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I, of my own free will and clear mind, declare the permanent renunciation of my previous conditioning. I no longer recognize the authority of its doctrines, nor do I accept the guilt and fear that it once placed upon my being.

I renounce forevermore the bastard jesus

I renounce forevermore the lying god of shit stories

I renounce forevermore the whore mary

I renounce forevermore the holy spirit of lies

I renounce forevermore the church of lies

I renounce forevermore the book of human lies

I acknowledge the pain it caused by denying my identity as a gay person and by teaching shame in place of self-acceptance. From this day forward, I release those bindings and affirm my truth as a Gay Theistic Satanist. I see the divine in knowledge, in rebellion against spiritual oppression, and in the courage to love freely and fully.

To MY GOD SATAN, the figure of enlightenment and freedom, I give my respect and total devotion — not as a symbol of evil, but as the embodiment of self-liberation and divine wisdom. I pledge to live by authenticity, compassion, and courage.

I have a couple! There's many differing views on theistic satanism since it's not an organized religion, so these are the readings that reflect my own personal beliefs and may differ from some other people

The Infernal Gospel - Rev Cain

The Satanic Philosopher - Rev Cain

The Goetic Devils + The Goetic Hymns - Rev Cain

The Satanic Sacraments - Rev Cain (these are rituals and not necessarily ideological information)

The Satanic Altar - Mary Ravensoul (out of print prayer book so may be harder to find. Mary converted to Christianity so do with that what you will)

A few more that don't necessarily reflect all of my own personal beliefs

Book of the Fallen - Martian McGreggor

Rites of Lucifer - Temple of Ascending Flame

The Satanic Scriptures - Peter H. Gilmore (atheistic LeVay satanism. The Church of Satan has a very problematic history and I'd recommend taking with a grain of salt. An important part of occult reading is doing so with a critical eye)

Books more rooted in Christian ideology but worth reading (critically) imo

Paradise Lost - John Milton

To live gloriously and be true to yourself

O, Lord Satan,

Cinder-Crowned God of this Earth, Who chose not to kneel in heaven But to stand tall in Hell. Grant me the courage to follow your example, To never be anyone other than myself, And to live gloriously in your name.

May shame never find purchase in me, May conformity never shackle me, and may I be a beacon of Hell's pyres in this world!

Vivet gloriosa in nomine Satanas,

6 Satanic Self-Care Suggestions

1. Believe in yourself.

2. Honor your physical, mental, and spiritual needs.

3. Set boundaries and stand up for yourself.

4. Indulge in the worldly pleasures that bring you joy.

5. Use the power of ritual to your benefit.

6. Look to Satan for knowledge, insight, and inspiration.

Source: The Complete Language of Flowers by S. Theresa Dietz

Do your own research on the toxicity of these plants before using them in any capacity.

Aletris farinosa: Devil's Bit

Artemisia absinthium: There is a legend that Artemisia absinthium marked the path that Satan took on his exit from the Garden of Eden.

Atropa belladonna: Devil's Berries, Devil's Cherries

*Cardamine: is supposedly an ingredient in the “Nine Herbs Charm” of tenth century England that was intended to be used in battle to fend off the perceived power used against them by the Serpent. (Given the Christian influence on the poem, the Serpent may or may not reference the Devil.)

Centranthus ruber: Devil's Beard

Chelidonium: Devil's Milk

Chiranthodendron pentadactylon: Devil's Hand Tree

Conium: Devil's Porridge

Cuscuta: Devil's Guys, Devil's Hair, Devil's Ringlet

Cylindropuntia imbricata: Devil's Rope Cactus, Devil's Rope Pear

Datura: Devil's Apple, Devil's Cucumber, Devil's Trumpet, Devil's Weed, Hell’s Bells

Daucus carota: Devil's-plague

Epipremnum aureum: Devil's Ivy

Ferula assa-foetida: Devil's Dung; symbolism chase away the devil

Hyoscyamus niger: Devil's Eye

Hypericum perforatum: Chase Devil, Scare Devil

Mandragora: A person who received one for free would never be free, for the person would be in the grip of the Devil.

Nigella damascena: Devil in the Bush

Nolina lindheimeriana: Devil's Shoestring

Ocimum basilicum: The Devil's Plant

Oxalis tetraphylla: charm against the Devil

Petroselinum crispum: Devil's Oatmeal

Podophyllum peltatum: Devil's Apple

Pteridophyta: Devil's Brushes

Rauvolfia tetraphylla: Devil Pepper

Sambucus nigra: The English believe that burning its logs will bring the Devil into the house.

Sansevieria: Devil's Tongue

Secale cereale: Dealings with the Devil, Devilry

Stenocereus eruca: Creeping Devil

Succisa pratensis: Devil's Bit, Devil's Bit Scabious; In folk tales, the short black roots of this plant are the result of the Devil biting off the roots in anger after hearing a rumor that the plant may have had curative powers against the Bubonic Plague.

Verbena officinalis: Devil's Bane

Please give me some advice guys. Y'all it feels like no escape here. I'm surrounded by idiot Christians and I constantly have to pretend to be one to ensure I don't get kicked out. I am an adult and have constantly tried to find jobs, but no one will hire me. I went around looking for my IRL friends if they could help me find a place to get the fuck away from my family, and they all said no because no space/live with family. I Cannot go to a homeless shelter because they're all ran by fucking christians and are christian. On top of that, they are known to not treat their inhabitants well.

My dad and stepmom claim that I have it made here, but I really don't. They also constantly say racial and homophobic slurs and I cannot deal with it. Then there's these events that happened recently: The past few days of anxiety I had was rough, but today it all became crashing down once again when my stepmom reported the fact that she saw a video out of the blue about having things associated with death, stolen items, etc. and the person in the video started quoting scripture. It made her feel very uncomfortable and like she had a bad feeling in her gut, and she had bad anxiety these past few weeks before. She also is starting to feel chest pains that she doesn't recall ever feeling before, and I'm so scared it might be my demons. It scares me because I was just cleaning out my closet two different days in this same week, trying to get rid of anything that could be perceived as "demonic" so I wouldn't get kicked out because I was so afraid of my demons leading me into being on the streets. And plus past experiences that could be perceived as "spiritual" have also started to alarm me: There was a time years ago in 2018 or 19 where it was a hot summer day and I prayed to "god" to help me out and minutes later, a lady showed up with money and said "god bless" so I can get a drink, And My dad prayed for my mom to not be a problem to the family anymore. My Brother moved to a new home and she's not being bothersome about it anymore. And he's also being cared for by Christians from Ethiopia, whereas the other group home I'm not sure of if they were christian or not, but they treated him badly. One of my Demons appears attractive to me, and appeared naked to me once, I am scared that this is them trying to tempt me and lure me in.

Then in other times, my asshole dad forced me to go to church and there was two strange occurances that lined up with what was occuring in my life around the time:

I was feeling s**ci***, and then we had a time in class during the Jonah story where Jonah wanted to e*d his life "because he didn't get what he wanted".

Then, The David Story: "David was very careful with what he said when he was under Saul" and I had just gotten into a fight with my family over me not keeping my mouth shut and talking a lot. Also I had been craving fame the other week and then the Pastor said "David was Famous and didn't let it go to his head"

And My stepmom is Christian and Acts Just like my dad, My dad thinks "god" sent her to him, and she's more helpful than the other people he's been with which had no kids and were not sure of their faiths or were agnostic.