#sesa

I love testing new programs and art stuff. Is very fun and helps me get out of art block

Arcylic Markers

Ballpoint Pens

Semipalmated Sandpiper (Calidris pusilla). Family Scolopacidae, order Charadriiformes.

Based of "Machine Love" and "My Darling my Companion"

My bros (Jarrett, Nabikio, Tiger)

my Fam (Maggie, Tannufia, Trajeda)

(Megan forgot abt Trajeda blame her)

As you can see they're based off the little critters from Jamie's stuff

SESA logo

Since I'm not in a competition anymore I'm not gna bother with many pictures 

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After a while, I honestly forget what happens before this other than it was just Me, Nabikio, Tiger and Jar in the game room. We were resting from the war i think, planning to bond and chill. 

But Jar had promised to be honest abt his feelings earlier and to talk about them.

So i reminded him

yes you do.

And so he talked, and i wanted to comfort. I wanted to help him feel better. As always.

I tried encouragement, i tried pep talk i tried-

I wanted to fix this-

But i didn't listen. 

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I'll admit I used to have a saviour complex. And i thought it was fine.

Like, forming a whole identity abt saving others was virtuous, right?

I couldn't get physically hurt in any way so i can't get hurt right?

With my 4th wall powers i should be able to understand others enough to KNOW how to need their true needs, right?

The frick you mean right-NO.

It was intrusive, disrespectful and bad not only for me but for others. It was because of it i did many things I regretted. 

Maybe it was just because i wanted to be liked, to be loved, to be usefull and needed. 

Maybe it was how i could believe i was real

Either way it never excused it

The talk ended. Eventually i kept my mouth shut. And Jarrett finally just tolp us his feelings. Wer learned weaknesses and we learned smth new. 

Also Tiger was the only one who listened and asked the right questions. But that's not the point.

I will finish up the War arc here. Or if not then at least the character growth Arc because leaving it off like that makes me look a little pathetic and sad. And still a jerk.

It still needs time to get written and once again, SOMEONE has exams. So it's gna take a while