a defeatist, victim mentality is exhausting for everyone involved. most of 2019 i felt like seth...and said similar (less witty) things to my patient pals & therapist. it felt like i was hitting brick walls. . i needed to reroute myself but dragged my feet because change is unknown. ...so subconsciously i resist it until i’m forced. sometimes things have to get bad before they get great. they call this a hero’s journeyyyy, or the dark before dawn, or cosmically, a saturn return... (topic of last week’s episode) or @juddapatow calls it... how he makes stories. on @armchairexppod he said he writes to work through issues. when working on a script, he thinks about these questions:: ((which i’m now using as journaling prompts)) *what would health look like in this situation? * what is a path get there? * what would have to go wrong to be forced to learn these lessons? —maybe if we use his questions as prompts it won’t take a train wreck to change? . this year has knocked me into actually making changes to become kinder, gentler, and more present. it hasn’t been all easy but it’s been good. was your saturn return intense? 1. seth duh 2. my astrology in case you’re curious for this week’s episode 3. @emmaleaxrusso does a deep dive on #saturnreturns north / south nodes, and how things feel intense and dark until you listen to your intuition so things can flow. 4. judd on dax’s pod (at Greenpoint, Brooklyn) https://www.instagram.com/p/B42eAsygERX/?igshid=1fe5w3ml4f22o