#sarge thoughts

I know I talk a big game about narcissism but it is genuinely exhausting. Like it’s emotionally draining to believe that with enough power you could really just fix the world. If you just worked at it. If you just fixed yourself. There is an evil burning core in the depth of my soul that believes if I stopped being transgender, started going to church again, and began physically harming people I could truly fix everything and it’s literally creating a giant me-shaped hole in myself. I am so sick of my expectations for myself. All I want to do is rest.

Bitches will get in their Rocky chair and happily go Rocky and immediately be hit by the evil beam of oh yeah I have spinny disease.

My stupid fucking. Oc. Who is a nothingburger oc so he shouldn’t even have a personality beyond WHAT I TELL HIM TO DO. Will not date. The girl I’m trying to set him up with. In Tomodachi life. U little hockey bastard. Ur days r fucking numbered. I will make you an island. A Des island.

Feeling…unromantic.

Nothing like seeing a hey team, thinking ur boss immediatly caught u accidentally looking at porn with ur work google account, and it’s actually a notice someone’s leaving cause their mom died. I’ve been through the emotionally equivalent of a car crash in four minutes

I hate the vagina embolism post. Thats an all time thing im constantly worried about. it's why I stand every time I fart. fuck u vagina embolism post

So embarrassing. Squeeing bc I get to be around and interact with all these valuable people but it's literally just a niche fandom with other fans that isn't big enough to have big name fans (in the real way). Why does my brain see a url I recognize and go "Rad Im a more important person now."