well hI THERE! wow i havent made a text post in ages lmao....well, the lovely and beautiful peytonĀ @groundopenwide tagged me in this thingy to āname 3-5 things about this year that have made you happy bc this year has been pretty shit as a society/planet and its been tough on a lot of people and itās nice to try and remember the good stuff too!ā which is a really nice concept especially considering i havent had the best of times during 2017 so here we go!
1. i went to a concert this year!!!!! *crowd cheers* i havent been to any concert in almost 4 years so it was really exciting seeing ed sheeran in june, it was sooo good, queued 18 hours and got to be really close to the stage and i went with my dad which made it a nice bonding experience as well :ā)
2. i presented my thesis!!! and it went well!!!!!!! *crowd keeps cheering in the background* this was honestly smth that had been giving me anxiety ever since i stated uni. i was so soooo scared and the process was tiring and my sleep routine, if i ever had one in the first place, was ruined, but hEY, nothing like the feeling u get after u hand in the doc and finish the oral presentation ;-;
3. related to the last one but, my thesis could be published in an actual proper journal!!!!! *crowd cheers louder* I CANT BELIEVE THIS!!!! there were times during the past 6 months that i was like.....gOD why did i choose this topic??? i couldnt have chosen a worst topic..... and then when i finished and i got my grade and everything my teacher told me it was SO GOOD that it could be published and i still cant believe!!!!!!!! honestly, my thesis gave me endless anxiety this semester but it was worth it at the end
4. i finally got my gpa to be higher than the ugly 3,9 iāve had since first semester! *crowd cheers even louder* now dont get me wrong, 3,9 is a super good number for a gpa but i was sO TIRED of seeing that number after all the effort i put in every single semester. but this year it paid off, and my thesis helped, and now itās at 4,1!!!!! cAN U BELIEVE??? i cannot. that gpa helped me get the extra financial aid i needed bc i need to take an extra semester for practice which really took a heavy weight off my parents shoulders so i guess i can say im pretty proud of myself.
5. this one is still not like a proper thing yet but, iāve struggled A LOT with my mental health this year. like, a lot. itās been honestly so bad at times i just....well letās say i havent been in a very good place. and i know next semester, with practice, im gonna struggle even more, so im finally doing smth about it. im trying to get an appointment with a therapist so i can....do something instead of letting depression and anxiety get the best of me. itād be with a therapist from my uni, bc that way itās free and seeing that my parents know nothing about my mental health struggles and they could never afford to pay for smth like that itās the best choice....iād start next semester with some sort of therapy so itās still not a real thing since itās december and mostly everyone is on vacations but im pretty proud of myself from finally getting some help in this which hopefully will make next year a lil bit easier.
wow. that was nice!! honestly, this year had bad days and rEALLY BAD days but when u focus on the nice things u realize there was some light in the middle of those ugly days so yeah....THANK U PEYTON for tagging me in this!! (love u) and now im gonna tag @niallchins @flick-niall-er @craicthatniall @lewisandneil @niallspringsteenĀ @sakabelleĀ @savorydaneĀ @farfromthstars and last but not least @zlall so i can hear about nice things about ur 2017 as well <3<3<3<3
