i have to vent a little.
i'm actually scared that i'll be more depressed and more anxious before final exams end
i hope i don't go out of my way and do stupid shit that i'd regret
not scoring bad on the tests but like... scratching myself with a pencil over and over and over again until i realize it's peeling a layer of my skin off (that's a reoccurring issue of mine ever since 2022, which is when i had medicine which caused side effects of depression)
there's like three scars from scratching it too much to where it bled during my math class in 2024 right where my wristwatch covers, and those were unintentional too
and the worst part for me is that it's not like i want to hurt myself when i'm anxious and depressed, but i can't control it either
i'm just scared or maybe i just need more sleep
i don't know anymore really
i'm going to sleep now...
good night, world.
and if you read it through,
...thank you for listening.
