#sharpmercy

                            ↳   @sharpmercy​  from  here .                                  ❛  we can’t do this forever.  ❜

her words make him  sigh, body crouched over that of someone who has passed on by his own hand. fingers sort through the stranger’s pockets, and when he’s unable to find anything more than a pack of cigarettes and a lighter  (  which he’s  very  thankful for, don’t get him wrong  ), he goes for their backpack. a strong arm rolls the body over, calloused digits finding the two zippers touching at the top of the bag to pull them in opposite directions. there’s not that much in there, either. a bottle of water, some canned food-- some  blunts.  ❛  oh, shit,  ❜  he laughs, moving to stand upright with the small jar of pre-rolled  fun,  ❛  come to daddy.  ❜  he’s more ecstatic than he should be, and it isn’t until a few moments later when he’s trying to open the jar that he remembers she’s actually  spoken. 

head turns, body following, and he faces her.  we can’t do this forever.  the words echo in his mind, and he knows them to be  true, it’s just that it’s getting to the point where he doesn’t always  mind  it.  the violence, the fighting-- it’s the one thing that makes him feel  alive-- even when it  shouldn’t.  when he has blood on his knuckles or another notch under his gun it isn’t a warning sign for danger, it’s a reminder he’s done something, that he’s  won.  he’s protected himself, he’s protected  her.  it doesn’t occur to him that one day there might not be that many people left to kill, as long as he keeps doing what he’s doing and the dead keep eating all they’re eating. 

it doesn’t occur to him that  he  is contributing to the problem.

she’s done it once ,   to protect the group   . .      to protect her happiness , her daughter and the rest.     humanity has an odd way of showing ;  how quick people would kill to protect what the have.       the  girl  ,  shes  young  . . .   not as young as anna   ;  but  enough for her to think about the mother behind her  and  she comes up quick ,  finger pressed against her lip   (   shh   )     .   gun pointed at the girl ,  she swings the hammer down against the mans head  ,   a   heavy   hand.       one   ,    two        -------      she      stops  ,   taking  the  gun  from   the   corpse        “         are  you  alone?      ”

SO MUCH OF IT REMINDED HIM OF HOME ;   though not in a way the man could put his finger on. it wasn’t like the   old   version of home, with high walls and the sound of his daughter playing carefree in the yard            and it wasn’t exactly like the place he’d learned to call home far more recently, surrounded for miles by nothing but crisp mountain air and snow covered roads.   no.   the new situation eric had found himself in was something set entirely apart from   both   realities, although there was something just under the surface connecting all three.

he had to hand it to them though ;    the jam couldn’t be beat.   

wary though he may have been it was   made perfectly clear   that attendance was far from optional, and the last thing he wanted to do was get off on the wrong foot. with the brightest of smiles plastered on his face eric had arrived   right on time,   listening when the need to do so was obvious, and mingling with   new friends   when there was time enough for such matters. it was, to put it plainly, hell on earth, and had the shoulder he re-injured not been completley useless and in a sling he would have slid out the back door at the first opportunity. 

happy attracted happy, sad attracted sad, and it only took one glance for eric to find   his   match within the room. two souls brought together, if only by suspicion.   ❝  so, when do we get   our   keys?  ❞   he asked upon taking a seat next to the   ( much )   younger female and tapping the empty spot on his shirt.   ❝  if they expect me to function without the proper accessories            well, they have some   bad news   comin’ their way.  ❞   was it a risk to be so openly flippant? without a doubt. but the world had long since drained eric of any caution he had left.