#seventeeen

Your birthdays. Your exams at school. When he had his first crush. And first heartbreak. And you had yours. When he gave his first kiss and came all giggly to tell you about how it felt. When he told you he would audition to become a trainee and you accompanied him to the small company. When you told him you'd pursue a career in arts much to your parents dismay and he supported you all the way through.

There wasn't a moment when you haven't been by each other side.

Even after he debuted and he had a terrible schedule and concerts and tours, he'd still make time for you, even if meant take you to the mess that was the dorm for you to unwind about life.

Years and years of friendship was hard to break. Some have tried though. There were girls he was talking to that the moment they expressed their dislike on you or your friendship he would cut ties immediately. "No girl is worth to end a friendship for".

After you finished college and got a home office job, you started to spend more and more time at his house and, because of that, spend more time with his friends than before. Especially Woozi.

The boys would often let you crash at their apartment to work since you'd frequently feel alone at your own apartment, the silence too loud to let you work. Each one of you would be doing your own stuff, you working on your computer, Hoshi mindlessly scrolling through his phone and Jihoon locked at his studio working on a new song or something.

Occasionally, you and Jihoon would work together, he'd allow you to enter his sanctuary of a studio and work from there, just to make him company. The boy would ask you opinions on lyrics and beats and, even though you didn't understand much of music production, you'd still gave him your opinion and perception as an outsider, which he always appreciated, thanking you with a shy smile.

More you'd spend time with him, more you realized you started to develop feelings for the boy. But you kept quiet because maybe it was just because it had been a while you've met new people, and he treated you so well and you felt seen every time you two would talk. Maybe it was because he always let you have the last piece of pizza on movie nights or tucked you to not feel cold after you fell asleep on their couch. Maybe you just were love deprived.

It was another one of those days, you and your best friend in the living room and Jihoon stuck in his studio until he left for a meeting or something at the company.

The door clicked close and Soonyoung lifted himself from the sofa and sat in front of you on the table, face propped in his hands while he stared at you. "What?" you asked without even take the eyes out of your screen.

"When are you planning to tell me?"

"Tell you what exactly?" you half-closed the lid of your laptop to look at him, he held a mischievous grin.

"That you like Woozi" you widened your eyes but soon went back to normal hoping he had seen nothing. He did see. "Oh c'mon, yn" he rolled his eyes and leaned closer to you. "It's not like you're the most discreet person I know"' you sighed and turned to the side to uselessly hide your burning cheeks. "So… you do like him?"

"I-I don't know for sure" you turned to finally look at him again. "I think it might be a stupid little crush because it's been a while, you know?" he nodded. "It's nothing, don't think too much into it" he nodded even though he wasn't convinced, but he let it slide.

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The days that followed Hoshi watched you two closely and tried his best to play matchmaker.

Incredibly so, it worked. You and Woozi found yourselves getting closer than before, talking more than usual, even hanging out without the presence of the third friend.

You'd enter the apartment, say hi to your friend and go straight to Jihoon's studio to work by his side. Sometimes there would be barely any work done, you two would spend the entire time talking, laughing and sharing stories about each other and Hoshi.

One particular day, you ended up sleeping at the sofa the boy kept in his studio, curled up in his hoodie and softly snoring. You woke up with him crouched by your side, fingers gently caressing your cheeks with a soft smile that you had never seen him give you before. He gently lowered his face until his lips touched yours. Gentle. Caring.

You felt your cheeks heat at the contact but kissed him back, closing your eyes and lifting yourself from the sofa. Jihoon held your face between his hands as he stared into your eyes as if he searched for any sign of resistance or that you didn't want him. When he found none, he kissed you again, this time it wasn't a simple peck. He moved his lips and angled his head so he could have more access and control over you. You felt like floating, eyes fluttering while shut at the touch of his lips on yours, of his hands on you.

The two of you kept kissing slowly and gently like that for a while, until your lungs gave up and begged for you two to break the kiss. A small and almost inaudible whine leaving your lips.

The boy kept kissing you though, going down to your jaw and neck, making your mouth open looking for air and eyes shut again, enjoying the moment. His left hand held your waist tightly, while his right hand was holding your neck possessively, grabbing the hairs on the nape and making you almost whine at the sting. He left a trail of butterfly kisses down to your neck, pulling the neckline of his hoodie down so he could have access to your shoulder. You whined the moment he bit into the juncture between your neck and shoulder, back arching into him.

That was all he needed to grab you fully by your waist and pull you straddling his lap. The position making your whole body warm up in both shame and need. Before you could even think further he pulled you back to kiss him, this time with more hunger, more need. You felt like he was trying to eat your lips. And still you wouldn't complain. He licked your lips and you opened them, having your mouth instantly being invaded by his warm tongue, that found yours and invited it to a dance.

The kiss got heated quickly. Your bodies got heated quickly. And the air-con in the room was doing nothing to soothe the burning sensation all over your bodies.

Woozi started to play with the hem of his hoodie you were wearing before pulling it up and taking it off of you, your cute little shirt hugging all your curves that the big thick piece was hiding. He started to kiss your neck again and you threw your head back, giving him more access to your throat.

You two were so entranced on each other that he didn't realize he was moaning against your skin and that you were grinding against his clothed length slowly.

It was just when you felt his hands slipping under your shirt and touching your skin, and that you felt his hard on starting to poke between your legs that you finally came back to your senses and frozen in place, holding him away from you.

His breathing was erratic, his lips red and swollen from kissing, eyes glassy and dark. You felt bad. "Is… is everything ok? Did I do something?" He asked worried, voice low and growly, too sexy for your own good.

You denied with your head and took a deep breath. "No! No! It's just… I… aren't we going too fast?" You asked, trying to pry away from the real problem in your head.

"If you think that's fast then that's fast" he caressed your back and kissed your forehead, you melted. "We'll go by your rhythm, ok?" You nodded and gave him a half smile.

"Thank you" you whispered and gave a weak peck on his lips before lifting yourself from his lap. The bulge in his pants very visible and you suddenly felt bad for leaving him like that. "I… I gotta go" he nodded and you waved goodbye before grabbing your stuff quickly and leaving.

You didn't even say your goodbye to Soonyoung. All you wanted was to go home and take a cold shower.

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It had been more than a week since the studio happening. You didn't have the courage to show up at their apartment again. You gave excuses of having too much work and they were distracting you, that your company was doing a series of meetings for the new event they were organizing and you were working on. You were starting to run out of excuses.

Jihoon would send you messages almost everyday, even if it was just to send a good morning or a have a great day at work. You felt bad running away from him like that. But you panicked.

You needed help and there was only one person that you could trust enough to help you in that situation.

As soon as you entered the apartment, Hoshi came running to you and engulfed you in a tight hug, lifting you from the ground and spinning you. Giggles left you as you welcomed his warm hug.

"I thought you had forgotten about your best friend" he pouted looking at you, arms still at your waist.

You rolled your eyes and left his embrace, moving to sit on the couch. "Are you sure Jihoon is not home?" You asked and he shook his head.

"He went to visit his family this weekend" you nodded and he sat by your side. "Why? Are you running from him?" He chuckled but you bit your lower lip in anxiety. "Wait, really?"

"It's not exactly running" you answered and turned yourself to fully look at him. "It's just…" you sighed, looked at your own fiddling hands and looked back at Soonyoung, that was watching you with intent, head slightly cocked like a curious puppy. "Last time I was here we kissed"

Hoshi put his hands on his mouth in surprise, a smile on his face "omg really? Like, kissed kissed?" You nodded.

"And we kinda started making out a little"

"With me in the house? You nasty little freaks" he joked but stopped when he saw your serious face. "But what's wrong? Did you not like it? Is he bad? Does he have a bad breath?" You chuckled and shook your head. "Then what is it?"

You fiddled with your fingers. "You know how I was never able to have a real relationship?" You looked at him and he nodded. "Well…" his eyes widened and he grabbed you by your shoulders.

"Wait! Are you still a virgin?" You flew your hands to hide your face, embarrassment taking over your entire body. "No! No! I didn't meant like that, babe!" He pulled your hands away from your burning face. "I just thought that you never told me"

"Soonie, we are best friends, I'd tell you about my first time if had happened. Like you told me about yours" he nodded slowly. "It's just… I never got the opportunity, ya know? And when me and Jihoon started making out and he tried to take my shirt off I freaked out and ran away" he couldn't help but laugh a little at you.

"I can't believe you are almost thirty and still acting like a teenager" he smiled and ruffled your hair.

"Can you blame me tho'?" He denied with his head and you looked at your nails again, the little skin lifting up at your cuticles more interesting than anything else. "That's why I kinda need your help"

He straightened his back and stared at you like he was staring into your soul "my help? Like… like what?"

"C-can you… like… teach me?" His eyes widened "only because I don't want to look like a loser to Jihoon and I trust you with my life and… I don't know what else to do. We don't have to do anything, just… tell me… about… sex" you shied at the end.

"But what about porn and stuff like that? Have you touched yourself at least?" You nodded.

"I don't believe in porn, I think it's too fake, too in the face, you know? And yeah, I touch myself from time to time, I'm a virgin not a prude" you slightly punched his shoulder and laughed, trying to ease the tension and the mood. "You obviously can say no if you don't want to"

"It's not that" he assured you, his shoulders slumping. "I'm worried about after, will it change us? Because I don't want it to change us"

"Me neither" you assumed. "Think about as two best friends helping each other"

"What do I get from that?"

"I don't know?" You laughed and threw your head back into the couch's back. "It's crazy isn't it? Forget about it. I was just desperate. I will tell Jih-" you barely could finish the sentence when you felt your friend's lips on yours.

It was quick, almost like a test. But his plush lips felt so soft against yours.

You two looked at each other and he kissed you again. It felt weird to kiss your best friend yet it felt good too. His lips were soft, kind, gentle. The plushness of his involving yours and taking you to this alluring dance that was his kiss. He tasted like coffee, candy and something uniquely him. It was odd. In a good way.

You kept kissing gently and slowly, almost as if you two were scared to take even further. To make it real.

Soonyoung hands slowly rose to your thighs, squeezing gently the plushness of the skin and earning a huff from you directly into his lips. He used the moment to deepen the kiss, using your open mouth to explore it with his tongue. You hummed low when you felt his wet muscle entangle with yours, his taste now intoxicating you.

Your body instinctively move forward, searching for his. Your hands running through his soft locks to keep him close to you. Moving his own from your thighs, he slid to your waist, pulling your torso towards his and gently laying you both on the sofa, with you on top of him.

The kissing kept going and going until you both were left nothing but panting messes with lips red and puffy from the friction. Just like Jihoon did, as soon as your lips left each other, his were connected to your neck, leaving feather-light kisses, making you shiver in anticipation. His touch was careful, trying not to overwhelm you, even though he was using all his self control to not bend you in half and fuck you in that couch. Your sweet little noises and whines spurring him.

"How about we go to my room, hm?" you nodded through half lidded eyes and got yourself up, suddenly feeling shy about the situation. Hoshi held your hand and guided you to the room you've been countless times before. Yet this time it was completely different and you could feel the blood pumping in your ears.

The boy sat in the bed, back resting against the headboard. He gently guided you to straddle his hips and comfortably sit on top of his already growing hard on.

He put a stray piece of hair behind your ear and joined your foreheads. "I'll say what you said to me earlier: you don't have to do anything you don't wanna do, 'Kay?" You nodded and kept staring at his eyes, that always so soft, were now dark and dilated. "What do you want to do? Because I can see that you know how to kiss pretty well" you lightly punched his shoulder, making you both chuckle and ease the tension.

"I… I think I want to learn how to, you know, give… pleasure" the last word came as a whisper, your head hanging low in shame for asking this to your best friend.

He hooked a finger under your chin to make you look at him again "are you sure? I can teach you if you really want, but only if you really want, you don't have to give head to all the guys that you have sex with and they can't force you to do that" you nodded slowly, the way he talked to you about it making your stomach twitch with something unknown. "I need a verbal sign that you want me to teach you that, use your words, princess" the nickname went straight to your core and you held a gasp from leaving your lips.

"I do. I want to learn how to give a blowjob" Hoshi left a noise akin to a growl, his eyes almost rolling into his skull. Hearing you all so innocently saying those filthy words did something to him.

He caressed your hair before crashing your lips together again. This time the kiss was fiercer, stronger, needier. His finger dug into the flesh of your waist and started to rub you against his clothed erection eliciting a low moan from you into his mouth. You held yourself in his shoulder as you kept kissing and grinding, the wet patch in your panties only growing uncomfortably. And the press of his dick growing more and more against your core.

After what felt like forever but not enough, your best friend detached from your lips and made you stop the grinding. "Are you ready?" you nodded, eyes hooded with pleasure and ready to do anything he asked for. "Good, now I want you to lower yourself until you're face to face with my bulge" you did as you were told, slowly crawling downwards until you were facing his clothed member.

Before he could give any instructions, you started to rub your hand against the fabric of the sweatpants, earning a low groan from him. The sound only spur you into rub him harder, the fabric grinding against his impossibly hard dick and making him throw his head back and put one of his hands on your hair, gentle, just a weight to remind you of his presence.

You slowly started to play with the strings of the pants before opening it and starting to pull it down. He raised his hips so you could free him from his confines. And so you did. You pulled his sweats and underwear together, his member jumping the moment it left the insides of the clothes, earning a low gasp from you.

You finished taking his pants and underwear from him and went back to your position. You knew Hoshi was big, you saw when you were on the beach together or when he'd walk around the house with just sweatpants and no underwear. But seeing it in front of you, fully erect, angry red and leaking precum was totally different. He was big in every sense of the word, not only he was long, but also girthy, curving slightly upwards, the veins you would see in his arms whenever he trained or danced could be seen all over his shaft as well.

Your mind started racing. At the same time you felt your mouth water and your cunt clench into nothing, you started to panic of how it would enter you. Would it fit?

Sensing your nerves, Soonyoung pulled you up back to him and kissed you, melting you against his lips again. "You don't have to do it"

"I know. I do. It's just…" you looked down at his dick and back at him, your cheeks burning even more than your body. "It's so big" he chuckled and caressed your hair and cheek, kissing the tip of your nose.

"We'll go slow and gentle, okay? No need to worry" you nodded and bit your lower lip. "Besides, we don't have to do it all today, we don't have to do it all at all. Today, this," he motioned between you and him, "it's all about you, okay?" you nodded and smiled, closing your eyes as you enjoyed his gentle caress on your cheek, leaning into his palm.

"Thank you, Soonyoung, for doing this for me" he smiled and shook his head.

"I know you would do the same for me"

After a while of just being like that, you finally took a deep breath and lowered yourself again, this time with regained confidence. To say you weren't salivating for his dick was a lie, because you were. You wanted to know how it tasted, how it felt inside your mouth.

Gently you grabbed the member into your hand, giving a gentle squeeze to the base and eliciting a moan from Hoshi.

"Fuck" he gasped before regaining his composure back. He was supposed to guide you. "Use your hand to masturbate it, up and down. Do you wan- Oh god!" He moaned when you spit into his shaft so you could use as a lubricant just like you saw some girls in porn do it. And from his reaction, he enjoyed. "That's right, baby, keep going like that. You can play with-oh! With the tip. Rub your thumb into the tip" you did as he said and he threw his head back, his hand fisting the sheet underneath him.

With now regained confidence, you started to move your hand up and down, stopping from time to time to rub his tip with the pad of your thumb. He was a moaning mess above you, his eyes never wanted to leave your form and how right you seem to move.

Without waiting for his instruction, you kissed his tip and he jerked his hips up in surprise. "Shit. Fuck. Yn, I'm sorry. I was caught by surprise" you giggled at his reaction, his face completely flustered and red. He looked delightful.

Without taking your eyes from him, you wrapped your lips gently around his head. The salty taste invading your taste buds, but it wasn't unpleasant. You sucked his head like a lollipop, putting pressure into your sucking motions before leaving it with a pop. Seeing Hoshi so fucked out for nothing spurred something dark inside of you. You wanted to please him, to make him moan and groan for you. You wanted to make him lose his composure and just become putty into your hands and mouth. You knew that wouldn't be possible in the first time. But a girl could dream.

Putting your tongue out, you licked the underside of his cock, his vein rubbing your muscle as you went from base to the tip before putting him back inside your mouth.

"Watch your teeth, baby" he finally managed to speak, placing a hand on your head, a gentle reminder he still was the one in control. "Go slow, little by little, you don't have to fit everything in the first try, use your hands where your mouth can't reach" you nodded and hummed and the vibration went straight to his length, earning another low groan from him and a few curses to leave his lips.

You slowly started to bob your head, careful not to rub your teeth into his sensible skin. Your tongue was flat under his dick feeling the delicious weight of him on your mouth. It was a new feeling, a little strange, but empowering somehow.

You started slow, trying your best to breath through your nose and to take as much as could of him into your mouth, hollowing your cheeks every time you pulled back up. But soon you were so caught up in the feeling and the noises he was making that you started to move faster, bobbing your head up and down with a practice that you don't know where it came from but you welcomed nonetheless. Your hands were wrapped in the base of his cock and applied pressure while accompanying the movements of your head where you couldn't reach.

The tip of his member started to hit the back of your throat and you felt your gag reflex come a little, making you cough and drool all over his dick and down your chin. Hoshi growled like an actual animal at the sight of you, all wet from your own spit mixed with his precum, eyes glassy and teary from the action. You looked heavenly.

You dived right back into sucking him with renew force and need. You were determined to make him cum in your mouth. And he wasn't so far from it. You looked so good on all fours, ass perked up as you sucked him like you needed it to breath. You started go deeper, letting his tip hit your throat repeatedly, your bach arching every time as you gagged around his girth.

"Fuck, baby, I'm close" he tried to take you away from him but you kept going. "Oh my god, yn! Fuck! I… I will" before he could even finish his sentence you gave a particularly strong squeeze on his base and a lick on his tip and he came down your throat. The salty sour white liquid landing on your tongue. He tried to tell you that you could spit it but when he saw you had swallowed it all, making him almost get hard all over again.

You lifted yourself from him, cleaning your mouth and chin with the back of your hand and looking at him expectantly. "Did I do well?" you asked, genuinely curious. You heard that it didn't take much for men to orgasm, so you could still had done a terrible job.

"Are you kidding right now?" he laugh humorously and threw his head back before coming back to caress your face and wipe some drool from your chin. "You did amazing, I almost didn't believe that this was your first time doing this" you shied, cheeks warming. "Now is my turn, baby" he smirked and lifted from his position on the headboard and took his shirt off, getting completely naked.

He pulled your face close to his again and kissed you, deep, hungry. You wondered if he could taste himself on your tongue and the idea aroused you even more. Hoshi slowly maneuvered you so you were the one laying on the bed, chest rising and falling with your uneven breath from both the kiss and anticipation. Slowly, he started to take off your own shirt, feeling your soft skin under his calloused fingers, goosebumps rising in his trail.

"You chose this one just for me, huh?" he teased as he saw you in a tiger print bra. You bought it as a joke a while ago but thought it was the perfect one for the occasion. He softly grabbed your mounds, squeezing them under his palms while he kissed your neck. His lips leaving light love bites all over the place. "As much as I loved your choice, I rather see you without it. Can I?" he asked for permission before taking your bra off as soon as you agreed. "God, you're so beautiful" he whispered to himself but you still could hear it, making your heart race even more in your ribcage.

Soonyoung lowered his kisses to your chest, slowly approaching your boobs before wrapping one of your nipples into his mouth and earning a low whine from you. The sensation was completely new. Overwhelming. Your mouth opened as nothing came out at the feeling of his hot breath on your nipple, licking, sucking, bitting. It was oh so good. You could get used to it. Your other boob was receiving a different treatment, being squeezed and pulled and pinched with fingers.

Your whines started to get louder and your legs to writhe under him searching from something. Anything. He noticed your impatience and smiled against your boob before leaving it with a pop. He started lowering himself, peppering kisses down your tummy until he reached the waistband of your pants. He looked at you searching for your confirmation and he started to open it as soon as you nodded.

Hoshi slowly pulled your pants and panties together, the cold air hitting your wet warm pussy making you hiss. You suddenly felt very aware of what was happening. You and your best friend were fully naked in front of each other. You had just sucked his dick. And he was about to do god knows what to you.

He noticed your reaction and went back to hovering over you, his eyes meeting yours with that gentleness he was holding the entire time. "Are you okay?" The boy asked, his fingers softly caressing your cheek and making you look at him. "Do you want me to stop?"

"I…" you stuttered, voice weak. "I just became too self aware of our situation" you chuckled and he smiled nodding. Hoshi planted a kiss to your forehead then on the tip of your nose, your eyes fluttered shut.

"We can stop if you want. It's up to you" you nodded at him. "You wanna stop?"

"No, I trust you, Soonie" he smiled at you and nodded, his heart squeezing on his chest at the way you looked at him with uttermost trust and something he couldn't name.

"Tell me to stop if I do something you don't like, ok?" You nodded.

The boy kissed you again, all your worries vanishing into his tongue as it tangled with yours, tasting his reverence to you.

He started to lower himself again until he was in front of your mound. He slowly opened your legs so he could be in between them. You sucked a sharp breath when you felt the air hit you and the sensation of being too exposed. But soon the thoughts started to leave when his plush lips started to trail light kisses inside your thighs. His teeth gently grazing the skin before leaving love bites on his way up to where you felt like you needed him the most.

The moment his warm tongue touched your vulva you thrust your hips up, the sensation foreigner yet delightful. His tongue was flat against your labia making up and down movements and gathering some slick. He hummed against your core and the vibration send shiver straight to your spine.

Gently, he used the tip of his tongue to open your labia so he could taste you better, licking from your entrance to your clit. You moaned when you felt him touch your clit, back arching. It was completely different from touching yourself. He noticed how you were responding to his ministrations and decided to give extra attention to your clit, licking it in circle motions before sucking the nub.

In a natural reaction, you flew one of your hands to his head and grabbed a fist out of his hair and brought him closer to your core. He smiled at it. Cute.

He kept the attack on your button before detaching himself - much to your dismay - so he could speak to you. "I'm going to put a finger inside, ok?" You nodded eagerly, mind clouded with pleasure already. You'd take anything he'd give to you. "It can sting a little but we need to stretch you little by little. Tell me if it hurts, ok?" You nodded again, mouth agape and eyes cloudy.

Hoshi went back to give attention to your clit. His mouth wrapping around it and sucking so he could arouse you even more. You felt the tip of his finger rub at your folds to collect your wetness before nudge at your entrance.

His middle finger slid slowly inside of you, easier than you expected. The sensation was weird but in a good overwhelming way. Without taking his eyes out of you, and paying attention to every single one of your reactions, Hoshi started to move his finger in and out of you. A loud moan left your lips and you quickly covered your mouth ashamed of how high it came out.

The boy smiled against your core and kept his assault, fucking you with his single digit while his mouth worked on your clit.

Your mind was clouded and hazy, and all you could think of was the pleasure that your best friend was providing you. Whines, moans and strings of his name left your lungs while he held you in place on the bed. You could feel your legs shaking, trembling, with pleasure.

"Do you think you can handle a second finger, Princess?" you barely registered what he said, you just nodded. "Are you sure? It may hurt a little" he asked while still pumping in and out of you at a torturous pace.

"Soonie~" you moaned, "please" you're not sure of what you were asking for but it was all you could muster in your state.

"Fuck yn, you look so cute begging" he bit his lower lip while savoring the image beneath him. He would never imagine that he would be the one to make you look like that. That you looked like that. But he wasn't complaining. Far from that.

He took his finger out of your pussy before joining with his index finger and slowly started to ease into your entrance. You whined loudly and tried to close your legs around his face and hands but he kept you open for him. Soonyoung went back to stimulating your clit with his mouth so you would relax your muscles.

"Sh… it's ok, I know I know" he cooed when he heard your little pained whines. "Want me to stop?" You shook your head no. It hurt, yes, but at the same time it was a pleasurable pain. And you trusted Soonyoung, you knew he wouldn't hurt you.

He started to draw figure eights with the tip of the thumb of his other hand while he slowly eased his digits inside your tight walls. Your eyes were closed and head thrown back into the pillows, back arched up.

A loud guttural almost pornographic moan left you when he pushed his fingers knuckles deep inside of you. "That's it. You did great, such a good girl" the praise made your walls squeeze his fingers and he smirk. "Oh someone likes being praised, doesn't she?" you didn't answer, you couldn't trust your voice at the moment.

The boy started moving his fingers slowly, testing the waters, the thrusts shallow and slow. The digits curling inside of you at every drag and making you see stars. If just his fingers felt like this, how would his penis feel? The thought made you squeeze his fingers in again.

He started to take more of them out before putting back in, picking pace when he noticed how your moans changed and your body started to search for his fingers. Soon enough he was fingering you fast, his digits greedily being sucked in by your count just to be taken out.

His mouth went back to your clit and that's when you felt it. A squeeze in the pit of your belly, something feeling like it was pressing against you and trying to rip. Your moans became more desperate and by the way your walls were trying to hold Hoshi's fingers in he knew you were close.

"You wanna cum, baby? Are you close?" you just nodded, that's all you could do for the past minutes he's been between your legs. "Go on, let it go, you deserve it, you did so well for me" he praised before diving back to your nub to give a final suck that led you to your orgasm.

You're pretty sure you screamed. Legs trembling against his ears and gummy walls squeezing impossibly tight his fingers while he slurped away every drop of your orgasm. He kept fucking you even after you rode down, overstimulation starting to seep into your body.

"Ho-hoshi" you whined before pushing him away from you.

He was a sight to behold: eyes hooded and glassy from lust, nose, mouth and chin completely drenched in your juices while he held the most satisfied grin on his face.

"Sorry baby, you just tasted so good" you hid your face behind shaking hands.

"Don't say things like that" you whispered and he chuckled.

He moved his body up back to hover you and took your palms away from your face. "Don't hide from me now, we're far from that at this point" he was right but it didn't change the fact that you still felt shy about it all.

He leaned down to kiss your lips again and you could taste your lingering taste on his tongue. Sweet and sour. As you kept kissing, and your heart rate started to go back to normal, you felt his member poke your belly. You broke the kiss to look down at his already hard again cock.

Noticing where your eyes were he tilted your chin to look back at him "don't worry about it, I'll take care of that"

"Can… can we?" You cut yourself, too shy to actually say it and he thought it was absolute endearing.

"We don't have to do anything, we already went pretty far today" he assured, kissing your forehead with a smile.

"I know but" you looked at his hard member before looking back at him again, eyes dark and glossy, pleading, "but I want to. I asked you to help me with sex and we still haven't had sex" he chuckled at your pouty lips. You were danger. He never imagined seeing this side of you. But he wasn't the one complaining.

"Sex it's not just penetration" he mused, his fingers gently playing with your sweaty hair and putting it behind your ear. "Sex it's about intimacy, about two, sometimes more, people exploring their sexuality and what makes them feel good. It's the before, during and after" you nodded, eyes focused on him. "Besides, how would people without dicks have sex if sex was just penetration?" You two chuckled and he pecked your smiling lips.

"But still, I want to, I want the full experience" you played with the hairs at the nape of his neck where your hands were wrapped. "I trust you, Soonie, I want you to fuck me" the boy groaned at your words, he was discovering a new side of you that he wasn't sure if he could forget so easily. But that was a problem for later.

Hoshi momentarily left his place on top of you to grab a little metallic package on the bedside table. He ripped it open and expertly rolled the condom down his shaft and pumped it a few times before going back to his place on top of you.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked one last time, cock painfully throbbing between both of your legs.

"Yes, I'm sure" you lifted your torso so you could meet his lips once again.

He deepened the kiss and you felt his member rubbing up and down your core, making you whine against his mouth and thrust your hips searching for more friction.

"I'll go slow and gentle, ok? Tell me if it hurts and need me to stop" you nodded and bit your lower lips waiting for the sting to come.

Soonyoung lined his tip with your entrance and very slowly started to push inside. You opened your mouth and grabbed his arms, nails digging into his soft skin. The feeling was completely different from his fingers. He moved one of his hands between your folds to rub your clit to help subdue the pain and turn into pleasure as he eased his tip in.

It was painful, overwhelming and pleasuring all at once. Your head and body were a mess of feelings and sensations. The feeling of your best friend rubbing your clit deliciously in contrast with the overwhelming sensation of being ripped open by his cock was fogging your brain and making your eyes roll back.

"Hey! Hey! It's alright, princess" he shushed you seeing how you were reacting to it all. He peppered kisses all over your face while whispering comforting words for you. "I'm just the tip in. Do you want me to stop? Does it hurt?" You shook your head. "I know it must be hard but I need your words now, baby, how are you feeling?"

You whined and took a deep breath. "D-don't stop…" you managed to say in almost a whispered whine. "Feels weird but good" Hoshi nodded and caressed your face before kissing your lips again, earning a low moan from you.

"I'll try to go again, ok?" You nodded and finally managed to look at him and he had to hold himself to not bury it all in one go, your eyes completely gone, dark, glassy and teary, half lided with pleasure as you looked at him with the upmost trust and borderline reverence. "Fuck, you look so hot right now, yn" he confessed and you managed to chuckle. "Remember to tell me to stop if anything, ok?" You nodded again.

Soonyoung took a deep breath before he started to slowly push more of himself inside of you, meeting a little resistance from your tight walls. He went back to stimulating you clit to help ease the pain.

You bit your lip so hard that you could feel the tangy taste of your blood. Your nails digging hard into the hard muscles of his arms. Toes curling and legs' muscles tensing beside his own legs as you allowed him to enter you fully.

Soonyoung let an almost animalist growl out of his mouth the moment he bottomed out inside of you. He was doing his best to not nut on the spot from how tight your walls were hugging him, pulsating around his painfully hard dick.

You let your body fall down the mattress and relax a little, you didn't even realize how hard you were holding yourself onto him until you let yourself go. You felt the beat of your heart match with the throbbing of your core around his shaft and you chuckled to yourself.

The sensation of having something, him, inside of you felt weirdly good. It was something that you could see yourself get used to with time and practice. You could feel the warmth and pulsing of his member inside of you and that made your chest fill with pride, he was like that because of you.

Hoshi allowed you to get used to the feeling of being completely full, playing with your clit slowly and monitoring your facial expressions and reactions. He felt your pelvis started to move against him after a while, searching for more. Aching for more.

"Hoshi~" you moaned softly, voice whinny and almost desperate.

"What is it, sweetie? You want me to move?" You nodded eagerly, eyes wide and teary looking at him, lips pouty as if he was torturing you. He chuckled at your antics and pecked your pout. "I'll move, ok? Tell me if anything hurts" you nodded eagerly.

He slowly slid a little from you before coming back in equally slow. You gaped your mouth in a silent gasp at the sensation and fisted the sheets underneath you. The boy made the same movements a few more times, slow and shallow, to make you get used to the feeling. When you started to make pleased noises and your brows furrow, he tested to take more out, leaving just the tip in, before slowly putting it all back in.

You moaned at the feeling, back arching towards his chest and eyes basically rolling out of your skull. A faint of a curse leaving your lips. Your best friend smiled before starting repeating the movement over and over again. The tip of his cock hitting a spot that you only ever heard of.

You were a moaning mess underneath him. Your hands, once fisted against the sheets, were now running his back, leaving red marks wherever they passed by. Hoshi was sure you were drawing blood out of him but he couldn't care less, not when you were leaving the cutest of moans against his ear.

"Soonie~ more! Please!" You begged for something, anything. His cute little nickname sounding like a fuel to him as he started to fuck you harder.

You wrapped your legs around his waist and almost wrapped yourself around him as he fucked into you in a pace that made you see starts printed into your eyelids. All you could do was moan and scream his name against him as he moaned with you. He was sure he'd get noise complaints but fuck it! It was worth it.

"Ho- I" you tried to say something but the coil in your stomach was starting to tighten at a rapid pace once again.

"I can feel that you're close, baby" he moaned at your ear, his hot breath sending shivers down your spine. "Give one more, can ya? One more before I cum too" you nodded against his shoulder.

The boy kept his movements, determined to make you come before him. With a little difficulty due to how glued your bodies were, he managed to snake his hand between you two and add stimulus to your clit too, earning a loud moan from you.

A few more thrusts and circles from his fingers, you came undone around him, even stronger than the first time, your body convulsing against him as your toes curled. You let your body fall against the mattress again as he kept his movements going.

"Just a little-fuck! More" he moaned on top of you and you nodded.

He felt your oversensitive walls flutter around him and a few thrusts more he came undone inside the condom.

Soonyoung wasn't sure when was the last time he came like that, so hard, so much, but he was certain that was the most intense orgasm he had in a while, perhaps in his life.

He slowly caught his breath again, watching you as you watched him with those intense eyes of yours. He smiled fondly at you, putting away from your face stray pieces of soaked hair and kissed your forehead.

The man slowly removed himself from you, that hissed both from sensitivity and emptiness. With still wobbly legs, he discarded the used condom in his en suite bathroom and grabbed a wet cloth to clean you.

He slowly and gently rubbed the soft fabric between your legs, cleaning the excess wetness remaining there. Your body welcomed the cold feeling against the burning skin there. He discarded the cloth somewhere in the bathroom before coming back.

Your chest was still heaving and you looked absolutely divine glistening with post sex sweat under his warm light. "Do you want to take a bath? Take the sweat out of your body and relax your muscles?" Hoshi asked gently, his naked body standing next to the bed as you both looked at each other, now at a new light.

You nodded with a smile, which he reciprocated before going to the bathroom to run the bath. You faced his ceiling as your heart hammered inside your ribs, both from all the intense action and from this strange feeling in your gut that you didn't dare name it.

The realization of what you two just did hit you like a truck. You just had sex. You and your best friend of a lifetime. He helped you lose your virginity. Because you asked to. Did you regret? No, not at all. You loved every single second of it and you couldn't think of someone better than Soonyoung to do that. But what would it be now? You promised not to let it change anything but could you?

Before you went spiraling further into your own head, the man came back from the bathroom and helped you get on your feet. You insisted you could stand on your own but you underestimated how weak your legs would feel, making you two laugh at you almost falling. "It's all your fault" you mockingly fought with him, hitting his shoulder next to you. "Like you didn't enjoy" he replied smugly. Yeah, you did enjoy.

He helped you to move to the bathroom and enter the bathtub, the warmth of the water and the bubbles of the bath bombs and salts soothing your aching body. You let a satisfied sigh as soon as your body was fully submerged under the sea of bubbles. Hoshi entering behind you and pulling you to lay on his chest.

The scene felt domestic, like it was something you two were already used to doing together. The limbs tangled together as your breathings matched their pace, heartbeats syncing without noticing. It was all so natural for you. Something you could get used to.

"How are you feeling?" Soonyoung was the first to break the silence, his voice a little hoarse from all the moans and talking you through it.

One of his hands was rubbing your arm up until it reached your shoulder and then he would go down again. The other held your torso closer to him, hand splayed on your belly. Your back was flush against his chest, head thrown back into his shoulder, eyes closed and enjoying his proximity. One of your hands was caressing his thigh that was tangled to yours and the other held the one that was on your stomach.

You hummed at him with a smile. "I'm feeling light and heavy all at once" you chuckled and he nodded, leaving a kiss at your temple. "It's a weird sensation down there but not bad I guess"

"You'll eventually get used to it, the more you have sex, more your body get used to the sensations. Over time you'll even learn more things that you may like or not" he explained with care, his voice soothing against your ear. A known calmness and grounding you got used to.

"Like what?" You asked genuinely curious, now both hands playing with the one in your stomach.

"Like if you like fast, slow, shallow, deep, soft or rough, vanilla or do you have any kinks" you nodded thinking about the possibilities to explore and what he might like. "I know Jihoon likes taking his time with his partners and he is more of a traditional guy with a hint of roughness" he left a humorous laugh and you chuckled.

Jihoon, the reason all of this happened. For some odd reason you were feeling guilty, like you betrayed the boy. It's not like you had anything. But he liked you. And so did you. Right?

"And what do you like?" You asked before you could stop yourself, cheeks burning out of shame as if you two haven't just had sex minutes ago.

He thought for a while. "It depends on the person I'm with and my mood really" he answered, his hand that was on your arm now playing with your hair. "I might go rough with someone and vanilla with next, enjoy a certain kink with another, I'm up to experiment as long as me and my partner are comfortable with" you nodded.

A comfortable silence fell upon you two again. The hum of the city under the building being the only sound until he spoke again.

"Did you enjoy it?" You turned to look at him. "The sex, I mean. Your first time" he brushed the back of his neck a little bit expectantly of your answer.

You nodded with a smile "I couldn't have wished anything better, Soonie. It was perfect" he blushed hard as he smiled, his eyes crinkling and closing with the act. "You took such good care of me and always made sure that I was enjoying it and I was having fun and being pleasured. I know that not anyone would do that, so thank you" you kissed his cheek, the warmth of his skin radiating through your lips.

"I'm glad to hear that, Princess, for real, you were my number one priority tonight" he hugged you and you two enjoyed the bath a bit longer until the water ran cold.

There was something comforting on him. Sure, he was your best friend. Sure, you shared intimacies before and talked about these type of things before. You had cuddled, hugged and kissed each other's cheeks and temples and foreheads before. But now it felt different. There was a new level, a new layer of intimacy added to it. Something new that you couldn't name it yet. But it was there, looming in the air.

After drying yourselves, you put on some of his t shirts and a pair of his underwear so you could be comfortable not to lay in damp panties and jeans. He put on the same thing and laid by your side in bed, pulling you into his chest.

The warmth of his body and the tiredness were starting to settle into your body and lure you to sleep. You hugged his torso tighter unconsciously, as if you were afraid of him to let you go.

He chuckled and kissed the crown of your head. "Good night, princess"

Even in your half asleep state you smiled and answered "good night, Soonie"

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