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There I was, standing in the photo op line with the inspiration of my life just one room away ...

My heart started pounding, my hands started sweating, the thoughts started rushing: “how did I get here?? I am not worthy enough for his presence?? does my hair look okay?? god, I can’t even believe I thought I could do this. I think I might throw up or pass out or both. I’ve been waiting for this for so long...I fought for this moment I better not screw it up.”

All this going on internally while I managed to keep a calm and collected exterior.

As I entered the photo op room and kept trying to calm down I dared to look up to see the gorgeous, compassionate, giant, heroic man we have all been lucky and blessed to know: the one and only Jared Padalecki.

And instantly, I could breathe comfortably once again.

Just being in his presence was enough to make me feel like this was the one place where I finally belonged. Anybody could practically feel the joy radiating off of him from miles away. In this room I felt good. I felt safe. I felt understood. But most importantly, I felt truly happy.

My nerves turned into butterflies. My pained expression from trying to keep calm turned into the biggest smile I had smiled in months. My anxiety turned into the greatest excitement I had ever felt in my entire life.

It was in that moment where I truly felt the “pinch me I swear to god I am dreaming” feeling you get when you can’t believe what’s happening.

But this was real.

As I got closer and closer to Jared I memorized whatever I could so that I could remember that moment for the rest of my life. I made sure to remember that he was wearing jeans with the “Love” campaign sweatshirt. I noted that he had a little bit of a beard growing in. I remembered him wearing a nice watch on his left wrist as well as his wedding ring. I observed how he towered over every fan that went before me (cue the ‘damn, he really is tall’ realization). I tried my best to fill my mind with these details and more so I could have a thorough memory to cherish forever.

It was finally my turn to meet him. He turned to me and, well, me being me kind of panicked and blanked and spit out the first thing that I could think of:

“Oh my god you’re beautiful,” I said.

I will forever mentally slap myself for that one.

He responded, “No, you’re beautiful!” then flashed his adorable smile to me. (I died)

I then smiled back at him and, again, me being me just kind of froze not knowing what to do so Jared opened his long arms and said, “Well what are you waiting for get in here!”

I beamed at him and wrapped my arms around him and took a quick second to cherish the fact that I was getting a bone-crushing hug from Jared Padalecki. I was overwhelmed with joy and gratitude and will always remember what it felt like to be in Jared Padalecki’s arms, looking at a camera, and seeing the line of people in my peripheral vision going through the same thoughts and feelings I had been going through just seconds before.

Unfortunately my moment ended just as quickly as it had started. With my brain being mush and a whole line of people behind me, I didn’t want to even try to make a conversation (not that you’re supposed to but some people do). I didn’t try to tell him my sob story, I didn’t try to tell him how much he means to me, hell, I didn’t even try to tell him my name.

But we pulled back from the embrace and as I started to walk away I looked at him and said one simple sentence:

 “I love you so much; thank you for everything.”

And that was enough.

He took my hand and said, “No, thank you darling. (then he winked at me and i died) I love you too.”

And I walked out of that room with the biggest and stupidest grin I think I could possibly ever muster. I was beyond satisfied with how it went. I was so so happy. I didn’t cry and it came out super cute. And I have an idea for my photo at this year’s convention in San Francisco (*ahem ahem* pls read my post about sfcon 2017 I WANNA MAKE FRIENDS WHO ARE GOING AHH).

So there’s the story of when I met Jared Padalecki. I wanted to write this and post it in honor of his birthday, though in pretty much all of the world except Hawaii his birthday is over... Well then this is me saying happy belated birthday to Jared.

Happy 31st Birthday Osric Chau!

It’s been quite a year for you!  I’m so proud of and happy for you for the successes in your film endeavors. 

With your humor, compassion, friendliness, bright spirit, wisdom, and sharing your own life experiences, you continue to help, inspire, encourage, motivate, and bring hope to so many people. I’m so grateful for the unique and beautiful person you are.  Thank you for bringing joy into this world. I look forward to the continued journey ahead and learning more from you. 😊

Wishing you another year of adventure, success, and happiness!  Love and hugs. ♥

Jensen looking at me like this while we hold hands... How did I ever survive this moment?

That smile, with his tongue poking out a little between his teeth, and those eye crinkles! The gentle way he kept looking at me and holding my hand even while he tugged me along to the right place at the centre of the screen, because I pretty much froze where I was the moment he took my hand. That he didn’t let go of me during that still makes my heart beat faster and makes me smile every time I think about it.

I love to relive this moment <3

jensen ackles | SanFrancisco Con 2016

#365DaysOfJ2

122/365 Classic J2 at #SPNSF 2016