Iris view
My life has had some interesting turns, ups and downs and in total I don’t really know how to express how I am feeling now. It’s hard to explain to people what I think because I don’t understand my own thought process. I feel unbelievably conscious, but almost as if I am out of my body. I look at myself in the mirror and don’t see what others see. I have so many thoughts racing (all the time). It’s scary to think life last so long but to most people they feel like it hasn’t even begun at my age. I look in the mirror and stare into my own eyes and try to understand my existence. I try to understand what I can do to make myself perfect in my own eyes. I crave self-acceptance, self-understanding above all else. I don’t care what other people look like the only thing that I judge people on is how they act. What people do in everyday interactions is what matters. If someone is truly conscious and they will feel every grain of sand, the push and pull, the sway, the air, the vibration, the dirt and grime, of life (not just going through motions they do every day).
