#sar-bear

I miss you too babe! But don’t be sorry! You just got married!! It’s kept you busy, and I totally understand. Plus, to be fair, I haven’t made much of an effort either- I’ve pretty much let school take over my life and kill all my social interaction. 

psst I’ll try to check it out later!!! Super excited for this chapter!!!

Sar-bear, I hope you're handling yourself well today. I know the ER trip wasn't exactly what you call "handling it well", but it's really understandable. Ya know, there's a real big reason I respect you. You're more than willing to tell people you've fucked up in hopes to help them, and you have. 

I know it's hard to watch Vegas, one of your closest friend, be so low that she attempts at her life. It's even worse that there's so man cunt bags sending hate, but you'll get better and she'll get better to. I don't know how you both will, but I believe together there's really no way in stopping you two. 

I appreciate you so much and I'm glad I can say that I know you, even if I don't know you as well as I wish to. Please, be safe. I don't care if you're going to be strong or weak, just fucking safe and alive is all I wish. Please stay here. 

I feel really awkward writing this out.. tbh. 

Vegas, I'm very fucking glad you're still here. We've literally only talked once and I absolutely adore you. I can't tell you how much I actually keep track of you on your blog, reading almost every text post to make sure you're okay because I'm such an awkward person socially, I can never bring myself to speak with you again. I wish I could of helped, but a strangers words wouldn't have stopped you because of how hard headed you are- which is both good and bad.

But let me not live on what just recently happened. Why? Because this will be just a step in your journey. Your life is but an up-hill journey; sometimes you trip and fuck up; sometimes you sit down, look around and rest; sometimes you fucking roll down it like there's nothing but gravity helping you; and then your right back to climbing. And, the thing is, you don't believe you have the strength to keep climbing. But, beautiful, you do. There is strength inside you that reaches from your head to your toes. You're not aware of this because you're looking at yourself in such a negative light that all you see in worthless, blackness.