#sch1975

You're a self absorbed selfish bitch. You used me and I knew it. I let you do it anyway. Good luck with your life and your lottery tickets. Bye

Going through old messages between us. Here is something he sent me. Funny how things have changed. I am the one begging for another chance....except in my mind. He has no desire to hear from me, he has moved on and is happy.

From Him:

I woke up and couldn’t go back to sleep so I’m laying here at 2 in the morning thinking about you and all these things going on between us. Thinking about you and what you’re going through. I prayed about it and this is what’s been laid on my heart Ronica. Please bear with me and hear me out. Way back in May of 2017 I was reading articles on how to love an emotionally unavailable woman. One in participant I saved and I’ve read it hundreds of times trying to understand what I needed to do. It said over and over to just stay. Stay. So I have. Even when you told me there was no reason to stay. The article even mentioned that the woman might would say this. I put all my confidence and faith in this article but I realized that maybe you aren’t emotionally unavailable at all. You choose to be single. I misunderstood that all this time. I’m sorry I was so focused on it that I didn’t listen. I really believed I could stay and hopefully one day grow on you. I know that isn’t going to happen now and that’s perfectly okay. That brings me to this. I’ll be honest with you. When people noticed you weren’t on my Facebook anymore I started getting lots of messages from girls. I’m not telling you this to make you jealous but to make my point. At first I was a little excited at the possibility of a fresh start. Maybe the thought of being wanted was exciting. But after talking to some of them I realized that I am just not interested. I don’t want to date anyone. I don’t want to have sex with any of them. I’m not the least bit attracted to any of them. I just want to go back to what we had. No sex or intimacy. No relationship. I want to get memes from you and hear how your day went. I want to talk about things we want to do even if we may never get around to them. I want to be tagged in Facebook articles. I miss you. I miss what we had. I’d rather be your friend and never have intimacy again than to half ass go through the motions with someone that I really don’t care about. Sex or not, relationship or friendship, losing what I had with you isn’t worth it. I want that back. That’s what I want. I know you don’t want to talk to me right now. That’s completely understandable. I won’t bother you. And I understand that it can’t go back to that right now. I just want you to know where I stand.Maybe you think this makes me a pushover but I think it just makes me a man that knows what I want. I’m swallowing all of my pride to say this. But I’m doing it gladly and confidently. I am not perfect and I definitely am not a catch but I love hard and care for a small few people on this earth. You are one of them Ronica and you won’t find anyone who wants you to be happy more than me even though I get a little selfish sometimes. And I’m saying this meaning as in a friend. To me there isn’t a label. We’re just us. Take some time and I’ll be here if you ever want me as your friend or if you ever get to feeling better. If there’s ever anything I can do for you I’ll be here. I hope this came out right. And I still want to know what was getting in your pool lol. That’s all I wanted to say. Please don’t get upset at me. I’m trying my best to fix this and save the best friendship I’ve ever had. But mostly I just want you to get better and be happy. With that being said I promise not to bug you about it anymore. Take all the time you need. I’ll be here

Then he added:

I want you to know that you’re loved even when things aren’t going well. Especially when things aren’t going well. Hope you have a great day

He already told me that he wants to spend the rest of his life with her....that they've discussed marriage.