#self-confessed

Some folks frequently make the mistake of assuming that I am gay.

This phenomenon of mistaken identity only gets worst when I date this girl. 

Before, jokes about my sexuality hardly bother me maybe because I had a few gay friends.

Anyway, I have nothing against homosexuality I think everyone is entitled to live the life they want. Realistically, sexuality is what drives everything in this world; which brings me back to this girl that am dating who have refused to accept my own sexuality as a straight guy.

At first a friend of mine introduced me to this girl, its safe to assume am interested in her. Sexually! (Sorry Lord at least am being honest).

In the middle of our "date-daw"?, the most insulting response I get from her - she try to convince of that I've been hiding some dark secrets. Calmly, I corrected her assumptions about my sexuality but wtf I was caught of guard when she said “its okay you can tell me i can your secrets”.

And I was like, is it me or this lady is definitely out of her mind? We just met twice! How egocentric and dumb is she to think that she possess some kinda gay-proselytizing-magical-gaydar-power?

So I decided maybe this girl is not really for me. I know somehow people tend to ask something but they already made up their minds about you.

I don't fit the stereotypical guy image but am not too feminine, at least for me.

Magaaral na talaga ako bukas. Whether I like it, or I like it. Kapag di ko natapos aralin ang mga dapat aralin. Hindi ako aalis ng bahay sa March 26 kahit anong mangyari. Kahit umiyak pa ako ng dugo sa pagmamakaawa sa sarili ko. Kaya dapat magsimula na akong magaral bukas. Dapat magaral na bukas. 

*deep breath

ano nga ba ang dapat kong gawin para mapilit kong ang sarili ko na mag-aral bukas ng taos puso. mahirap dba? hindi mo magagawa ng taos puso ang isang bagay kung ipipilit mo lamang ito. nangangahulugan na nga ba na hindi ko magagawa ang nais kong gawin?