#shanik

“My roommate had to go into my room and throw the sheets away because I haven’t been able to sleep in that bed since you left.” Shai didn’t reply immediately, but her eyes locked with Anik’s and she gave her the raised eyebrow. Her lids were twitching. “You of all people should know. We owned the same crocodile in this.” Doesn’t mean that I can just -, Anik wants to answer, but she can’t find the rest of the words in her mind. Move on? Forget? Sleep without feeling like my arms are empty and the room is devoid of any smell and colour? “I do. Still.” The sheets had been full of little doodles and Shai’s fingerprints in grey ink. Anik couldn’t bear looking at them anymore, they made her head swim and her sight blur. And the worst thing was, Shai was still directly in front of her, every day when she came to the negotiations, every day when they ate together, sat together and tried to talk like they once did. I was afraid this would ruin our friendship, but not in like that. Never. “You’re right. It was the right decision. When this is all settled, we can move back in together.” Then she turned her back and walked through the lamp-lit corridor so that Shai wouldn’t see the weakness in her eyes. The lights began to smudge into each other and so did the shadows, like grey fingerprints on white.