#sensingnoemotions

((I know I have said that I would have returned sometime earlier last week. But I have to put this blog on hold again, I cannot focus two blogs due to the fact that a member of my family recently passed away.

I just need to get this off from my chest, but my Raven muse is pretty much missing. Not completely, she would come back at the most random moment but then she would leave unexpectedly at the same time.

This isn't me saying that I am deleting her, I love her too damn much to even let her go. We've been together for so long, I've made a lot of friends here and I love all of you guys. I achieved a lot of things on here and made so many accomplishments that still makes me smile. I love looking back at old threads I've done in the past and read them. 

But still...Raven has been quite difficult with me lately, I don't know why. Before all of this happened, she was always in my mind and I can hear her voice loudly in my head; it's like we're one. Now, all of the sudden, it just stopped. I can no longer really hear her in my head, I feel like I can't connect with her like I use to, and I feel like my replies are so OOC. 

I see other Raven blogs popping everywhere right now and a lot of them are doing a better job than what I'm doing on here. I'm I jealous? Yes, I am. I admit that and I am not ashamed to say it, but that still doesn't make me a spiteful bitch. It just makes me sad.

I am just going to say this and tell all of you guys I am taking a small break from Raven. She is still alive, all she needs is a little push and prodding to put her back on track. For now, I'm just going to let her rest and take a break from this.

I will still come back and maybe answer some memes...reply back on smaller threads. But I am not ready for anything major, not just yet. 

The things I see...cannot be unseen.