#september notes

Final page of this chapter. I'm not gonna lie I'm kinda glad it's over. My life is too boring to really talk about, I don't ever do anything besides work and stay home. I'm working on making friends in the area at work. Today was another boring day, just did laundry and washed my bed sheets.

I watched some more American horror story, but it's hard to watch because of how gory it is. And the murdering innocent people thing is hard to watch, I'm not huge into horror movie like that. I always feel so bad for the people...

I started this Netflix anime "dragon pilot", it's really cute. It's like a nicer version of evangelion.

I'm feeling so stressed and anxious lately, even over small things. It's hard to fall asleep and hard to wake up. Everything seems hard for me for some reason. I hate feeling this way. I feel like I'm waiting for something to come to an end but I'm not sure what.

I don't want to end off on a sad note, but I'm just having one of those days. Whenever I don't get to spend days off with Mike I get like this. He makes me happy even when I don't want to be. That's why I wish @hrub didn't live so far away, I miss him all the time. His texts mean more to me than he knows, just knowing he's there for me.

I hope someday I can feel more happy 😊

Tomorrow is the big day, my best friend @hrub 's birthday!! I'm so happy for him, he's seriously the best friend I could have ever asked for. He's so caring to anyone he meets, even strangers, and so selfless, sometimes too much :p but that's what makes him awesome. I wish we weren't so far away because we'd see each other all the time, but at the same time our time together seems that much more special. I never thought I'd have a friend like he is to me, he's so cool without even trying. He keeps me positive, I think we both try to keep each other staying positive.

I'm so glad recently he got a great group of friends, I feel like it's what he needs to keep him happy. I can't wait to meet them one day, don't worry we will do another Scranton trip (to get away from the spotted lantern flies lol). Money is tight and it sucks.

Finally off today, it was so nice to just do nothing for a day. I watched a bunch of "cheapest weddings" on Netflix, it's such a cool show plus it's based in Australia! I was listening to some autumn playlists on Spotify because I'm making a special playlist for @hrub for a special event coming up soon. So don't listen to it ok?!

The song was "I want to feel alive" by the lighthouse and the whaler. They have a really unique sound where they sound dreamy, I loved it. All the sudden when they kept saying "I want to be alive" I just lost it and started crying. I think from just working a bunch of days in a row and with my new hours it feels like all I do is work then sleep. So it just hit me, the song was so beautiful.

Then later I spent a few hours making shepherds pie for the first time, it took like two hours but it turned out so good! "Delicious" as my grandmom always said 😊. I realized I forgot beef gravy for the ground beef, so I just used some flour and worstershire sauce to thicken it up a little, it worked pretty good. Then I forgot to get normal milk for the mashed potatoes, all I had was almond milk that I'm trying out for cereal and you couldn't even tell a difference!

I even asked Mike after and he had no idea, so win! Definitely going to make it again someday I have a day off with nothing to do. It was the first time I made mashed potatoes, I watched a bunch of videos and read recipes, that helped a lot! I then shredded the cheese for ontop yummm.

So today was super hot, like 93 degrees, but I wore my maroon doc Martin's because they remind me of fall. Today was a pretty normal day at work. A little after we started PB randomly took his shoe off and hit a fly, he put a sticker over it so I wrote "rip fly"

Then Elle decided she wanted to keep it (without knowing there was a fly carcass under the sticker) she puts it in a binder holder, so I told her there was a dead fly under there and she thought it was hilarious haha.

Then Elle found these little buckets by the flowers, so Band and I made a few into this little bouquet, it was adorable.

For lunch I got these new muffins that were pumpkin spiced latte with cream cheese inside and PB got these chocolate chip pumpkin creme cake slices, so we shared with everyone, it was pumpkin everything day! A while later after lunch, Shark randomly got really gassy, he clears out a room! I seriously could smell it from like ten feet away, he thought it was hilarious. At the end of the night when we were about to leave, Elle found a little slug in the corn and he was so cute!

That's pretty much the highlights of my day. Now I'm at home, going to shower and try to go to sleep early because I have to get up early to go to the DMV...

I honestly want to cry after hearing the news today. Work is screwing over everyone, I didn't even look at my new schedule because I probably got screwed too. They can't just mess with people's lives like this. I'm trying to stay strong, but looks like Mike and I might need to get new jobs soon....

Other than that, today wasn't bad. Everyone was in which was nice. (I'm going to use nicknames for people I work with) so there was Elle, Carl, Philly, Shark, PB, Banana and Band. They're really cool people to work with most of the time. Philly made a box face.

At the end of the night we took out deli's trash because they were running behind, then Shark takes one of the buckets full of oil and tries to throw it into the trash compactor and almost misses, it sprays some oil and PB started laughing, he has this crazy laugh where it sounds like he's hiccuping/wheezing and he couldn't stop. Then the night time manager comes over and says "if you guys don't have work to do I'll find some for you" and totally just shit on our parade. I guess he doesn't like people having any kind of fun while working. So we just left and went on our last break.

I'm gonna copy my best friend @hrub and do a text post about my day, going to try to do it every day for the month of September! I didn't tell anyone, but I made a video every day on my YouTube channel of just little clips every day. It's hard to because basically all I do is work, so doing this will be much easier. If I have any pictures I'll put them here too.

Today was a do nothing day, I got to sleep in till 11:30. It's not that much longer than what I usually do because I don't work till 1pm anyway, but it was nice. I worked the last five days, then after today I work four more days. So I made this my lazy day.

I made grilled cheese and fries for lunch for Mike and I, his mom just had fries because she's still feeling sick from the chemo. She said even coffee tastes bad to her, which is saying a lot because she lives off coffee. I gave Darla and Dexter their bath, I know this is gross but every year in the summer they get fleas. They get the Frontline plus, but it rarely helps when it's so hot out. So every once in a while I give them a bath with flea medicine in it which helps a lot.

Other than that I watched Re:Mind on Netflix and finally finished it after not watching it for like two months. The ending was lame, but the story was interesting. It was about how these girls all bullied another girl after she became paralyzed and unable to walk, it's messed up but it was meant to be. Now I'm just watching durarara! because I never finished that anime and want to watch it to the end.

Today Mike and I were supposed to go to our mutual couple friend's place for a BBQ/bonfire, but they posted about being at Dutch wonderland and being sick, so I guess they cancelled it. The guy said Mike never answered his text, but Mike never even got one. I hate when people are constantly bailing or not even wanting to hang out anymore... I'm glad I have bunny, I know he'll stick by my side. It just sucks us being so far away.