#shambolic

I like to write down and write about new words I learn as I learn them- that way, they are more likely to stick, both in my mind, and in my vernacular. 

When I was younger, I used to be teased and even bullied for having a “large” vocabulary, which I found laughable, because I knew that there were so many words that I  didn’t know. I just found other people’s vocabulary (my peers- high schoolers) deplorable and... hmmm... what’s a nice way to put it? Boring, uninspired, flat. Limited. 

Some of these bullies (I guess they felt threatened?) asked me if I went home and just read the dictionary. I always answerd No, or ignored them, but the truth is, I couldn’t even look up one word in the dictionary, because I would get distracted and end up reading a ton of words and definitions. Now, I’m grateful for the “look up” method of the internet because it lets me get right to the word I’m looking for, but I also miss the meandering paths that I sometimes took when I opened the actual book. I enjoy the feeling of reaching for a word, a  specific word, which means exactly what I need it to mean, and finding it. I get frustrated when I forget a word, or can’t quite get to it. And then when it comes back- what satisfaction! What absolute relief!