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i have no idea how to process this. it’s not unfathomable and it’s something i’ve thought about many times but i don’t actually know how to process it. what do you mean he was such an integral part of me growing up and he did some fucked up things in part bc of the fucked up environment he grew up in and now he’s DEAD and can’t do anything to try and make amends. what do u mean the boys now means harry louis liam niall zayn. what do you mean he left behind a child less than 10 years old. what the fuck do you mean

zayn using a photo of them as kids is really getting to me. does he still see them like that? i look at some people i’ve been friends with for years and see ourselves as the age we were when we became friends. my mental image is stuck there. this is fucking awful dude

andrew locking aaron in a room with canned food and nothing else for days to get him clean and get his life on track vs bryson shoving a bottle of highly addictive pills in teenage jeremy’s hand, leading to complete derailment of jeremy’s life and their little brother’s suicide… are you your brother’s keeper or are you your brother’s killer…

absolutely crazy how jeremy, captain of the sunshine court, meets wymack’s recruiting standards. he’s a fox parading around as a… trojan horse 🫢

also i find it deeply funny that in tsc andrew is just kevin’s pet goalkeeper and kevin’s pet monster and “that creepy little goalkeeper” when he takes up soooo much space in aftg in literally every fucking scene. even when he isn’t physically present he’s taking up space on the page because neil won’t stop thinking about him. then u get inside jean’s head and he’s like yeah aaron minyard is uninteresting outside of his outstanding murder charge and andrew is also there