#septemberjournalentrymarathon

September 2nd 2021 –

Spent the day with Eden, no day care. I’ve finally got her off her Frozen obsession, but now it’s Pocahontas. I mean, it’s not as bad, classic right? Brea’s favourite too. Like mother, like daughter.

We started the day with smiley face pancakes. Blueberry and bananas for the face, Eden loves it. She also dropped orange juice everywhere. Who let her have a normal cup instead of her sippy I’ll never know. It was definitely Speedy. We went to the store to grab some things for Stella’s birthday. Eden wants to throw her a big party. Princess themed. We’ll probably throw her a party, just not Princess themed. It’s crazy how long Stella has been in Eden’s life.

We did get some decorations, big banners and some balloons and stuff. We’re going to try to make a cake too. I ordered one to be safe though. If the house doesn’t burn down while we make it, I can guarantee it’ll still taste like shit.  

September 1st 2021 –

Is it bad to enjoy days without Eden? Like fuck I love her, she’s amazing. She looks so much like her mom, her eyes. She had Brea’s eyes. Sometimes I can’t even look at her. She’s amazing but it’s great since she started day care. I don’t have to rely on people as much and I still get a little bit of a life.

We went to the beach today, it was nice to leave the toys in the truck for once. It was weird though. It’s been years since I really went to the beach. No responsibilities and she looked amazing. I could stare, I probably shouldn’t have stared so much, but damn I could stare as much as I wanted. She looked good. It’s a shame the day ended. I could have stayed there all night. 16 years to go until I can do what I want, stay out late. I’ll probably be too old for these 20 something girls by then.