#sheepish

I just wanted to leave a little note about why I'm still here (on Tumblr) after everything ('everything' being deleting my side blogs and almost deleting my main).

Long story short, my insecurities and OCD got the better of me. I deeply loathed the person I was turning into as a result, and thought it would be best to remove myself from the community.

But with the gentle, unbelievably patient help and encouragement of a few very dear friends, I've come out of

mode. I still love Outer Wilds and the OW community, and deeply appreciate every kind word and comment that everyone has given me 🥺 My goal is to get back to enjoying both creating and sharing content again.

I still don't like the person I am at the moment, and I'm struggling to work through my unhealthy thought patterns, so if my replies (or lack thereof), or even posts are a little off, please know it's only because I'm grappling the demons hourly, and some days I'm too exhausted to equip the filters.

Love,

I think? Or maybe a bass? But like not like the fish kind? Idk man it’s 3am goodnight

/insert angsty Midwest indie emo music here/

like not only are they satisfying to say and read (literally will read "they grin sheepishly" excitedly every time)