#sharedheaven

I’m always surprised with Sam, no matter what because he never does what’s expected. What’s expected in the life of a hunter? Black and white, seeing things as split good and evil, drawing the line. With Sam he’s always taken extra care to see what was and what wasn’t. He’s saved the good as often as he could, and made sure that those who were bad were all bad before he would kill them, and even then with regret. Sam has a beautiful soul, as damaged, battered, bruised and totally burnt to a crisp it is right now.

Sam is good through and through, and in this episode alone we see that so many times. We see Sam keep the fears that are creeping through to himself, we see him fight his own battles but smile and try to make sure Dean thinks he’s okay, he forgives Castiel, and he only ever wants to be good, and help the good.

Sam forgiving Castiel made me smile hugely even though I’m not a fan of the latter. He took a step no one else would, or even should, be willing to take. He took that step that no one took for him. He went out on a limb because in his darkest moment no one did it for him because he was labeled an abomination, and everything else under the sun.

For me it was less about him forgiving Castiel as much as him almost saying he was going to make sure that when others in his life messed up he would be quick to be understanding because as much as I love all the other characters on this show no one was willing to be that for Sam. At his worst he was dependent on a demon’s praises, and he didn’t have someone stand out there and go, “I believe in you. I believe you’re still in here and I believe in you enough to get behind you. You fall I fall,” so regardless of how close he and Castiel are, he made that step.

Sam was able to look at three years previous and go, “I was so messed up. No one in their right mind would’ve stood by me…with good reason,” but forgiving Castiel didn’t mean he thought Castiel was in the right. It meant that he considered Castiel his friend and he knew that he would’ve wanted someone, anyone, to be able to look him in the face while he was working with Ruby and tell him he thought he was doing what he needed to do, and that that was commendable.

What was it…? You can’t have faith in someone some of the time, you have to have faith in them all of the time. With Sam Winchester, his character has always been based so much on faith, and redemption because they were things he’s always been seeking out. Now Sam is practicing those traits and habits, hoping it’ll work… 

demonsigetpeoplearecrazy: Elise is amazing and will scream and flail with me about random things. She is flawless. Also her blog's pretty sweet, so go there. Now. (We follow each other.)

9091: Oh God. What is there to say about Amanda that hasn't already been said a thousand times by everyone else? She's incredible. And hilarious. And badass. Following her is basically a law in the SPN fandom. (We follow each other.)

sharedheaven: I will readily admit that I am in fucking love with everything about her blog. Her opinions on everything are exactly mine and it makes me sob late at night. I'm not ashamed to say that I stalk her on a daily basis. whoops (I follow her, she doesn't follow me.)

fleshandbloodbrother: Oh my god, LIBBY. Don't even get me started on Libby. She loves Supernatural, which is great, but she also loves Anthony Kiedis and worships him like the sex god he is which makes me love her that much more. And she's just perfect. She makes me laugh everytime we talk and I'm incredibly jealous of her tattoos. I LOVE HER (We follow each other.)

How I feel about this character: Considering I'm a hardcore Dean!Girl, I love Sam with all my heart and soul. He tries his best no matter what, and has good intentions with everything he does. I identify with him really easy.

All the people I ship romantically with this character: Dean.. *cough* and Jessica. I could have gotten behind him and Sarah too. 

My non-romantic OTP for this character: Sam/Dean

My unpopular opinion about this character: .. Wincest wise, I don't think he tops.

ohohoho you picked like all my favorite people

9091 - amanda is like the best thing ever. she's funny, but also really nice and helpful.. and her RP and headcanons and fic give me all the feels and they are usually good feels

sharedheaven - i don't really talk to dani that much but her relationship with amanda is really sweet and makes me AWWW at my dash a lot which is nice

ohbrotherofmine - for the longest time i thought i was following her but then i realized i wasn't and i was ashamed because her edits/graphics are INSANELY AMAZING

brothersfuckingunderthestars - what can i say about gee except that he makes me SMILE all the time. whether he's posting about wincest or his sister it's just like FEELINGS EVERYWHERE. and also top!dean fan - hello are we soulmates orrr

thecapn - ahh sydnee is hilarious and sweet too. and its the most unfair combination because then she's also pretty too! sometimes she hurts me with her winchester angst but it's all good bc then CHEESECAKE out of fuckin nowhere. we have the same papa john feels so i feel like i can go to her when i see john hate and be reassured that he did the best he could.