#selfblogging

I have been ridiculously productive this week. This month, in fact, has been absurdly good on the “adulting” front.

it seems like every other day i learn something else about myself that makes me go “oh, wow, i guess i am a weirdo. thanks to everyone who pointed that out but didn’t tell me exactly what it was that i was doing so i could, you know, work on it.”

i realized the other day that i have been chewing the insides of my cheeks/lips and the sides of my tongue for so long that it has become a constant, unconscious habit. 

i honestly didn’t realize how much i was hurting myself just, casually, all the time, by nipping off little chunks of mucous membrane, often until i bled. also it probably looked really awkward because i often press my finger to my cheek/lip in order to bite very specific spots.

so i’ve been chewing gum almost non-stop for the past week. 

pro: the inside of my cheeks are almost smooth! i can get licorice flavored xylitol gum. my teeth will probably be happier. my breath is no longer a concern.

i have some serious issues surrounding authority figures and police. according to my messed up brain every person in uniform wants to retroactively remove me from my childhood home and/or punish me for not being “normal”. 

it’s worth noting that possession of weed has been decriminalized in this city and an ounce is exactly the most you can have on your person before they can say you’ve got intent to sell.