does this heart make me look blue?
iâm broken, but fully wholeÂ
nothingâs out of place, but everythingÂ
i'm not home, i donât know where that isÂ
i thought you were home, but itâs a fleeting feeling these days.Â
here i am, let down again.Â
while everyone elseâs world continues, mine just stops.Â
i might regret last month. something iâve wanted so bad for so long, and now i may have done it for the wrong reason, or maybe i was bored. my mind wanders and it only finds more questions. iâve changed so much, i had to. itâs hard living with the fact you will always love a hobby more than you love me. i was silly thinking that it would change. it wonât and thatâs okay, there is nothing i can do about it.
iâm worthy
i deserve to be first.Â
iâm really lonely.















