#scaredforfinals

not even finals week I still have to attend my classes this week but I am so stressed with all the stuff I have to do... they all seem to overlap around the same time too! which great esp cause I've been so tired and my sleep gym social shower study is so messed up... I've calculated my first final is in 10 days If I study 3 lectures each day I can fully learn the syllabus before my final so it's time to lock in (I deadass might have adhd I don't know if this is all just talk)

I've also been so burnt out for my major which is quite bad since it's a group final I feel so bad for my teammate having to do everything I've just never been this exhausted before... I'll figure out how to do the other half I promise 🙏 I know the deadline is in a week for everything but I'll lock in in a second just let me get in the zone teammate... sorry for worrying u

As the week is getting closer to ending I'm more and more nervous about telling them - I really don't have a script planned or anything just saying it from the heart despite the outcome really have to let this one out this time- i'm changing my previous ways of sitting and admiring.

Music heals the heart soul so here's my monthly tracks I've been playing cause Spotify wrapped is so inaccurate for me tbh

Robbers 1975 - recently a friend of mine went to their concert and they played this, after making me watch all the videos they recorded (just kidding I loved watching all of them) and robbers specifically the guitar part is what got me thru

Envy the Leaves Madison Beer - I've always been a secretive fan of Ms Beer but her recent album is honestly so good this song reminds me of Billie Getting Older her voice is so angelic esp in the part " Why don't we lie and act like the best is yet to come"

Nothing Matters But You Madison Beer - the bridge here... just so so good feel like music resonates with me

You're The Only Good Thing In My Life - Cigarettes After Sex I don't know what to say honestly... I've always been a big CAS fan and I have monthly favorites from them each time "Everything is wrong but it's alright, you're the only good thing in my life." This line. just glad I met the right people in my life to help me when I'm going through it.