Hello Welcome back, I don’t even know if anyone reads these posts but I suppose that isn’t the point really. 

Now,  I want to explain the title a little bit. I don’t think I can last a whole 24 hours without feeling a little bit stupid. It happens multiple times in the day where I sit back and think I am being incredibly stupid why am I like this? 

I thought the only way to make me feel better today, during a very anxious ridden day was to come back here and explain what I am thinking. One thing about me you should learn is that I am an expert over-thinker. I over think pretty much everything even things you wouldn’t think you can over think I do. It is probably my biggest flaw and something I try to work through every day. I so far in my 22 years of life I haven't come up with a cure or exercise to help me with it. My overthinking makes me spiral most of the time with questions I cannot answer- and the whole not answering the questions makes me spiral even more. Most people say they would never know I think all these things as I have a relaxed face most of the time, but most of the time my stomach is usually doing back flips from all the butterflies that are trapped in there. Anyone out there that knows how to help with overthinking? I have tried everything and just unsure if there is ever anything to help me.

I think in this day and age most people suffer from anxiety and I am definitely not the first or last person to write about it. I think that there is comfort in knowing many struggle it from day to day, makes you feel less lonely. And I suppose that is the whole positive side to social media is that you can see other people go through what you go through, they can connect with you.  I don’t know I may be talking nonsense at this point as I wasn’t planning on writing this I just felt bad so I decided to type away. I have felt the need to be on top of everything all the time- to be at 1000 % all the time. It can be exhausting. I am not here to complain about everything in my life. I have a good life, all in all, I just wish I had time to relax more you know? Not be worried about usual adult stuff we all worry about. I know I am wishing for something that will never happen as adult stuff and worries follow you through everything in your life once you leave home. No matter what age you are. I moved out of Home when I was 18 so I had to grow up and take care of my responsibilities very quickly. Also didn’t help that I moved halfway across the world from my family either. I don’t know what I was thinking! crazy thoughts to think I could be financially stable and responsible at 18. But is probably on my top 5 things I am most proud of myself for. I don’t regret it, I was young and thought I could conquer the world. I wish that part of me was still there. Without moving to be honest I would have been probably a bit more mental. High school was rough. I feel like I am sounding like a broken record of every person who ever experienced a shit time in school. I am sorry I am one of them!! We can talk about my dramatic High School past another time, as I could go on and on about it. But I moved for that reason and just wanted to get out, so I did. I met people like my best friends and boyfriend and don’t know what I would do without them. I may not have my sanity sure, But I have them who like me anyway.

after a trip to my old job it got me thinking 

An inspirational post from some random guy on the internet.

Greetings Readers. Today I would like to officially welcome you to the next chapter of the story that is my life. That’s right, all of you are welcome to be a part of this grand new adventure. In fact, I welcome you all to be main characters in it, considering that my success does rest on my ability to entertain you. Seeing as how I got you back to read another blog entry, I think I’m doing just…

University of Kentucky Arboretum

With 100 acres, the arboretum provides a beautiful place for exercise, learning, and growth. Since it is just off campus it provides to be a beautiful place for students to study or stay fit. The idea was originally proposed by the UK College of Agriculture and Department of Biology in 1983. Imagine all the benefits of a beautiful place just outside your front door. Why don’t students take advantage of this beautiful space? Is the area and cost of the arboretum worth the benefits? What are the advantages of an area like this? Do the advantages outweigh the costs? What percent of students actually use the arboretum? What is the arboretum’s effect on the environment and the surrounding area? Are any of the unique plants in the arboretum harmful to other plant and animal life in the area? Could areas like this benefit other college too?

   Until class yesterday, I wasn't even aware that I had a least favorite website, but then my eyes were opened. Weather.com is just awful. Aesthetically, it is just too busy. There are links everywhere to things that are irrelevant. The advertisements are by no means related to weather and their colors tend to clash with the rest of the colors on the site.

   Functionally, weather.com is a nightmare. If you just type weather.com as the url, it takes you to a page that does not exist. What do they want me to type to get to their site? Also, it is not that intuitive working my way through all the different pages. The buttons are clickable even though they have drop down menus, so while I'm waiting for the menu to load I might accidentally tap on my mouse causing it to take me to an entirely different page than I meant to go to.