#shadowkeep fanfic

[Oct.11] Guardian refuses to sleep and eat. Body temperature is approx. 104.3 degrees Fahrenheit. Guardian coughs up 3.2 milliliters of blood. Appears to contain black specks. Medical checkup issued for tomorrow morning. Ikora urges Ghost to stay away from his Guardian for his own safety. Guardian briefly blacks out 4 times. Punches a doctor in the jaw as he tries to take a blood sample. Appears to be afraid of physical touch. Ikora notes this is not new but it seems amplified.

[Oct.12] Guardian sleeps briefly for 25-45 minutes at a time. Whereabouts of the Guardian’s Ghost are unknown, has not been seen in the Tower since yesterday. Attempts to contact and/or track Ghost are unsuccessful. Guardian allows Ikora to touch her shoulder, though she flinches. Guardian’s hormone levels begin to lower and return to normal, though still elevated. Allows doctor to take blood sample. Medical results yield heavy Taken and/or Hive corruption. Petra Venj, Acting Regent, notes this was an issue while Guardian was in active patrol around the Dreaming City. Eris Morn, Vanguard Agent on the Moon, notes that the Pyramid might also have an influence. Guardian is still hesitant of sleep and appears constantly alert and on edge. Ikora continues to stay with the Guardian. Guardian cries for 18 minutes during the night, supposedly after a nightmare.

[Oct.13] Guardian appears to be resting. Slept a total of 5 hours. Whereabouts of the Ghost continue to be unknown. Guardian has not spoken but it no longer crying. Guardian refuses to eat, claims feeling sick. Body temperature is approx. 102.1 degrees Fahrenheit. Guardian still appears to be suffering from shock to an extent. Guardian asks for a pin and thread and begins to try and patch up her cloak.

[Oct.14] Guardian slept a total of 14 hours throughout the day. Claimed to have a reoccurring nightmare of former Hunter Vanguard Cayde-6 and former Awoken Prince Uldren Sov. Whereabouts of the Ghost continue to be unknown. Guardian finishes patching her cloak, appears pleased. Asks where her Ghost is, asks another 3 times throughout the day. Talks privately with Ikora for 53 minutes. Guardian still refuses to eat, however. Body temperature has lowered to 100.8 degrees Fahrenheit.

[Oct.15] Guardian got 9 hours of sleep. Guardian appears to be returning to normal mental state. Guardian appears increasingly worried for Ghost. Body temperature has returned to normal, approx. 98.6 degrees Fahrenheit. Guardian thanks Ikora and asks where her ship is being held. NOTE: Watch for Guardian attempting to leave room, order by Ikora Rey.

[Oct.16] Guardian has escaped. Room was found empty. Bed appears slept in, all possessions were gone. Ship was noted leaving the Tower Hangar at 6:32am. Trajectory suggests the ship and the Guardian are heading to Mercury.

ACCESS: RESTRICTED

FORM: COMMUNICATION

TYPE: WRITTEN

SENDER: KIR, ZELUN, AWOKEN HUNTER

SENT TO: REY, IKORA, WARLOCK VANGUARD

SUBJ: Please Don’t Kill Me 

Hey Ikora, I know you’re reading this right now. How do I know? I tagged it on the end of that report. Yeah, that report. I know you’re concerned about me, but avoid stalking me, okay? Do you mind? At least acknowledge my intelligence. Tell your doctors to close their tabs every once in a while.

On a real note, you probably wanna know where I am before you sent out a whole team. I’m looking for Pirul. I know he left, and I know I upset him.

I just… I feel like I messed up. After what happened in that Pyramid… I wasn’t in the right frame of mind. I don’t know what happened to me. And I took that all out on Pirul. Hell, he doesn’t even know what happened. I was mean. I was a jerk. And I need a chance to make something right.

Thank you, Ikora. For everything you did. I thought after what happened on Mars with Rasputin I’d be able to rest. Finally take a break from slaying gods.

It never is that easy, is it?

I can still relive all those battles. The Black Heart. Crota. Skolas. Oryx. Ghaul to Panoptes to Xol to… to Uldren. I think there’s still a small part of me that just wants to be a Reefborn Awoken again. That part of me that I found during the hunt for Skolas. A small part of me that killed my Prince that day.

But… there’s been some good, I guess. I’ve gotten to see Petra for the first time in a long time. You got to see Osiris. Ana is back, Eris is back. It’s hard to see the silver lining, but at least it’s there.

I’ve always been the one running away from things. Pirul has always been the one to find me. Now I have to rescue him. I’m checking all the inner planets of the solar system, the Cosmodrome (if I can get in; nag Zavala for me please), Nessus, Titan, Io, and the whole of the Reef, including the Tangled Shore and the Dreaming City. 

Anyway, I’ll try to be in touch. And don’t worry, I have snacks. And my cloak. Please don’t kill me for leaving.

Sincerely,

Your Almost-Warlock Bastard Child

[P.S.: Pricked myself with that needle a few times sewing my cloak back up. Doesn’t Zavala know how to knit? I’ll need him to teach me a few pointers. But really, don’t worry about me. I’ll be fine. If I get in trouble I’ll call you. Or Petra. You two know how to bail me out of stuff.]

ACCESS: RESTRICTED

FORM: COMMUNICATION

TYPE: WRITTEN

SENDER: REY, IKORA, WARLOCK VANGUARD

SENT TO: KIR, ZELUN, AWOKEN HUNTER

SUBJ: Be Safe

I should’ve figured. I wish I could tell you how much I panicked when I heard they couldn’t find you this morning.

I know I can’t stop you. I’ve never been able to. You may have the knowledge of a Warlock but you’ve always had the nature of a Hunter. Cayde would be proud.

All I can say is good luck in finding Pirul. I expect semi-regular check ups via various agents. And if you happen to see Asher, give him my regards. And do tell him you’re looking for your Ghost. He’ll help, I know he will.

Remember your strength, Zelun. I know you’ll persevere. Your past is not your weakness. It is your greatest strength.

Regards,

Your Warlock Mother