You ever think about how you were 8 the first time you wanted to take kill yourself? I do and I have been for like 48 hours now. I was really depressed like the worst it had been ever when I was that little and I went to the park and climbed the tallest tree I could find then I stood there on a branch that definitely should not have supported my weight waiting for it to snap so I could plunge to the asphalt and break my neck and die. It didn't and I regret that I didn't jump.

i wish i could just disappear without actually kiIIing myself