#shaytards

I’m still active on here on my own blog  : http://permanentlyenchanted.tumblr.com  & myself & sophie are active on instagram https://www.instagram.com/permanentlyenchanted  // https://www.instagram.com/sphcvzc/

The two reasons I still watch the Shaytards: Emmi & Colette.

I started watching the Shaytards literally 2 or 3 months after they started their Ddaily vlogs. That was 7 years ago. I watched these people for 7 years, they were always one my favorite YouTube channels and in a way I felt like I knew them. In a way I grew up with them. So as you can imagine, when everything came out I was completely heartbroken and betrayed. It sounds ridiculous, but it literally felt like someone in my actual family had done it. I was sad, I was shocked, but most importantly I was angry and disgusted. That being said, I still care for Shay. I didn’t hate him when it happened and I don’t hate him now. I sincerely hope he got help for his Alcoholism and is healing. But still, I can’t look at him or anything he does without remembering. I hope one day I can look at him the way I used to, but as of right now, I can’t. I’m still distrusting and I still think angry thoughts toward him. The main one being my distrust toward him. I hope he is sincerely sorry and healing and not using it as an excuse to get by consequence free. He has a beautiful wife and children and if he mistreats them or betrays their trust again i’ll be livid. Obviously I never had any sort of ill feeling toward Collette or the kids. When everything came out all I wanted to do was protect them and comfort them. I still worry about the kids, what kind of effect this had (or will have) on them, how this effected not only their private life but also their school life (many of their friends watched their vlogs), and I just...even now, with everything Collette’s said, no matter how positive it was, i’m still worried and sad. I guess it’s just...I will always worry and wonder if this is something she’s doing because she wants to or if she’s doing it because she feels like she has to. May it be because of religion, social reputation, family pressure, etc. 

http://my.w.tt/UiNb/GfSnj3LhFD As I said on my other social media accounts I DO NOT mean any harm or disrespect to Shay or anyone else I just did it cause you should always make everything positive in life. I don't mean it as black mail either. Shay if you ever see this I"M NOT MAKING FUN OF YOU OR ANYTHING DON'T FEEL WORSE OR DOWN BECAUSE OF THIS.

Colette Butler aka Katilette or Mommytard from Shaytards. Screencaps from the Mom’s View video, ‘Misbehaving Babies’