave disappears.

And they’re gone — cast back into the first mortal life, where they were simply Suihan and Shile. Before divinity, before curses, before the gods decided love was a sin.

So yeah. Chapter 9 doesn’t just end — it detonates. We have: 💔 A god sealed away for being too in love 🌸 A demon ancestor trading eternity for memory 🕯️ A self-triggering time array designed by her past self 🔥 A golden lotus literally eating time 💀 And me, lying face-down on the floor whispering “let them rest”

Tang Qi really looked at us and said, “What if love was so strong it broke linear time?”