#self cest

Anyway, how’s my fave reconised old men yaoi of two cookies guy doing? :3c

you're soooo right, I think every day is shadowcest day!!

(Work has been kicking my ass and I've been busy, I'll be tabling for the first time in May and I got a lot of work outside of- work.)

Larissa’s self-cest

my biggest fantasy is time traveling back to my younger self (around 9 to 12) and having sex with her. this came from a combination of like ten different things over time lol.

the most obvious thing is the appeal of doing something completely forbidden without any moral repercussions. i can't fantasize about doing sexual things with minors because the thought of hurting someone during sex completely turns me off (i have no beef with sadist i'm just very much not one). but in this fantasy the only person i could possible hurt is myself, so it's like...a fantastical loophole? kind of??

it's also an extension of the "selfcest representing self-love" thing that's been done with fictional women ten billion times. during that time in my life i was really depressed and anxious, and also extremely hypersexual due to abuse that no one was willing to address. like, no one wants to talk with a fifth grader about that fifth grader's sexual thoughts, so i was basically just told to shut the fuck up while my parents tried to pretend that i didn't masturbate all the time. going back in time though, i could make my past self feel loved and actually talk to her about what she's going through.

just as a disclaimer, sex with adults is absolutely not good for hypersexual children. probably would have worsened my situation. but in this scenario i've invented, i know exactly what she's thinking and can make sure it's good for her.

also as a kind of "service top" the idea of giving really good head to someone in the throes of puberty who's never experienced that before is really satisfying. causin pleasure they've never experienced before. akin to a virginity kink, except i wasn't a virgin, just someone who had never had good sex.

uhhh anyways sorry for the ramble. hopefully this was coherent and maybe slightly interesting? reading other confessions on here has definitely made me think differently about kink in some ways. very cool blog.

Man this post is setting me off on the potential ramifications and paradoxes involving non-consensual time travel sex.

Picture this:

As a child, you were brutally sexually assaulted by a stranger. You could never identify who it was because maybe it was dark or they blindfolded or drugged you or something. It messes up the trajectory of your life and completely fucks up your sexuality in all sorts of weird ways. So you dedicate yourself to building a time machine and going back in time to stop the person who sexually assaulted you. You finally succeed in your goal and travel back to that night, but you can't find any sign of the attacker. And now, due to your increasingly debaucherous kinks, you find yourself uncontrollably attracted to your younger self. Unable to resist, you snatch your younger self, and it turns out that all along YOU were the rapist. Your rape is what set in motion the sequence of events that would ultimately cause you to be raped in the first place (by you) 😱 🤯 ⏳

There's a lot of other weird questions it raises. Like can you consent on behalf of your younger self, since you're the same person? 🤔

they look suits together aren’t they? 👀

I know it’s kinda ass but still 😑