#scaredlibrary

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Applies ATTRACTION: Repulsive | Unattractive | Average | Attractive | God Help Me TRUST: Trust To Be A Problem | Warrants Caution | Average | Reliable | Trust With My Life RESPECT: Worthy Of Disrespect | Deserves No Respect | Hadn’t Earned Any Special Respect | More Respected Than Most | Highest Respect INTEREST: I’d Rather Watch Paint Dry | Distinctly Uninteresting | No Idea Yet | Interesting | I Must Learn More! PRACTICAL SKILLS: Blunder Factory | Antitalent In Many Things | Average | Skilled In Many Things | Master SOCIAL SKILLS: Disaster | Weirdo | Normal | You Should Speak | Silver Tongue KNOWLEDGE SKILLS: Dummy | Knows A Few Things | Average | Expert | Walking Library COMBAT SKILLS: Weakling | Half-Decent | Equal | I Can Learn From You | Unmatched WEALTH: Pauper | Poor | Seems Average | Wealthy | Filthy Rich

Maybe, Very, Absolutely Not YOU ARE: Brave | Strong | Kind | Scary | Unsettling | Secretive | Stubborn | Naïve | Strange | Lovely | Insecure | Genius | Misguided I WOULD: Fight | Spar | Protect | Help | Kill For | Learn From | Date | Sleep With | Hire | Kill | Sacrifice Myself For YOU ARE MY: Enemy | Rival | Friend | Family | Love/Crush | Most Important

“you’re just like your father”

“is that what you think?” there’s a chill to his voice that’s not usually there, a mask being thrown up over old hurts.

and they do, her words. they cut him right down to the bone. he’d tried so desperately to not be john winchester. the accusation flays him.

“i have never once abandoned my family, never left them to figure shit out on their own. have i ever purposely hurt you or sam? stomped on your dreams and told you to grow up?” he takes a deep breath, aware he’s getting worked up.

“i raised you and sam to the best of my abilities while having to play house wife to an absent father. i did what i could, scar.” dean exhales, scrubs a hand over his face, and downs the whiskey in his glass. he doesn’t want to fight with his sister, but pain lingers longer than one would appreciate.

🥏

the projectile comes out of nowhere and instantly puts him on alert, snapping around with rage.

plastic sits at its feet, and homelander realizes it’s a frisbee. so it wasn’t under attack, just an idiot not watching what they’re doing. his eyes scan until they meet the gaze of her. butcher's sister. just as annoying as her brother, homelander is not a fan.

"do you have a death wish just as much as your brother?" it asks, lip curled up in a snarl.

“what are you going to do, stab me?” he asks, crossing his arms over his chest. sam loved teasing his sister, it got a much better reaction than it did dean. it helped that sam knew exactly which buttons to press to piss scar off.

"i don't think you will," sam smirked. "you love me too much."

only the fact this is his sister allows sam to say those words, knowing it's true. not much was a constant for him anymore, but dean and scarletta always were. it allowed for these moments, where they got to act like kids again.

"hey, don't tell me to shut up when i'm worried about you. that's my job, as your big brother." she acts like he wants to lock her in a cage, when all he wants is her to be okay. too many bad things had happened to their family, and dean would be damned if he sat back and continued to let it happen.

he ignored her warning about the smoke, it didn't phase him. so much worse had happened to him to care. he took another step closer, put a hand on scar's shoulder.

"i look out for you just as much as i do sam. i care. more than we can say about..." well, dean wasn't sure if he needed to make the distinction on who he was thinking about. he was the head of this family now, and he'd protect them with his dying breath, as he's done his whole life. today had been too close, he didn't want it happening again.

I don’t use wattpad and considering how many times people plagiarized mine and others’ works on here...no thank you lmao.

I also used to read on there for a while a few years ago and the tone/style of the stories that get seen the most is often...distinctive. People don’t really do Reader stories. They use OCs that are light weight inserts and use celebrities as their avatars in the the story and face claims of famous men they want to bang for whom they create whole new identities in their stories. For this reason, as was explained to me by a former friend/mutual...the stories on there can lead to book deals and are easier to market as that. You’ve got these mafia stories, kidnapping stories, some quite dark, that can reach this wider audience and reach millions of views or whatever. But the style doesn’t need to be the most...polished, to speak politely, just popular and liked by a bunch of kids lool. Often the more outrageous the story, the more people enjoy...it’s similar to tumblr in that way 😂😂.

As for AO3, the general quality of stories on there is usually quite high. Beautiful, elaborate stories and writing do quite well. Series do well usually cause they grow overtime with kudos, comments and views, but in general outside of series, I don’t get very many comments on there, mostly kudos (it’s like a permanent like on ao3. Once it’s given, it can’t be erased).

Tumblr is probably where you’ll get the most feedback, even when your story has "low engagement"...it’s still a bit more than ao3 number wise. But get ready to tear out your own hair at the overwhelming, ridiculous ratio of likes to reblogs lol.

As for my preference? I’ve read on ao3 long before being on here so I’ll always use it to some extent (though technical issues with my laptop have curtailed my updating on there 😂). I don’t fuck with wattpad. Period. I’ve seen brilliant writing and poetry get ignored cause it’s not outrageous enough and doesn’t have mafia men lmaooo. And tumblr’s cool even if I badly suck at the social part of the site. I put my foot in my mouth...constantly. I rant every other week about some shit 🤣🤣. I don’t do so well at that part but overall people are still kind and supportive to me, which I appreciate.