#self-reading

I just did a reading for myself about what I need to know about my emotional eating food cravings & Spirit confirmed that it is all in my emotions...I GOT ALL CUPS🤯

Here's the advice that I got based upon this spread:

• 4 of Cups - I'm being a bit of a brat and I'm allowing frustration & boredom from the 1st few days of being back on the Keto diet to affect me.

• 3 of Cups - Reaching out to a support group (like a FB group or joining a MeetUp.com group with similar interests) will give me a better sense of community and support as I'm embarking on this Keto weight-loss journey.

• 8 of Cups - I need to let go & walkway from behaviors and habits that no longer serve me because holding onto them will continue to keep me from reaching my goals.

• King of Cups - I need to be patient and nuture myself as I embark upon this weight loss journey. Learning to be supportive, balanced and stable within myself is what will help me reach my goals.

Chakras that I need to focus on:

• Heart

• Solar Plexus

• Root

• Crown

Top of the reading = Theme = Cycles

The 5 cards in a circle around the bottom of the deck = The cycle itself

The Moon - You are blinded by an idea (of a person)

The Lovers - You open your heart to take a chance

6 of Pentacles - You are generous with your time and money

Ace of Wands - You hope with all your heart this person is who you manifested, that does all these different things to show you care/affection/ attention

5 of Pentacle - You are disappointed and wilt in the love you previously had

Bottom of the deck = 10 of Cups = An emotionally fulfilling relationship

Suuuper interesting and relevant to me for sure, im gonna shuffle the deck and see what points in the cycle I can break this, or replace what is there

In terms of breakage:

The Moon ^Son of pentacles (Knight) v Daughter of Cups (Page) = be tentative, observe, and especially see what they want to being to the table by WATCHING for it, not imagining it

The Lovers = No Breakage, only choice continues on here

6 of Pentacles vs The High Priestess = “If you think you’re getting mistreated, you are. Do not second guess it because if you are hurt, if you are hurting, you mist address it.”

Ace of Wands vs 8 of Cups = Understand truly what you have in front of you, and walk away. How many times have they broken your cup? No. More.

5 of Pentacles vs Ace of Pentacles =only give a person a shot if they really resonate with you

Mother of Cups + 8 of Swords = Acknowledge this trap of a cycle your in, ask yourself the hard question after reading all of this

Today I asked my newer deck The Fox Universe Tarot about “Who taught me to hate myself?”

The answer:

XV - The Sage // Community

0 - The Newborn // Growth

To me, the answer came clearly as “the community around me, the people who were suppose to know better, struggling under the veil of their own illusions, with their hearts out, and a clawed for the world around them, yes, they saw you in your little loveliness, a baby, new and unknowing. They tried to pick you up, but with their heart in one hand, and a claw made of the other, there was no room for you there. Other hands tried, but they were just as scattered, through death, through preoccupation, uneven, and reluctant, yes. They could not hold you as you needed.”

When we ask questions like this of ourselves, of our lives, it’s important to follow it up with empowering ourselves.

“How have I worked to detangle this notion?”

The answer:

V - The Mystic // Sprituality

VI - The Betrothed // Relationship

IV - The Stranger // Character

Ah, see? That’s how you soothe yourself. And how powerful that it’s the 3 major arcana grouped around important early journey concepts. Typically in the Rider Waite those correlate to The Hierophant, The Lovers, and The Emperor , but in this deck it’s a little different and equally special. You see, I cared and saved myself through spirituality, through never stopping going through hands and hands till there was equality, and especially, I did it from the innate qualities that made me /me/ from birth. Those qualities got burried, but i dug them out from my shadow, from the flowers on my crown and hand I found the nuggets of clarity, wisdom, and love there was in the impermanent people in my life, and the snake with me since birth continued to watch me, loving me, and accepting me as I took this path one step at a time.

“How accurate is my assessment of how they will fulfill my desires?”

And then drew the cards 7 of Rupees (Pentacles) & The Lovers

Get told you need to have a breakdown? Cause thats kinda the vibe happening here, very Saturn energy, the “if you don’t fix this, I sure as hell will for you.”

Some blind idealism is currently clouding my vision and I need to make a quick change of direction that specifically comes from confronting foundational ways I either treat my dreams, or how I let others interact with me when I’m pursuing what has me passionate in life.