Pili 2 didn't deserve this - but also did, an analysis
Preface before I get too deep into this: I haven't rewatched any of the Pangi vods (except pangkey moments for research but it isn't relevant) in a bit, so some of the facts can be not exactly accurate and feel free to call me out in the tags, however I try to keep everything laid out plainly. If this isn't obvious, this is from a pov of a Pangi viewer - if Pili has specified something different in his streams, I won't know it, and feel free to tell me about it and I'll try to correct it.
Now to the topic of the post: there is an insane amount of mischaracterization surrounding Pili 2, which leads to the character hate he doesn't deserve. If you want to hate the character, do it for the actions he has actually done, or for the fact that you don't like split personality trope, or anything else - but don't attribute actions done by another character to him.
If you look into the history of the relationship between Pangi and Pili 2 (and 1.5, but we will get into it later), Pangi certainly instigated it at the start. The accusations of Pili 2 being a person he had no recollections of, the stalking to try and catch him in on the lie, the obsession Pangi had with him for around a week - from Pili 2's pov, they were completely unjustifiable, and so he decided to be cold and distant to Pangi as well, until eventually Pangi left him alone - and everything could've been solved here, if it wasn't for the Pili 1 book.
Here's the first and one of the only two (two and a half? three?) cases where Pili 2 has done something especially bad towards Pangi - ripping out the last two pages of the book, but in his own eyes, it was protecting his own skin, and he expected to die for this - and he did, first by Pangi, who was justifiably angry, and then resetting himself to start on 3 lives again. This was the one death to Pangi that in the eyes of Pili 2 was justified - he expected it, it came, everything was fine.
After that, Pangi tried distancing himself from Pili 2 as much as possible, and while Pili 2 himself still sometimes came along to be annoying to Pangi, it was minimal. Until the first appearance of Pili 1.5 - in the shape of the signs filling up Pangi's entire house. We know it's Pili 1.5 because Pili 2 didn't remember it - and also because the signs were clearly referencing Mocha. But they drove Pangi angry, and made him think that Pili 2 was lying, was stalking him, was being obsessive - and from Pangi's eyes he was, because Pangi didn't know (and tbh still doesn't know, somehow, my streamer is stupid forgive him) that Pili 1.5, or Mocha possessing Pili 2, is a thing.
Pili 2 still kept being annoying to Pangi, yes, but it was only fueled by Pangi accusing him of things he has never done, and it culminated in Pili 2 stealing armor set Pangi got for Jonnay (it took so long to find that alt vod to confirm that reverb was on so it was actually Pili 2 and not Mocha), which resulted in Pangi blowing up Pili's base, and Pili stealing Pedro.
Pangi was justifiably murderous after that, but then Pili gave Pedro back, and they talked, and then they decided to leave bygones be bygones, start from a clean slate and just keep their distance so nothing more happens between them.
And that's when the cracks start to show, where the perspectives of Pili 2 and Pangi differ significantly. Very significantly, one might say.
Because from Pangi's perspective, instead of leaving him alone, Pili starts hounding him, hounding his friends, first trying to kill them and then asking them out, starts consistently psychologically torturing him and just won't die no matter how many times he is killed. He does everything in his power to make Pangi's life as miserable as possible, and even tells so to his face - and tells him that yeah, he did place the signs, yeah, he is still here, yeah, he will torture him, will kill Lukey just to hurt him, will make his experience on this server living hell - and it drives Pangi insane, drives him to kill him over and over to make sure he leaves him alone - and he never, never does. So from Pangi's point of view, all those kills on Pili are justified - in an environment he came from, kills are a valid reply to psychological torture.
But then we have Pili 2's perspective, where he does nothing of what was listed. Yes, he asks Lukey out and forms a relationship with him, inviting him to the ball just to have fun - and then retracting that invite when Lukey rejects him and Pangi confronts him. He never did it to make Pangi jealous, he just wanted to have fun with Lukey. And then he also asks Zam out - not caring that he's Pangi's friend, just wanting, again, to spend great time with his friend. And he is killed for doing nothing, killed by this obsessive, murderous person who seems to just hate him for things he did ages ago, saying he did things he never actually did. Yes, there is suspicion about those things actually happening, as multiple people have told him he did them, but he doesn't remember them - and while he suspects what might be the cause, in his eyes he is innocent, in his eyes he doesn't deserve any of those deaths except the very first one. In his eyes, first Pangi promised to let him be, and then ruined his entire life.
And that's where Pili 1.5 comes in. He was the one doing every terrible thing that Pangi described, he was the one hunting down Lukey and trying to kill him over and over again. He was the one harassing and manipulating Pangi - Pili 2 never did that. Well, maybe he did a little bit of manipulation, but who hasn't. Pili 1.5 has done so, so much more. And in most cases it's easy to miss - the only change is that his voice changer is gone, his reverb is off, and, of course, the personality shift. Pili 1.5 does the things, but Pili 2 suffers the consequences - and doesn't know why. Pili 1.5 is the one who keeps prolonging the cycle of violence, and Pangi takes the bait every time. It was Pili 1.5 who made Pangi thing that Pili 2 was taking Zam to the ball just to make Pangi feel awful - because Pili 1.5 specifically mocked him, said that he would make the ball extremely miserable for Pangi - but Pili 2 never intended it this way.
And this is the exact reason why from Pangi's point of view, every death, every bit of violence, everything he ever done to Pili 2 was justified - but also why Pili 2 didn't lie when he said Pangi did it for no reason. Because he did do it for no reason - it wasn't Pili 2 who was torturing him, it was Mocha possessing his body.
And if this trend continues, if Pili 3 really is Pili 1 with memories of both of his installments, Pangi will suffer even more. Because it will be even more of Pili 1.5, with none of Pili 2 to counteract it. And god knows I will suffer from it. But while I can't defend Pili 1.5, I will be Pili 2 defender. My boy did barely anything wrong and suffered so much for it. Too bad he had to suffer the consequences for action committed by a different person. But also I despise split personality trope with all my being so I'm glad Pili 2 is dead.
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Well, time to kill the part of me that cringes. Before doing any serious writing or maybe even drawing, just wanted to describe just what this yume is ^-^
Definitely not /r thing, all my sonas are just as acearo as me, but it is some very fucked up form of qpr! Because my realmsona just loves being scared for his life, feel like he's being hunted down for sport, and is just a scared prey animal in general despite his attempts to look scary and intimidating.
And there is nobody more intimidating and interesting at the same time for tr!sharf than bbh. Because he suspects that bbh is actually the only one who can fully kill him, and not just return to entropy like he wants but a complete and utter death, final destruction. And that makes him oh so incredibly afraid, because while he craves normal death, he is incredibly scared of what bbh could do to him.
And this combination of fear and interest is what makes him both stalk bbh's every movement (to make sure bbh isn't planning to kill him, of course, nothing else) while also constantly being invis and pearling away whenever bbh turns his head even slightly his way.
tr!sharf is like a stray cat that always runs away when you make a sudden movement, but will come closer when you do something of interest to him just to bolt away the very next second. bbh has absolutely no idea that sharf is, first of all, kind of immortal, and second of all, scared of him being the potential end to that immortality. He thinks that sharf is just yet another new person that has been fed misinformation - well, correct information - about how many people bbh has killed and that there's a high likelihood that another accidental kill might strike you if you get too close. He does feed into sharf's paranoia though because of that, like he did with zam - and sharf beautifully gives bbh all the entertainment in the world by instantly going invis and pearling away in a panic whenever bbh as much as glances his way.
Because sharf barely ever sleeps and spends most of his waking moments either setting up some traps in random places for an occasional kill, or dying in those traps to make sure they work, or stalking bbh to make sure he doesn't kill him, which is a sane thing to do, of course. Occasionally while stalking, he passes out from exhaustion, only to wake up with bbh standing next to him with curiosity, leaving a golden apple and then flying away. Sharf goes invis and darts away every single time that happens, but does pick up the gapples and is just incredibly confused about it every time. That's actually the only way bbh and sharf ever interact, sharf is like a stray cat that bbh occasionally feeds to him, while bbh is an extremely terrifying entity to sharf that for some reason doesn't kill him when given a chance. Their "qpr" is just the fondness you have to that angry wet starving stray cat that you see once a week and try petting even when it hisses at you, swats its claws at you and runs away from you every single time.
Eventually sharf becomes less scared of bbh and starts to show signs of trust such as "intentionally curling to sleep in green castle instead of passing out from exhaustion" and "leaving trophies from his kills on his doorstep to see if he likes them". Sharf is quite literally a cat. He has every mannerisms of a cat. BBH finds that very amusing, even if he is more of a dog person. Especially since sharf doesn't ever actually ask him for anything, for once (he does leave him some occasional gift out because he loves giving gifts to people, and he notices just what gear sharf uses whenever he's not busy running away from bbh).
...guys am i doing this yume stuff right let me know!
good luck on the pangili3 convo!! hopefully nothing too bad will happen!!
Ace is so going to try and manipulate Pangi now that he's easily manipulatable... Although nah, I believe in Pili, he has a PrinceZam to worry about, he wouldn't do anything, right? And Pangi was warned to be wary of him too...
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Being an aroace who's really into qprs and also a shipper is so hard. Like it's undeniable that I ship those two dudes. I want them to cuddle and be eternally devoted to each other and die in each other's arms and be willing to do anything to ensure the other stays alive.
But then I see art of them kissing and I go "they wouldn't do that" and go "???" at myself. Like, Sharf, you literally ship them. But it seems to be not in a /r way, as I have now learned. Im confusing myself now. I keep forgetting platonic shipping exists. Secret third thing relationships are the best ones anyway.
i don't know enough deep star wars lore to get the full details but i get the vibes. very interesting
(might need a crash course on sw words to get the rest of it)
Idt it's that *deep* of the star wars lore but i get what you mean, yeah, there were so many concepts and words in that fic that seem like nonsense to people who aren't familiar with the lore :sob:
